melancholy

its lunch time
and im in office
blogging my brains out
i guess this is the only way i can let out my feelings

as i type, i am sobbing
i could barely see the letters on the keyboard
i dont know what this entry gonna be all about
but i just want to type

it felt right
crying and typing
it seems to be the best thing to do now

i am being ridiculous
for crying mcm ape
over...nothing
but i dont know
i just feel soo.....sad
and empty

i keep on wondering
if im gone
will he be fine?
will he be happy with the one he choose?
will he cry?
will he still loves chocolate as much?
will he..................miss me?

kadang2 kite cume akan appreciate org tu bile dia dh takde
will he realize how much i meant to him?

death...is subjective
it can happen anytime
kun fayakun....

but will anyone realize my non-existance?