6 Months!!!

Hari ni rasa macam nk update

hey hey
esok genap 6 bulan kami diakadkan (and our little one turns 21 weeks/5m1w)
tp takde satu pon cerita majlis kami yg I share kt sini
setiap kali nk wat review, rasa malas
ala...majlis kami pon biasa2 jee
nothing much to talk about
tapi cukup meriah utk meraikan kami
takpela...satu hari nnt, agak2 rajin, I’ll post about it k

6 months along in this courtship,
Seperti pasangan lain, we had our ups and downs
Marriage life ni mmg sgt mencabar
Bukan setiap saat kita akan gembira/tertawa
Ade masa mmg happy…teramat happy
Lagi bila fikir yg orang yg kita dok gurau senda siang mlm, yg buat kita tertawa tu ialah suami
Suami….sebut perkataan tu pon cam meremang je rase
Of course, ade jugak masa2 bila emosi terganggu, jiwa tercalar, kes2 merajuk
Itu biasa la kan…adat berumah tangga
Tapi bila dh kawin ni, nk gaduh lama2 pon tak boleh...
Sebelom tidur, mesti nk berbaik
Orang tu jugak laah yg dicari buat bantal pelok mlm kang 

On another note, Tanggungjawab yg dipikul semenjak the moment kita diijabkabul tu, sgtlah byk
Kalau dulu, nk buat ape2, buat jeeee…tak payah pikir2 pasal org lain
But now, once you’re someone’s wife, suami adalah yg yang terpenting
Nk beli pape, kene pikir, suami suka tak eh?
Nk gi mana, mesti minta izin suami
Nk buat sesuatu, kene pikir maruah suami
Ape pon, suami jugak dlm fikiran

Tak kira lah penat mana masa bekerja, bila balik, mesti dok piker, nk masak ape utk suami mlm ni
To those yg tak tahu memasak, to me, tu semua alasan
Semua orang tahu memasak…infact, lelaki pon tahu memasak
Tapi MALAS jeeee…. (mcm my hubs….heeee)
Girls…..it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to be able to cook
Tapi it takes a lot of experience to be a good cook
Nampak tak beza kt situ….tahu masak VS pandai masak
Cari je lah resepi kt google tu
My fav spot utk cari resepi is at Myresipi.com
Cube je laaa mana2 yg agak menarik dan berkenan di hati

Percayalah, kebanyakan suami (especially yg baru kawin) tak kesah pon ape yg isteri nya masak
Yg penting, dia dpt rase sendiri masakan home cook isterinya
Tak kesah lah kalau hanya nasi berlaukkan telur goreng dan kicap
Itu dh sgt sedap berbanding hari2 dok mkn kt kedai mamak

And so far, Alhamdulillah, I’m able to cook for my husband
And yg paling buat makin bersemangat, bila dia memuji (kalau sedap) or even blurted a simple ‘thank you’ for the dish
I mengaku, not everyday I dapat masak, lagi2 dgn keadaan yg berbadan dua ni
But I did try to every other day….
at least seminggu tu ade la air tangan I yg mengenyangkan my hubs…

Speaking of berbadan dua ni, kami teramat bersyukur Ya Allah di atas kurniaanNYA ni
I have a confession…. I did plan to plan (faham tak?)
I pernah tell myself to be ‘kosong’ for at least sebulan
I never mentioned this to my hubs (sorry syg)
Cause he will never agree on this..he loves kids too much…
so do I…but I have some valid reason for feeling so
Therefore, no formal protection or prevention procedure that we follow/used

Bukan I nak menidakkan rezeki Allah
Tapi, bile I fikirkan yg masa awal2 kahwin tu, kami belom dpt betul2 settle down, I jadi risau
Sebulan kami masih tinggal di rumah in law
Hubs already start rented our current apartment, a week before our wedding
Tapi keadaan rumah yg belom lengkap isinya
And financial constrain yg melengahkan kami utk ‘mengisi’ rumah, buat kami makin lambat settle down
So I fikir, if I ever get pregnant too early, nnt mcm mana nk pindah kan?
Nk kemas2 rumah and so on
Sure renyah gile and worst if I mabuk teruk
Kesian pulak hubs kene buat semua sorg2 kan

Alhamdulillah, Allah knows best
I merancang, and Allah menentukan
Niat I dimakbulkan Allah

Tak dinafikan, masa kali kedua ‘my bestfriend’ dtg sejak kahwin on 15 Jan
which happened to be on a day after hubs birthday
masa tu I fikir, kalau I betol pregnant, dpt la I bagi rezeki Allah ni as the best ever birthday gift to hubs kan…of course tu hanya khayalan…. ‘___’
so bila mmg miss P dtg, I risau...I started to doubt myself
Mule terpikir, will I be able to conceive ever? Is there anything wrong with me?
Tp masa tu baru sebulan lebih kawin kot…
Tp gelabah mcm ape jeeee

Kiranya betol2 genap sebulan, I mmg ’kosong’
Cos approximately a month ++ later, bila kami dh hamper sebulan settle down di rumah kami, I disahkan 5 weeks pregnant
Syukur sgt2 masa tu
It was such a perfect timing 

Tapi tu lah, orang baru kawin ni kan
Financially belom berapa stable
Mana nk beli brg umah
Mana nk uruskan hidup
Rase mcm baru semalam ikat perut utk simpan duit nk kawin
Ni dh kene save up utk the little one pulak
Takpe lah, Allah pon dh janji, setiap anak yg lahir, ade rezekinya nnt.. InsyaAllah

Tapi kannnn….dulu, sebelum kawin, sebelum betol2 berniat nk kawin,
I selalu ade mslh duit ni
I mean, i dok laa risau, mana laaa aku nk cekau duit nk buat kawin ni
Mana laaaa nk dpt duit utk hidup after kawin lagi
Byk betol nk pakai duit
Mama siap ckp I ni mcm paranoid..mcm org gila duit… ‘___’

Tapi Alhamdulillah, bila niat kita tu baik, Allah permudahkan
Smpai sekarang, I mcm tak percaya, we managed to get through it
Ye laaa..kami berdua bukan dr keluarga berada
Keje pon biasa2 je….
Nk kata hidup mewah tu, mmg jauh sekali
Tapi belom pernah lah sesak sampai tak makan ke ape kan...syukur

Oh…dh byk melalut
All im saying here,
Im blessed with my life
With this marriage
With a lovely-sometimes annoying-patient-kind-sometimes ignorant-caring life partner

Syg…I know I may not be a perfect wife,
but thank you for accepting me, correcting me, layan kerenah farah yg kadang2 tah pape tu, and most importantly for loving me….
I loff you mucuk! ;p
Happy 6 months!


p/s: I’m not sure if he remember about the 6 months thing…let’s see……
p/p/s: he’s down with fever + flu + cough + asthma for 2 days now…get well soon dear….