the one with mixed emotions

she resigned
without me, her assistance, knowing it
i'm pissed. i'm confused

i baru je nk merangkak
tetibe in 1 month time, i mesti pecut selaju2nye
sadly, i didnt even have confidence in myself, even to jog at least
I am only confident with brisk walking
not 100m sprint
how am i suppose to sprint if i didnt even fit the criteria?
i didnt even have the proper shoes!

I'm a total wreck now
I didn't even know how to react to the news
such a naive, I am


p/s: pada sape yg x paham or blur2, I'm sorry. blom terase nk make it crystal clear lagi.