I know it's bad for me

but I just can't help it

I have to admit
I have sleeping problems/issues
especially when there are a lot of things in my mind (read: stress)
and I did inform my practitioner regarding this
he offered me to do the stress test
or refer me to stress management classes
or else, manage own stress by exercising

I refused
I guess its just hard for me to accept
at a very young age (24 IS young ok!), I have problem with stress
so instead, I opt for the latter one
I'll update on that later on

anyhow, in the meantime,
in fact since I'm in UM
I've been relying on pills to dozed off
not every night
but only on 'those' nights


eversince I started working
these only happens once in a blue moon
and I have my Sampai Syurga to tuck me in at night
at least on some nights

but there are those nights
when Sampai Syurga is not available
I have to gobbled the pills. again.
for 2 consecutive nights (last 2 nights)

I know its bad
I know it may harm my kidney sooner or later

but I just can't help it
I need those to keep me sane
or else, I'll be a walking zombie!

I want to stop
I need to stop

but I just don't know how

ok. now I need my chill pills
Help!



p/s: I miss my Sampai Syurga rockstar... :'(