the Day mama had her URS

smlm, around 9.45 am,
the ward received a call from the OT
telling the nurse to prepare patient named Rojinah Abd Kadir for opt
mama's bed dkat ngan nurse's counter
so i heard everything

mase tu mama tgh dgr radio thru my phone
she was trying to calm herself down
sbb kol 8, mase cek BP(blood Pressure), its quite high-149/88
so mama risau sgt2
dia dgr radio, dgn harapan dpt kurgkan stress

so, after dpt col dr OT, trus they pass mama a robe
i helped her change
mase tu jelas sgt muka mama worried
dia mcm blur sbb xsangke dia kene masuk OT pagi
dia bajet tghari around 1

baru je pas salin, i ingat bole relek2 jap
sekali tgk org OT dh sorong stretcher
makin cuak la mama
sbb dia xsempat nk compose herself
sume berlaku sekelip mata
tau2 je dia dh kt atas stretcher tu

mama on the stretcher - still at ward

at this moment, she looks so fragile
all this while, she's been very strong
bukanlah dia tak takut pasal surgery tu,
tapi dia mampu control the situation
but at that very moment, she seems lost
mungkin dia belum bersedia

otw to OT

as they push her to the OT at level 1 (the ward is level 2),
I make sure I'm always by her side
holding her hands, never letting it go
assure her that everything will be fine
assure her that I'll be right outside the OT when she's done

mase tu i sorg je ade
ayah suppose to come
patutnye mase nurse nk prepare je, i col n ayah akan dtg
tp the interval between preparing and checking in at the OT was barely a few minutes

Staff OT buat briefing kt mama

sedih sgt rase sbb Im the only one yg hantar mama masuk OT
mase tu dh terpikir
if whatever happens to mama, I'm the last relative who saw her
and I totally have no strength to go through all that alone

sebelum mama btol2 masuk OT, she was parked at the OT bay
kt situ, I kept on telling her that i love her, and i want her to keep her faith in Allah
kita dh berusaha
tp sesungguhnya, Allah yg tentukan segalanye

tepat pukul 10.10, i waved her as she was pushed into the OT
I can see a few tears rolled down her cheek
mine? i wouldnt say a few
it was more like sobbing by then

i was sobbing by now

I cant help myself from the worst case scenario
I cant help from thinking that that might be the last conversation I will ever had with her

however, deep down inside, I wish, I hope, I pray that everything goes well

a few minutes later, baru ayah smpai kt depan OT
ayah nampak terkilan sbb buat sekian kalinye, dia x dpt anta mama ke OT
but I assure him by saying, "Mama kem salam. she loves you.very much"
she did.i did not make it up.
i can see tears building up in his eyes
being a man, he toughen up

while waiting, me n ayah lepak je kt tempat menunggu tu
bosan jugak la
lame gile rasenye
sbb i tau surgery tu makan mase paling2 pon 2 jam jek
tp up to 12 noon, no signs of her

around 1.30, myPerson smpai
he's being so sweet to take half day off to be with us, waiting for mama
i rase terharu sgt bile dia dtg
rase mcm fall in love again jek...ceit.poyo.
he didn't even inform me that he's coming

ttibe je dia col tanye i kt mane
i ckp la kt luar OT
tetibe je dia dh muncul
rase mcm nk peluk je dia time2 tu jugak
tapi kene cover babe
ayah ade kt sblah i ni
he sat next to ayah. kirenye between me n him, ade ayah..hehehe

dia berbual ngan ayah
I continue dgr radio jek
lame gile kitorg melepak kt situ
dh bape kali i ulang alik dpan OT, terjengah2 kot2 dpt nmpak mama

my companion of the day.thanx dear

me n ayah smpai lupe yg kitorg blom lunch
what we know, we dont want to go far from the OT area
sbb xnk mama rase xde org tunggu dia
mase tu dh 2pm
kat luar pulak ujan lebat
last2 kitorg mkn kuih n buah je
jadikla, buat alas perut

while waiting outside OT. mase ni ayah g solat. baru boleh bercintan.skit jek...hehehehe

about 3.30 gitu, baru la mama ditolak kluar
lega rasenye bile nampak mama senyum
Alhamdulillah.syukur.semua berjalan lancar...
lancar ke???not so ok

mama was straight away sent back to her bed kt ward
she seems fine
elok je bole bercakap
mase surgery tu, mama memang x doze off
dia mmg mintak utk bg bius for spinal n below jek
so kirenye dia mmg sedar throughout the 5 hours in OT

her first pose right. she looks fine kan.

mama kate, the surgery mmg kejap jek
tp menunggu yg lame
she's been told that Doctor A yg akan attend her
ok la..mama xkesa jek

sekali mase halfway through, Doctor A kate dia x berani nk buat
sbb katenye, saluran kidney mama tu dh sempit
saluran tu sempit due to the previous 2 URS yg dia pnah buat
fyi, this is the third
so dia x berani

kene tunggu Doctor C
nk tunggu Doctor C tu yang lama
dkat 2 jam mama kate
mama pon dh naik stress for all the waiting
kesian mama

tp apepon, ok la
alhamdulillah
yg penting mama ok

after tgk mama dh baring n dgr citer2 mama sume
ayah pon balik
sbb nk amik girl
girl yg akan jage mama mlm tu

tinggal la i n myPerson jage mama
I'm glad he's there with me
mama pon x sangke dia dtg
dia pon terperanjat tgk bile kuar OT je nmpak myPerson ade sekali

mama n him.bonding???

kitorg borak2 jap ngan mama
tgh borak tu bape kali mama menguap
penat kot
so i ckp ngan mama, suruh mama rest
mama lg suke
dia mmg nk tido time tu

so myPerson pon decide to balik
mama pesan i belikan dia misup
dia nk mkn mlm kang

so kitorg singgah cafe jap
i kan blom lunch lagik
mase tu dh kol 5
kitorg mkn dulu

muke org lapo tahap gaban.tgk mama dh ok baru rase lapo gile smpai nk telan org

he's so patient melayan karenah i yg meroyan kebuloq

not bad gak makanan kt hospital nih
sedap la jugak, tp mahal woooooo
kuey teow ladna + nasi gorng kampung + meehun sup + teh o ais 2 = RM 15

i rase mcm mahal laaaaaa
tp xkesa la kan

then after seeing myPerson balik
i naik atas, anta mee mama
lepak jap
baru balik

smpai umah
lepak gile...
terbongkang terus
lebih 24 jam i dok kt hospital tu
xlarat sgt dh rase

hopefully, mama recover soon
hopefully there's no complication
hopefully esok mama bole discharge
so ari sabtu bole la shopping baju raye....
yeayyyyyy