This and That

It has been a while kan?

Bukan tak nak update

Tapi malas

Lagi la dgn xde internet connection kt umah tu

Nk harap kt ofis  ni, Cuma allocate 60mins per day for blog

So masa yg ade tu lebih byk diguna utk blogwalking je

Blog sendiri tak berupdate….miahahhaa

 

Nurin's monthly progress pon dh byk bertangguh

Tapi ade je dlm draft

Cume tak publish je

 

Gamba pon lama x update kt fb

Speaking of fb, lagi la lama tak bukak

Kt opis ni mmg takleh bukak fb

So forget It je laaa

Ayah selalu tanya nape dh lama tak update gamba nurin

Huhuhuhu…

 

Since ade a few bende nk update,

Update sekaligus je la

Ni pon update pakai email

Pics pon x dpt nk letak coz lupe nk bwk cable nk transfer pics

Byk gile alasan…. Pfffttttt

 

 

In point forms

·         Last weekend, ayah, mama n girl sleptover at our new crib. Khamis tu ayah hantar katil utk letak kt bilik diorg, specifically utk mama. Oh, ade kerusi n sofa jugak…rupenye diorg beli sofa baru…dlm diam²…dh ade yg baru, yg lama dilanting pd kita…mama siap sediakan kuah laksa johor. So ahad tu kami semua menjamu laksa johor …first time makan ramai² kt umah kami…dok atas lantai mkn atas coffee table je…yea…kami masih belom beli dining table…and masih belom terasa nk beli. Tgk la nnt nk dekat raya ke…hahahha

 

·         Having a baby with eczema, sgt costly! Segala mak nenek sabun, lotion, baby oil, minyak urut and bedak terpaksa dilupakan begitu shj…mak pak nye la yg terpaksa pakai…tak kan nk buang kot…byk lagi, n wangi² pulak tu…belen anak, mak pak pakai. Utk anak, terpaksa beli cetaphil yg berharga 19.20 utk botol kecik. Pengsan! Nasib Hydrocort cream tu doctor boleh prescribe. So bole claim je nnt. Dh tu pulak, mengada, tak bole berpanas. 2 weeks ago, balik Pontian, bwk Nurin jump nyang dia….umah kampong, kan, dh la skrg cuaca mmg panas….dok amuk je…last² bukak segala, tinggal diaper je…5 jam kt sana, 5 jam la dia berlengging. Happy je lak tuh. Makanya, umah kami pon terpaksa la pasnag air-cond…bilik atas tu mmg bahang…a few nights gak Nurin tak leh tido…once pasang air cond, first night tu, dia tido lena, straight dr 8.30 smpai 6.30pg….terkejut mak!

 

·         Work wise, masih lagi takde hati sgt kerja kt sini…nk dekat sethn dh…tp masih belum dpt rasa the passion. Terfikir nk cari kerja lain, tp syg nk kuar dr company ni…sbb benefits dia mmg best! Tp Cuma tak suka sbb KILANG.

 

·         Am thinking of getting an insurance for Nurin…baru smlm survey and contacted someone regarding Prumychild. Sbb I pakai PruBSN kan, so harus la survey yg under one roof dulu…he quoted 100 per month. The coverage pon mcm ok…tp kene bincang dulu dgn hubs.

 

·         Tentang rumah, rasanya kami dh fully settled down. Cuma masih mencari idea mcm mane nk divide kn hall dgn dapur….sbb rasa cm awkward sbb org yg tgh tgk TV, boleh terus nmpk dapur directly. Bak kata hubs, kalau org dtg, kita nk minum air kt dapur pon cam x sedap ati.

 

·         Oh yes! We  I finally bought a booster seat for Nurin. I did not get the bumbo coz ade baca review, compared to An Bebe, bumbo seat agak kecik/sempit skit. Ade sekali tu test kan Nurin on booster seat tak igt nama, tp from Simple Dimple kt Fab Mom, its too big la pulak. So settled dgn An Bebe…bought o9 from OBW.. mmg just nice je utk Nurin. Hubs mmg menentang la memula tu…lagi lak dgn harganya yg agak pricey tu kan. Tp bile dia tgk anak dia boleh bertahan dok dlm tu, dia ok je….coz lately ni, Nurin mmg susah nk dibiar baring. Dia suka didudukkan. So bile dh ade An Bebe seat ni, snang skit. Balik keje, masuk umah, letak dia dlm seat, on tv, dptla I settle pape yg patut kejap. Mak pon kata snang skit keje dia sjak ade seat tu. Boleh la dia masak dgn tenang skit.

 

·         I personally feel yg 2012 is not a good year for me, health wise. I've been sick from day 1. From one to another. I hope bende ni takkan berlarutan ke 2^nd quarter of 2012. Tp kan, ade sorang colleague ni yg sama² pump, I cerita la yg I selalu skt kan…dia kata, dia dulu pon sama, masa baby dia <6months.dia mmg bf anak dia. And dia selalu demam la, cough la, flu la…tp anaknye,sihat walafiat je….sama la kami…setakat ni, Alhamdulillah, Nurin ok je…except for the eczema bit.

 

·         Did u guys listen to JOHARA PAGI ERA? Ahahhaha..I used to listen to HotFM pepagi nk gi keje sebelom ni…tp sejak Johan join morning show kt ERA, I beralih ke Era…walaupon kekadang bingit dgr Johan gelak, tp suka je nk dgr lawak yg kekadang bodo tu….pepagi, stress dgn jam, dgr benda yg lite², ok la kan….

 

·         Am thinking of buatkan passport utk Nurin. tp masalahnye, dh segan nk  amek cuti…ye la, I ni asek la MC la, EL la, hospitalized la…nk amik cuti semata², aduhai….segan! tp kena buat passport jugak…paling² pon, before raya, Nurin WAJIB dh ade passport…kalau tak, mmg sesia la kena maki dgn family sana…hohoohho…eh btw, nk buat passport utk baby, both mom n dad mesti hadir ke? Or salah sorg je pon bole? Anyone?

 

·         Hubs finally beli 'barang' idamannya yg ditahan² sejak tahun lepas. TV leper! Siap dpt 3 pairs of 3D glasses. 3D player mmg dh lama ade. Ni dh ade TV yg bole main 3D, tp cerita 3D je takde. Yg ade cumela channel ESPN 3D tu…bosan! Nk beli cd 3D, beratus woi!!! So perap je la…..tapikan, boleh kire bape kali kami tonton tibi leper tu. Coz most of the times, kami lepak dlm bilik sbb sejuk…so tibi kotak yg gabak tu jugak tetap ditatap..eh eh…tp apela maknanye umah ade tibi besar, tp xde tenet….adoiyaiiiii….nk amik unifi, ketaq lutut nk membayo tiap bulan! Nk amek streamyx, hmmmmmm….P1? forget it!

 

Eh…dh 10 points laaa

Cukup la setakat ni

k. bai!

 

Infection

I was discharged yesterday at 5pm
been spending 5 days hospitalized
since Wednesday
due to prolonged fever for the past 2 weeks

the kind of super high fever up to 40.2 deg with shivering
luckily I made the right decision to go to the hospital on that day
as my white blood cells (WBC) counts exceeds the normal range significantly
mine was 29000 while normal range is less than 12000 (if Im not mistaken)

u may google up on WBC for more info
as for my case, it seems like there's some infection on my blood
and guess what?
It was due to the recurrent mastitis!!!

so mommies....
If you're having the same prob as mine
which is recurrent breast engorgement, followed by high fever
and I had finished 3 courses of antibiotics
prescribed by doctors from the general clinic
but the symptoms still anticipate,
please please please go to the specialist

as for me, I called up my gynae @ my uncle
and he asked me to go straight to the hospital and meet him
he examined me, my mrs b and did a thorough scan
he doubt that Im having mastitis as mrs b were tender at that moment
so he ordered a Full Blood Count (FBC)
and explains the result, thus admitted me right away for septic workout

those first 3 days were the terrible
I'll be down with fever at any time
and it straight away spiked to 39deg++
never less than that
which makes me shiver to my spine
when Im fine, Im my usual self, happily expressing milk
for my dear baby whom I've never seen since wednesday

yeah...I still pump though I'm having fever
I still let her drink my milk even Im on antibiotics
many said it's not ok to feed ur bb when u're down with fever
but I had consulted the specialists, and they said it was OK
so no worries

after 4days of Augmentin BD,
no more fever
I was discharged after Im free from fever for 24 hours

now, Im already at home
healthy and happy to see my baby
However, it was only 5 days since I last saw her
but she has changed!!!! a lot!
she's more 'mesra', chirpy, reacts more to whatever u said to her
but the bad part, she starts to bite!!!!!
Oucccchhhh!!!!!
4 months, and she's already teething???
so early huh?

Unwell and Moved Out!

I was unwell since the last post
nampaknya, bukan Nurin shj yg suka main Peek-A-Boo dgn I
Mastitis too!!!

bermula dgn kiri, bhgn atas - surut on wed
beralih ke bhgn bawah, masih pd mrs B kiri - surut on friday
igt dh ok

tetibe selasa, kene belah kanan pulak
demam, tak usah cerita laaaa
dan dan bengkak, dan dan la temp tak pernah bawah 38 deg
kekadang smpai menggigil

so dekat 2 minggu ni,
I totally relied on painkillers and antibiotik yg sebeban tu
dh 3 jenis antibiotik i telan (sbb 3 kali jumpe doc)

the last one, baru jumpe gynae
doc siap scan mrs b
takut ade puss or whatsoever
syukur, semua clear

Alhamdulillah, I felt at my best today
walau last night taktidur nyenyak
coz Nurin agak renyah, I felt good waking up this morning
dh 2 minggu kot dok demam tak abis2
rasa loser gile sbb tak dpt nk jaga Nurin sgt
hanay attend dia bile dia lapar je
kalau x, mmg hubs or sesiapa je yg ade berhampiran lah yg jadi 'dayang' Nurin

oh yes, we finally moved out last monday
exactly on the Lunar New Year
Alhamdulillah, everything went well
adik beradik hubs byk membantu
Nurin, awal² I dh pass ke MIL utk jaga
so that I can help while we move out too

so far, tinggal di rumah baru, I masih rasa janggal
seumur hidup, tak pernah duduk rumah 2 tingkat
tak pernah duduk rumah corner lot
yg tingkapnye banyak!

dh la I ni jenis pump tgh mlm,
nk tak nak, kena la turun utk simpan the EBM
tu yg I lemah
coz, I ni PENAKUT tahap gaban
sbb bilik I pernah dimasuki pencuri masa kt UM dulu
India tu siap tepuk² tangan I suruh tidur balik lagi
tu yg sampai skrg, I trauma tahap asik terbayang² ade org masuk umah
or ade org perhatikan I dr luar
seram!

I know, eventually I have to get used to it
buat masa ni, hubs sgt membantu
kalau I kena turun, he will tag along
just for the sake of making me feel secured

most of the time, we stayed in our room
TV pon dlm bilik
kat bwh xde TV pon
blom amik kt umah mama
so org dtg, mmg tgk dinding je la jwabnye...miahahah

eh eh...TV tu pon takde siaran
baru kelmarin hubs beli Antenna yg indoor berharga 5.90 kt tesco
bersungguh dia pasang
tp yg dapat, hanyalah siaran Spore
Channel Msia, satu pon tak dpt

nk pasang aerial yg atas bumbung tu,
takde satu pon kedai lektrik area Masai ni yg dh bukak as for semlam
so buat masa ni, redha je lah
Astro, baru daftar smlm
tu pon daftar dgn dealer yg ade bukak booth kt Tesco
tu pon katanya, lg 10 hari baru pasang
nampaknye, kena cari port utk tgk AJL

ape lagi nk cerita eh
byk...
tp nnt2 la eh

ni pon update kt ofis
tenet kt umah tak dpt!
P1 langsung takde signal kt umah tu
menci betol!
so terpaksa tanya jiran² diorg pakai ape...

Mastitis

I'm having another fair share of mastitis
after the first one which was 9 days after labour

it all started on sunday night
tgh tidur tu, tetibe rasa mcm tgn kiri agak susah nk gerak
at d same time, terasa mrs b kiri cam berat
I dunno y I didnt wake nurin up to feed her
but i get up, and express milk at 3.30am
unfortunately, hasil x berapa memberansangkan

felt tired and exhausted, I slept in
and bear with the pain
masa ni tak skt sgt lagi

so monday tu, gi keje dgn rasa tidak selesa pd mrs b kiri
tp x sesakit masa yg kena dlm pantang dulu
so terus kan keje
sempat jumpe doc kt kilang
and he prescribed me with painkillers and antibiotics
terus ilang sakit bile mkn ubt

but the thing is, the lump, masih terasa
mmg kompem ade clogged milk duct nih
dh try urut, tp x jln
bile pump, susu yg dihasilkan, mmg kurang dr biasa
tp masih ok

monday night, mule menggigil
demam tahap dewa dewi
jejak 39.8 degrees
nk pegang hp, text bos nk btau MC pon xdpt

masa MC tu, I slept straight dr kol 1.45 smpai kol 7
punye la pengsan
eh. tp x pengsan sgt
sbb kekdang tu gigil
solat asar pon kol 7
nasib baik maghrib masuk lambat skrg

now, demam dh surut
tp mrs b kiri, masih belom back to normal
ade lump pd pangkal mrs b kiri

now Im not sure is it becoz of clogged milk duct
or ade clogged pd nipple
sbb sejak isnin, bile nurin df, she takes longer utk kenyang
selalunya, dia cuma df 5-10 mins max
tp skrg, dekat setgh jam....
mcm x kenyang2
nmpak dia mcm struggle skit masa hisap tu

nk jumpe gynae,
I'm pretty sure, the same advice yg i akan dpt
which is frequent nurse
plus, malas sebenarnya nk g hospital

tp yg teramat2 merunsingkan,
hasil ebm yg I dpt hasilkan for a day, drop 50%!!!!!
sedih sgt.....
nasi baik mmg ade stok lebih skit
so boleh cover
tapi tu cume oleh tahan berapa hari je

haih
pening
dh la sakit, susu lak merudum
maybe nk kena panggil org urut
tgk camne nnt

Langsir oh! Langsir

3 Sliding door
10 tingkap
amekausiapadapattolongkaujahitdalammasasebulan?!!!!

adoiyaiiiii
nak pindah secepat mungkin
infact, by the end of this month
sbb dh bg notis pd tuan rumah yg skrg ni

tapi, rumah baru tu masih dlm keadaan 'bogel'
baru terhegeh² nk beli kain and mintak org jahit
yg sliding tu i tak risau sgt cos design yg weols nk is a very simple one
just ade day and night (or maybe night sahaja coz cermin dh tinted kan) curtain
and jahit straight je takde ropol scallop jurai or whatsoever.
so yg ni i yakin mokteh can pull it off
infact, kalau belum ade baby, i yakin i boleh jahit sendiri
hey hey...saya pernah jahit langsir utk mama's house tau! ecececece
tapi mungkin x sekemas pro laaaa...hihihi

btw, yg agak merisaukan is the 10 tingkap
4 tingkap 2 panel
and 6 tingkap 1 panel

yg 1 panel ni la yg agak gonjeng
sbb kalau nk go for the normal straight design,
i rase dia akan jadi agak gonjeng

so after much deliberation,
i opt for the 'bidai' design
yg mcm ni

yg ni i'm not sure mokteh boleh buat tak

so I'm thinking of nk cari tukang jahit yg pro utk buatkan
satu hal lak nk scout for it
ade try cari o9
ade jumpe a few
tp not sure la can be trusted tak

tgk la nnt cmne
skrg pon tgh shortlist mover
dh ade yg cam ok
tp masih lom kompemkan lg


adoiyainyepun!


p/s: pindah adelah memenatkan! sdg mencari mover jugak! adoiyai nye pun! 

Numb

I wish I can be numb

numb to all negative reactions

numb from getting hurt

numb to any rejections

numb from being misjudged

numb to all the pain in the world

numb from getting heart-broken

numb to all hurtful words

at the end of the day

I'm just human

with feelings

and tears that came along

I may appeared numb to you

but deep in me,

I'm falling apart

into pieces

as I forced myself to be numb,

those pieces became even more little pieces

I'm afraid,

comes one day

there are no little pieces left to be shredded

and when it happens,

there' nothing left,

except to bid, Goodbye.

p/s: calar di lengan, orang tahu, calar di hati....simpan sendiri.

Of 2 months

dh lambat
dh nk masuk 3 months pon
tp bende ni mmg dh lama dlm draft
cume ntah nape, x siap²

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dear my child, Nurin Balqis Mohd Afiq,
as u turned 2 months,

u sleep better on ur tummy. Initially we planned to let u sleep on ur tummy only during ur day naps, n on ur back at night. However u tends to get startled very easily while u sleep on ur back. to swaddle u up is not even a choice, as u'll get mad once we tied u up.

• u can turn ur head to left and right while sleeping. sometimes, u even kept on turning ur head left n right several times when we put u down to sleep, before u eventually find a (nice) spot to land ur chubby cheek on. and mama find this particular habit of urs, very cute!
• u went bald at 1m7d. we kept procrastinating on this particular thing as we're all afraid that it'll hurt u. and mama worried that u'll look 'weird' with a bald head. but boy, i was wrong! u looked even much cuter aftermath!

before

after
• u started to coo!!! Allah knows how long I've been waiting for this moment to arrive. it may not even sound like any words that we could find in the dictionary, but it sure landed on the soft spot in mama's heart. However, u did not coo too many times. just when u felt to do so. and I'm honoured to be the first to witnessed it
• u can now bare ur weight with ur two strong legs, each time we held u upright. Sometimes u get furious when we put u down, and calmed when we let u stand (with us holding u upright)
• u've been loving ur bathing time since u were born, darling. u kicked and slapped ur cute little arms profusely while in the tub filled with lukewarm water. btw, u hate tap water! u'll scream on top of ur lungs when i tried to bath u with normal temp water.
• u now love being clothes-less. everytime before bath time, I let u get loose with only ur diaper on. u no more cried each time we undress/dressed u up.

• u can now coordinate sound. u'll turn to the direction where the sound came from. we love to entertain u with the sound of the rattle. however, after 2 minutes, it seems like we're entertaining ourselves as u already got bored by then.
• ur sight is still pretty much blurry. we never got tired of testing ur sight everyday by moving certain object in front of u. u usually just stared blankly to whatever u're looking at. i guess at this stage, u react more to sounds.
• u have this particular (cute) reaction everytime u pooped! u'll 'kembangkan' ur nose and grin (with lips shut together) on each attempt of pushing out ur stool. those reactions are certainly too cute that I never failed to laugh. and dear, once u're done, u'll be 'tersandar kelegaan'...hihihi

ur 'meneran' face! lol!!!!

• ur daily activities and nap scheduled vary from day to day. and yeah baby, u still wakes up 2 hourly at night for milk and sometimes to poop.
• unfortunately, u have colic on some days...about twice a week. and when u had one, u cried like nobody's business till u went all red and it hurts me so to see u suffer. sometimes u totally refuse milk, while most of the time, u kept on sucking each time I try to feed u. til u got overdose. and u vomitted it out. there was one time, it was too much, that it even cam out of ur nostril. pity baby. I found out that the yuyi ointment is not good enough for u. Minyak Herba NR works better.

• I'm sorry dear, but as for now, u're still pretty much relying on FM...u'd love to df from mama, but sometimes, the pain is way beyond my threshold that I gave up (I'm sorry). If there are ebm in the fridge, we'll feed u with those. or else, FM it is. :(

our first ever NIP (Nursing in Public) at KK

I'm glad u could accept the bottle

• u love going out! ur debut was to JJ Tebrau when u were 1m17d. though u are pretty much sleepy, u kept holding on with eyes wide open. I guess u r so curious on where u r at as it sounds so different.

• and just for the record, as u hit 2 months 5 days u weighed 5kg (u've doubled up ur initial weight!) and u're such a cute, strong, and Alhamdulillah, healthy baby.

when u were 1 month - 3.75kg

2 months! - 5kg

• u cried for 5 seconds when u got ur 2nd months jab. strong baby!

consoled by abah before ur 2nd months jab