dugaan and differences

I hate to admit this
but it really seems like it


sejak tunang ni
both of us, asik sakit je
i tak perasan..but my colleague did
she said "fana n afiq ni, sakit asek jangkit2 je.."
tu laaa...kalau dia sakit, nnt tak lama pastu, i lak kene
tak demam, semput
tak semput, gastrik la ape laa
no major sickness laaa
yg biase2 je
but it really took a toll on us
dh la sakit, ditambah lagi dgn sakit hati

the thing, as for myPerson,
dia kalau sakit, dia suke bersendiri
he did informed me dia sakit, and of cos la i mule risau and all
asek call or text him, asking his condition
he didn't like it. at all.
he'd prefer to be left alone...

i tried to understand
yeap.he needs to rest. i did get it
buttttt...i got so worried...mane bole dok diam jee
name je keje...tapi hati and pikiran tu asek kt dia je...camne tu?
tu yg bole jadi gaduh tuuu
sorg nk rest, sorg lg asek risau...camne tu?????

as for me, on the other hand
i tak suke dibiar 'rest'
u get what i mean?
kalau bole i nak dia slalu dgn i
tak perlu ade physically sebelah i,
but at least, let me feel like he is. (faham tak?)

dh sakit kn, haruslaaa nk extra attention dr org tersayang kan
butttt, he treat me mcm dia yg sakit
kn dia kalau sakit, nk bersendirian kan
haaa..tu la dia...he'll just leave me alone, expecting me to 'rest'
ape lagi, of cos la drama akan bermulaaaa
mule la rase dia tak sayang la,baik mati je la, ape la..(read: drama queen mode)
serius..mase tu mmg rase sedih sgt...
dia mcm endah tak endah je dgn i
mmg la sesekali dia akan col or msg tanya kabar and all
tp sesekali jeee....
to me yg tgh sakit ni, tak cukuppppp
bak kata dia, "semua pon tak cukup..." (sedih)

we're getting married
skrg ni mase sakit, berjauhan
nnt dh kawen, bile sakit, we're in a home, together
apekah bile dia sakit, i kene keluar dr rumah?
jauh kan diri, supaya dia dpt 'rest'?
i tak nak...
i nak selalu by his side...and i really hope that applies to him too

one of the (many) reasons ppl got married
is to go through THICK and THINS together
bukan hanye mase SENANG...tp juga mase SUSAH
and I'm looking forward to that

tapi if this got prolonged,
i harus mengalah
i don't want it to take a toll on our marriage pulak nnt
cukup la dh sakit...jgn ditambah lak dgn sakit hati
someone has to give in

bende ni mmg nmpak kecik
tapi impact dia....sgt BESAR
weather i like it or not, I have to sit and think hard on it
sampai bile nk macam ni kan?

yes, mmg biasenye, our spouse nye characters are different from us
and that is when u COMPLETE each other
tp if those differences, could risk ur marriage
u ought to do something about it

as for my case,
I'll change.
I folloooowwwww....... (read: sinar fm mode)


p/s: I'm not complaining...just letting things out of my chest..I'm sure ramai yg lalui bende ni kan...how u all get through it yeah?