Fatigue

U get the drift
yeap. I am a hell of an exhausted chap

mama's condition masih macam tu jugak
no progress. yet.
I prefer to believe the 'YET' part
cause I believe that she will get well
she MUST get well

being on leave for 1 and a half day doesn't help at all
in fact, it was the longest, dreadest 1 and a half day for me
ke sana ke mari
attending mama's needs and all

its not that I am complaining
but, haih....idk

things weren't going well this week
but alhamdulillah, I've toughen up
smpai skrg I tak menitis kan satu air mata pon pasal tu
my time is filled with melayan mama

tipu kalau I tak fikir langsung
of course, I do
hati ni rase...kosong sgt
takde sape nk dijadikan tempat mengadu
selalunye, kalau time mcm ni, I'll talk to someone
mengadu, and just rants about my day
how I'm worried about mama's condition and all

but now, thing's weren't the same anymore
I kene belajar suck it in, and thats it
simpan je. tak payah mimpi nak luah2 kan ke ape

I'm a big girl (and i mean physically too! ;p)
dah nak 25 pon (suku abad tuuuuuu!)
haruslah tabah
takleh cengeng lagi
takleh nak harapkan org lagi
harus berdikari
harus!
mesti!

go go Farhana
I believe you can do it!
Aja aja Fighting!
harus mengharap semangat Han Ji En merasuki diri ini
ngeh

for now, I leave you with this verse
from a song yg wat I tersengih je skrg

Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak
Siapa yang punya anak
Bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

Pengumuman-pengumuman
Siapa yang mau bantu
Tolong aku kasihani aku
Tolong carikan diriku kekasih hatiku
Siapa yang mau

p/s: to you, thank you for praying for mama too. I appreciate that. a lot.

Lost

Im in office, but hati n fikiran ni dok ke lain

just got off the phone with mama
she could barely talk
bergenang air mata bile dgr suara dia


yeap. as u all can guess,
mama sakit. again.
since semalam

this morning, as I hugged her, I rasa sayu sgt
sbb dia masih boleh hug I blk
though tak kuat, but I can feel the love
siap belai2 rambut I lagi



Mama
please get well soon
adek sayang mama


I'm worried.
I'm scared
I've officially lost someone this morning
I can't afford to lost another, anytime soon


Ya Allah, lindungilah kami....



p/s: maybe I should take leave. It's better to be safe than sorry.

Courage

I won't sweep my problems under the rug!
I would love to settle it then and there


hey you!
jgn buat mcam ni lagi k
it is just not right
jage la hati dia buat kali terakhir
dia masih ade maruah dan harga diri
toodles!

Whisper it to Me...I'll be waiting....

Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care

Tell me that you need me and I'll be there

I'll be there waitin'...

I will always love you, I will always stay true

There's no one else who loves You like I do

Come to me now

I will never leave you, I will stay here with You

Through the good and bad I will stand true

I'm in Love with You...

p/s: kt telinga ni dok terngiang2 this wonderful piece by Jacky Cheung and Regine Velasquez..especially those verse mentioned above....really means a lot to me, each and every single line...really!

p/p/s: I'm waiting....

rumours!

taken from NST

Sultan displeased with rumours

2010/01/26

JOHOR BARU: The newly-proclaimed Sultan of Johor, Sultan Ibrahim ibni Almarhum Sultan Iskandar, has expressed displeasure over rumours that people had been reprimanded for not wearing proper attire of mourning for his late father. Johor Council of Royal Court secretary Datuk Abdul Rahim Ramli said Sultan Ibrahim Ismail had related his concern over the rumours.

"His Royal Highness relayed (his concern) to me this morning. He has heard the rumours and is not pleased. He is very concerned.

"Never has Johor issued a directive to force people to wear (clothes for mourning). There is not an iota of truth in the rumours," he said in his office at Istana Besar here.

Rahim also denied rumours of policemen or personnel from the Johor Military Force detaining people who were not wearing the mourning attire.

By tradition, the people are required to mourn the death of rulers for seven days.
Johor adopts a standard mourning attire of songkok with a white band for Muslim men, white veil for Muslim women and black armband on the left arm for non-Muslims. Those wearing uniforms are required to wear the black armband.

Rahim described the nasty rumours as "nonsense" and said those who wished to mourn the late Sultan Iskandar should do it sincerely.

"If Johoreans want to mourn his majesty's death, they should do so out of sincerity, loyalty and love for Almarhum Sultan Iskandar.

"If one does not wish to wear it, one needn't do so. There is no force to do so," he said.

Rahim also announced the proper way to address the current sultan of Johor's consort and eldest son.

He said the sultan's consort would be officially referred to as "Yang Maha Mulia Raja Zarith Sofiah binti Almarhum Sultan Idris Shah", while the sultan's eldest son, who is Raja Muda Johor is referred to as "Duli Yang Amat Mulia Tunku Ismail Ibni Sultan Ibrahim".

Rahim said both their titles would be used until further notice.



p/s: semalam beria gi angsana, mencari tudung putih..konon takut kene saman 300 freaking bucks. so since dh beli, saya, dgn hati yg ikhlas, sbg rakyat johor, will mourn too...

Penantian adelah satu Penyeksaan

do u agree?
me? YES!!!
sgt terseksa ok

I jenis yang tak bole nak tunggu lame2
lagi tunggu, lagi sakit hati
kalau bole, dan dan tu abeskan cerita
tak yah tunggu
menyeksa jeeee
it is all purely because, I hate waiting

masa itu emas
yes, ade bende yang mmg kite kene tunggu
takleh la nk wat keputusan dan dan tu gak
it all depends on the situation and of course, the circumstances la kan

in conclusion,
I tak suke tunggu.
period.

White

mane pulak laaa nak cekau tudung putih ni???
let me see
when was the last time i wore a white tudung?
that was ages ago
zaman matriks kot

skrg mmg takde tudung putih
cream ade laaaaa
mama kata mesti ikut perintah
kalau tak, bole kene denda/lempang
hurrrgggghhh

takpe..nasib ade tudung hitam
dh laa ade satu je
for one whole week pakai the same tudung hitam?
bedal je la labu....


p/s: update kt office sbb bosan dok umah...hurmmmmm