Finally

I can come out clean
no more beating around the bush

this shall explain those status 'tergantung' that i left on my fb
a couple of times for the past week
which I've deleted
as I'm afraid that someone might sense the 'something-is-not-right' thingie
I did invi it from them
but still, masih rase insecure, so i deleted it

well, if I could still remember those
it went something like this

1. its my second time doing this. am i ready?

2. rezeki oh rezeki

3. I'm nervous. its my first time. ever!
4. berdebar gile rase....dup dap dup dap. can't wait to vent it out! '__'

ok!
something like that lah
and those status, triggered a 'commotion'
only to one issue

kononnye I'm preggo!
as much as I wish that's the news that I want to blurt out,
its NOT!
at least, not yet laaa
its hard to tell now la kan
as my 'bestfriend' just paid me a visit, exactly on our bertandang reception
so, plus minus, though kami dh kawin sebulan,
its impossible for us to 'bunting pelamin'
so, dream on guys! '___'

ok ok
if I'm not prego, then what?

actually, I've resigned from my current company!
dh 4 tahun ok i keje kt tmpat skg
4 years on my first ever job
with my one and only employer to date!
tu la dia

as status no. 1
it refers to the interviews that i went to
in searching for a new job!

its my second time attending interviews
first was for SPA for the post Pegawai IT
which i got accepted, but then, I turned down the offer
with some reasons, that only I understand
others (read: family) knows, but just couldn't understand

at that moment, I've been with the current company for 3 years to date
oh yeah. keje skrg ni, i tak interview pon
i came here for my internship
and they offered me a job during my final exams
which i instantly accepted! :)


and so, this time around,
I went for three interviews
which I carefully and personally shortlist myself
one in Pasir Gudang, another in Permas Jaya and the other in Kempas
if u're a JBians, u can see the locations that i've picked
one near to in-law, another near to my parents and the one in PJ is somewhere in between
very strategically planned ;)

and, syukur Alhamdulillah
I succeeded on all 3 interviews
all 3 companies offered me the position
which, explains the status no.2
rezeki baru berkahwin :)

and as for status no. 3,
it is my first time ever to resign!
without having decided which company I shall move on to,
I resigned! gile kan?
it just shows how bad I want to move on to another company

nevertheless, to write a resignation letter to a company
that has thought me, and brought me to who i am today,
is definitely not easy!
as much as i love working here,
its time to move on. '__'

all this process, I did it silently,
behind my colleague's back
I did not blurt out any single clue to her
that i'm in the middle of looking for a new job
or attending interviews
or even writing a resignation letter
mind you, this whole process, started a couple of weeks before I got married

and thus, last monday
referring to status no. 4 
I decided to come out clean
and tell her everything
it didn't went quite well
lots of drama and tears involved
I totally understand her feeling as I've went the whole same situation before
when my previous leader resigned

and as for now,
she'd accepted the fact that I'm leaving (I guess)
and now, for this 2 months, I'll be even more busy
hope this transition period will go smoothly
and end soon!

to my new company,
please be good to me
and I definitely hope for the best
for my future
and of course, my dear family! :)