Brain Dead

Can’t work
Can’t think straight
Can’t think of anything else

Sad
So sad
Extremely sad

Cried
Cried and cried
In the office
And pretended I’m having flu

It’s a very ‘remeh’ issue
But when I’ve been having high hopes and dreams on it
And all this has been planned way ahead for the last 7 months
Even though the execution plan might not be as ‘perfect’ as what I’ve imagined
I could settle for this
It might not be anything fancy or over the top, but I’m thankful enough as this is what we could afford

But now, it has all vanished
And I couldn’t see any second chances for this in the future
But he didn’t understand
He never did, and never will
He must think that I’m selfish and not being considerate

I know I won’t win this battle
I know I can’t put my foot down on this
I’ve rest my case but the world definitely doesn’t revolves around me solely
Therefore, I shall accept things as it is

But I can’t help for being sorry for myself
This is not what I’ve wanted
Not what I’ve seen myself
Not what I’ve imagined
But I’ll embrace it.



p/s: still hoping for a miracle.