will there be a glimpse of light tomorrow?

its simply amazing how a blog could change someone's life
not completely change it
but change the perspective on how they see things

for example, when u feel ur life is such a terrible mess,
and when u read other's life journal,
u'll realize how thankful u should be
there are many others who suffers more than u did

but that's not my main point here


i bloghopped this morning
this blogger is a fren of a fren whom i am very close with for 3 years
but since i started off with a career here in JB
i somehow lost the connection with most of my friends
as most of 'em settled down in KL
but I, I chose to come back to my hometown here in JB
which now, part of me felt, i regret

cos or else,
I should've known she's leaving
I should've see her before she left
I should've at least ask how she was doing
I should've tell her how much I loved n missed her

how i wish I'm in Kl
so that
there wouldnt be many events that i missed
there wouldnt be many friends i lost contact with
there wouldnt be much updates that i'm being left out on
there wouldnt be many people i let down

to all, .
for all the events I've missed
for all the long-time-no-hear
for all the things left unsaid
for all the news I'm unaware of
for all the unattended issues
for all the relationship that's at stake

from the deepest of my heart,
I am terribly sorry
there shouldn't be any excuses
but I am just a human, a person who makes mistake
and that, I must say, it makes me a person
an ordinary person