Fatigue

U get the drift
yeap. I am a hell of an exhausted chap

mama's condition masih macam tu jugak
no progress. yet.
I prefer to believe the 'YET' part
cause I believe that she will get well
she MUST get well

being on leave for 1 and a half day doesn't help at all
in fact, it was the longest, dreadest 1 and a half day for me
ke sana ke mari
attending mama's needs and all

its not that I am complaining
but, haih....idk

things weren't going well this week
but alhamdulillah, I've toughen up
smpai skrg I tak menitis kan satu air mata pon pasal tu
my time is filled with melayan mama

tipu kalau I tak fikir langsung
of course, I do
hati ni rase...kosong sgt
takde sape nk dijadikan tempat mengadu
selalunye, kalau time mcm ni, I'll talk to someone
mengadu, and just rants about my day
how I'm worried about mama's condition and all

but now, thing's weren't the same anymore
I kene belajar suck it in, and thats it
simpan je. tak payah mimpi nak luah2 kan ke ape

I'm a big girl (and i mean physically too! ;p)
dah nak 25 pon (suku abad tuuuuuu!)
haruslah tabah
takleh cengeng lagi
takleh nak harapkan org lagi
harus berdikari
harus!
mesti!

go go Farhana
I believe you can do it!
Aja aja Fighting!
harus mengharap semangat Han Ji En merasuki diri ini
ngeh

for now, I leave you with this verse
from a song yg wat I tersengih je skrg

Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak
Siapa yang punya anak
Bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

Pengumuman-pengumuman
Siapa yang mau bantu
Tolong aku kasihani aku
Tolong carikan diriku kekasih hatiku
Siapa yang mau

p/s: to you, thank you for praying for mama too. I appreciate that. a lot.