What u do in hospital?

baru jap td my bos asked me that question

camni...
mama admit herself to HSA smlm
after much money ditaburkan kt Johor Specialist,
last2 mama decide to buat her URS kt HSA jek
almost free kn
so leh cut cost di situ

mama kene wat this sugery called URS (ureteroscope)
sbb ade stone kt kidney dia
not exactly kt kidney, but kt saluran laaa
however, kidney dia dh membengkak (kate doc)
so the surgery must be done ASAP laaa
fyi, this is the third time dia buat surgery ni...dont ask why....

this was found out in June
tp mama saje pilih this week sbb cuti skolah
at least girl bole jage mama siang

so smlm dh btau my bos
esok i amek cuti cos nk tmankn mama
surgery tu esok
so mama mintak i tmankn dia sbb my working hours flexible
nk cuti cam snang skit berbanding my sist

back to the Q (refer to the entry title),
bile pikir balik, memang
memang xde pape nk dibuat sehari suntuk kt hospital tu
lagi2 hospital gomen
nothing fun ok!

tapi for the past 5 years
mama mmg dok kuar masuk hospital,
i dh x rase pape pon
boring memang boring
tp pandai2 sendiri la nk hiburkan diri
make sure bwk earphone ngan novel/mags

to be frank, mase kt hospital/ward tu la
i dpt bonding gile2 ngan mama
masa tu la weols borak gile2
macam2 isu yg berbangkit
most of it was reminiscing the good old days

tp i mmg xleh tahan kalo mama ungkit how good those days were
when she still can stand on her own two feet
sedih sgt2

despite all the argue we had now and then
despite all the mengeluh when she asked me to do something
despite all the 'mama tak sayang adek' when she scold me for not doing something the right way
despite all the stamping feet when she calls me in between my nap
despite all the screaming when she gets on my nerves
I love mama

to mama,
no matter what happens, no matter how rough things turns out, I will always be here for you, waiting, patiently, not giving up in hopping that someday, somehow, with some miracle from the Almighty, I can here u say "Mama dah bole jalan....". However, if that one fine day never comes, please remember that I will always be willing to be your feet...and I'm thanking you, Ya Allah, for the strength and opportunity.



note:entry kali ni cam bersepah kn?wutever laaa...jiwa tgh kacau............as i wrote this entry, air mata x dpt ditahan2 lagi...tak tau mengapaaa