Fill up your gas!

by today!!!!

esok naik 15 sen !!!!!! (kot)

Maybe its for the best

I'll be taking some time off
from everything

need to figure out myself back
all this while, I tried my best to make others happy
that I neglect my own feelings
what I wanted
what makes ME happy

and it seems like no matter what I do
no matter how I strive
semua nye serba tak kene
semua tak pernah cukup

up to the extend
where I, finally...give up....
like seriously give up
I'm letting go of something I've been holding on to for quite some time
something that has been part of my life
something that I treasured

ape nk jadi, jadi lah
I berserah je
ikut je
ade, ade...takde, takde.
no elaboration
asalkan korg happy

for now, I've realisedto love others, I need to love myself first
till then....


p/s: If we ever meet again....

Kebahagiaan dalam Perpisahan

Tak perlu ucapkan sepatah kata
Kerna lantang terbaca dari muka
Kau dan daku sudah tiada
Keserasian di jiwa
Mungkin magisnya sudah hilang


Tak perlulah kita mencuba lagi
Betulkan kesilapan perhubungan ini
Bila setiap perbincangan
Menjadi perbalahan
Manakah agaknya cinta pasti


Chorus:
Embun pun takkan mampu menyubur sekuntum
Bunga yang layu pada musim luruh
Yang dulunya mekar di sinar suria
Bila sudah kering pasti akan gugur



Seperti cinta kita yang jelas ternyata
Semakin lama oh semakin rekah
Menimbulkan tanya, apa mungkin kita
Temu kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan..



Usah titis air mata kau tangiskan
Ku dah cukup menampung selautan
Begitu lama ku pendam
Tapi hanya berdiam
Kerna cuba menafi realiti


p/s: suke chorus!

Our very humble Engagement

Alhamdulillah

tak ramai yg tau that I got engaged
infact, no one knew
except for my one of my aunts from each of my parents side,
my family (of course),
and my colleague (coz she has to hear my rants every day)

I only announce it to others,
days after the ceremony
the truth is, I'm not even sure
that the majlis will be only merisik
or bertunang sekali gus

dats y mase beli cake for his side
I was so contemplating nk tulis ape kt atas tu
kalau tulis "Selamat bertunang", tapi org tu cume merisik,
tak ke malu?????
so I end up tulis "To Afiq & Family"
bapak lurus gile!

anyway, lepas dh bincang,
and dh sarung cincin
and his pakcik said "Selamat Bertunang",
then only "ok...yeay...I'm his fiancee!!!!"
sengih mcm ape jek
menggeletis!

ye laaa....sbb majlis weols tu mmg sgt kecik!
my family, ade la dalam 12 org
and from his side, 10 org
mmg kecik!

so kawan2, jgnlah kecik hati ke ape yea
mmg takde sape yg dijemput
budget is tight uols!ceh

tapi jgn risau
InsyaAllah, for the Walimah this coming December
anda akan dijemput
tunggu je la kad yeaaa...

btw, here are some of the pics on the day itself
takde hire OP pon
amek gamba sendiri jek
so don't expect too much la yea
;-)

lepas satu...satu...darah manis kah?

haih...
I did not know what went wrong
tapi tu laaa...lepas satu...satu
sejak tunang, asek sakit je...
not just me....

myPerson pon same
not that I'm complaining, tapi mcm kerap sgt la pulak
anyway, I'm still bersyukur with what I have
orang lain, dugaannye lagi berat....
Nazubillah...

anyway, yesterday
mase dok tgh ralit tenung .net,
mata I ni dok berair
I thot its normal
maybe sbb strained ke ape kan
ye laaaa, rase nye 3 jam kot i tak beralih dr screen pc
so I decided to jln2 kt luar

mane tau, kuar je, nmpak matahari
berdenyut2 mata kiri ni
mcm nk tercabut pon ade
air mata, takyah ckp laaa
meleleh mcm org mati laki

kol 3 lebih, I decided to blk
drive pon smbil tutup sblh mata
smpai umah, terus bukak lense
cari eye drop, tak jumpe

makin mlm, makin berdenyut
takleh jadi ni
nk gi klinik sndr, tak berani nk drive
takkan nk suruh mama drive kan? erk!
so mintak tlg myPerson

syukur ade dia
pas maghrib tu, dia sampai
bwk I gi klinik

sepanjang2 tu mmg dok kenyit sblh mata je
not kenyit laaa...tp mmg mata kanan tu cam dh melekat jeee
serius tak leh bukak
mesti org kate aku ni menggatal
dok kenyit!ngeh...

neway, now dh ok
but no contacts for couple of days
kene antibiotik, ok laa kan
dh boleh bukak la mata kanan ni
tapi still  x bape selesa
hrp2, kejap je laa skt ni

xnk sakit2 lagi!!!!!

sblm balik, sempat lagi wat i ketawa

Thank U dear...
xoxo

Rings for Muslim Men

sejak nk tunang
sampai nk kawen ni
tang ini yg paling I pening sekali

cause all this while, I dh set in mind
nnt utk kawen
i akan belikan dia cincin suasa
but the thing is, he doesn't like the brownins/Bronzish color

so survey punye survey,
I ade jumpe suasa putih at My Diamond
design dia takde la byk mana pon
tapi ape yg dia ade tu, not bad gak
harge pon still within budget
and myPerson pon dh suke,
and agreed to get it from there

 

However, balik dr survey tu
I started to google on suasa putih
my intention was to find out kedai mana lagi yg ade suasa putih

tapi..... lain yg I cari, lain yg I dpt
I found out that, adalah HARAM utk Lelaki Muslim memakai SUASA
coz, suasa mengandungi emas, walaupun sedikit!
refer here

frustrated di situ
tapi syukur...nasib baik tak terus beli
Allah nk bagi petunjuk...

so now, we're back to square one
kalau dok KL, senang la kot nk cari
aritu mase gi Ikano (kot) ade gi tgk2 kt Bausch K
design pon boleh tahan laaaa
harge pon murah!!!!
sumer stainless steel
tapi rase lg ok kot dr beli silver (IMHO laaaa)
kalau nk beli silver pon, kalau bole I nk beli kt kedai yg ade 'name'
tak nak laa beli yg 20-30 hinggit kt 'gerai' tu
haih
pening!

however, I did ask for opinion from our lovely sab,
its very nice of her to share her experience
from her, I knew there's a ring made of Paladium
can be found at My Diamond
akan ku pergi My Diamond lagi sekali
harap2 outlet kt JJ Permas tu ade laaaa Paladium Ring

 I heart this! from GoldHeart..UNIQUE!

and from Durruz lak,
I learned that there's such thing as Platim ring
mixture of platinum and silver katenye
ade jual kt GoldHeart
the thing is, there's no GoldHeart oulet kt JB ni
Spore ade laaaa
tgk la, kalau berkesempatan, akan ku jejaki...
ecewah

hmmm
ape pon, I would love to get MyPerson @ myFiance
the best out of the best
of course, dlm my range of budget la kan
which Platinum is out of the question (sorry dear)

maka, dengan ini, saya berjanji
akan teruskan usaha pencarian cincin
for my dear-husband-to-be
if uols ade experience, share la yeaaa

ehem
dear, If i usaha sungguh2, can I get this?

ehem. ehem. cough. cough.
winks!

tapi kan....kalau susah sgt nak cari.....
I bagi dia cincin gula2 je laaaa
kaler HIJAU!!

KIDDING! ;p

p/s: If uols yg B2B ni, don't mind beli cincin online, google for tungsten/titanium....ade banyak!!!! tapi tu laaa, I jenis takut nk purchase, unless dh pegang...there are risks, on buying rings online kan? anyway, tepuk dada, tanya selera...

tiada lagi teman tidur

boooo hoooooo
my dear girl telah berangkat utk melanjutkan pelajarannye
peghhhhhh...ayat
macam gi jauhhhhhh lak

no laaaa
takde la jauh maneee
tapi jauh laa gak

she had decided to take up Asasi program in UITM
bukan kt Shah Alam
but at Puncak Alam

Ayah and kakak je gi antar dia
mama and I, tinggalllll
sbb kalau mama ikut, mane nk letak beg2 ni kan?

neway, my dear budak kecik!
have fun while you're there
strive for the best k!
4 Flat pleaaseeeeeee...
ecewah!

4 Years

Dear,

Today, marked our 4th Year being in this wonderful roller-coaster ride

Insya-Allah, lepas ni dah pakai date lain

May our love grow deeper as time passes by

May our trust and respect to each other get stronger as we live

May our plans and dreams are blessed and realized

May we have each other, till death do us part

Insya-Allah

Amin

26 Apr - 1st May

hah
baru nk update pasal admission hari tu
btw, yeap, I got admitted 2 days after I got engaged
dah sakit dr pagi majlis lagi
tapi tahannnnn jeee

so I'm not gonna cerita pnjg
juz ltak gamba sekitar 6 hari warded tu
and citer skit2

bile temperature dah mcm ni,

baru rase cuak tak igt

maka, serah diri kt spital

bed ok laaaa

selesa gileee

lg pon i keje sini kn

layanan harus la tip top ;-)

oh yes
doc kate I kene high fever
due to gums infection
gara2 wisdom tooth yg tak tumbuh habis
maka plaque terselit, n tak dpt dibersihkan
n jd infection

so dlm 6 hari tu, i dpt 8 different types of oral aid
and here are some of it

fyi, i was consulted by 3 different doctors sepnjg 6 hari tu
a physician, a general surgeon and a dentist
semua gara2 ulcers yg beranak pinak dlm mulut
ade kt gums, tekak and langit2
memang seksa
i refuse to talk and eat!
sbb mmg malas gile nk bukak mulut

bile gosok gigi lagi laaa
mcm gosok darah!
sbb my gums cam fragile gile

sepnjg kat sana walau tak bape nk mkn
i tetap gak order meals
rugi wooo tak order
balik2 i order meehun sup je laa
i minum sup dia jeee
lain, buang!
tapi sedap!!!

for breakfast, i order toast n egg
toast letak tepi, i mkn the soft boiled egg jeeee
so konsepnye, i mkn mknn yg takyah gigit
telaaaannn terus

tapi ade sekali tu
kakak n girl masak kan bubur ayam
byk tulang2...sedap gileee
hah...mase tu, i spray habis2an mulut ni
kasi kebas semua
n melantak!!!!!
tgk tulang2 yg i mkn tuuuu

n of cos, sepnjg kat sane
ayah, mama, kakak, girl setia bergilir2 dtg lawat
tp ayah n girl, kalau dtg,
kompem keje nye, menghabiskan mknn i,

and then.....tido!!!!

tak lupe gak myPerson who is by then myNEWLYfiance
sanggup meredah malam, dtg lawat
n layan karenah i ni

dan juge tak lupe,
my Future MIL and future SIL
terharu!!!!!

thanx semuaaa!!!!!

anyway, walaupon dh discharge ni

my suffering episode does not ends here

I'm due for tooth extraction on this coming 2nd June
I chose to do it @ HSI

suke tak suke, gigi ku harus di cabut

or else, akan sakit lagiii

berdebar gile nk tunggu 2/6 tu

cause the procedure requires LA (local anaesthesia)

so kire minor surgeri laaa

harap2 semuanye berjln lancar

Amin.

Save the Date!

merujuk kepada ticker di sebelah atas tu

Alhamdulillah
we finally settled with a date

hmm...

fyi, I've always imagined myself being nikah on Friday

after  Friday prayers

and reception on saturday

then sunday boleh rest *ehem*

tapi atas sebab yg sgt tidak dpt dielakkan
terpaksa laa settle dgn ape yg ade

the thing is,

sgt la bijak kan....

org book dewan one year ealier

yg kitorg ni main terjah mcm tu je

so dpt la hari yg tak bape best

nasib tarikh tu cam best n senang nk ingat

sangat kebetulan

syukurrrrrr

btw, dewan yg weols nk tu

hanya available on 12 Dec 10,

only for that particular date (utk weekend laaa)

next available will be on Feb 2011

so nak tak nak, redha je laaa

lg pon mama mmg insist nk wat tahun ni gak

maka terlahir lah tarikh itu

and of course,
spt yg uols tau, dec will be school holidays
which explains why the hall is fully booked
ikutkan, weols (my family and i),
kalau bole taknak time cuti sekolah
tapi nk wt camne, tak plan awal2

ikut i nk thn depan je
dh mama nk thn ni gak
takkan nak wat bulan 10
bapak awal...mana sempat!
so cuti pon cuti laaaa

so 2 perkara yg diinginkan, tak dpt dipenuhi
nikah on friday, and not cuti sekolah :(

so from now onwards

maybe blog ni bakal jd ala2 bridezilla mode from time to time

harap2 takde la bridezilla sgt yea

semoga semua nya berjalan lancar

InsyaAllah

p/s: bahang2 percanggahan pendapat telah bermula...i can feel the tense...farhana...tabah lah!

kepala hotak ko!

akan daku ingat sampai bila2
post ini jadi bukti.

Insurans

Alhamdulillah
dah 3 tahun lebih keje
baru earlier this year I terbukak hati
betol2 nk amek insurans for myself

apparently, that instinct sgt berbaloi2 di saat ini
yeap, dulu i mmg sgt ignorant
lelagi bile melibatkan nk kuar kan duit ni
tapi ntah kenape, early january tu, i insist on having one
and alhamdulillah, masa I sakit hari tu,
dah lebih 3 months since I signed the policy
so, bil hari tu, for 6 freaking days in hospital
yg totalnye 5k+, dibiayai...
syukur sgt2

kalau takde insurans, haih, menggigil laa nk bayoooo
kalau masuk spital govt, mmg la bole
but still, feeling dia tak sama
lagi pon, i admitted at where i worked
so layanan, memang first class wa cakap lu!
ngeh!

6 hari tu tak rase sgt pon
cam best je...
cume kesian my family n myPerson laaa
kene layan karenah org skt yg kejap nk tu, kejap nk ni
hari2 nk ade or datang
kejap pon takpeee laaa
asal dtg....
hehehhehe

bottom line, pada u all yg belom ade insurans tu, sile la amik yee
mcm i ni, dh terkena baru rase beruntung gile
bende ni memang, selagi tak terhantuk, kite tak sedar
so kawan2, sile beringat yea

btw, I amek Prudential BSN Takaful

sure korang familiar with this name kan
and my agent is the famous kak gee
yeap, I dok JB, n my agent is org KL
no prob at all
hari2 dia call i tanye kaba
sgt baik! recommended!

akhir kate, insured urself guys!

25!

suku abad sudah
but not really a great day for me
lebih byk tak kene dr kene
whatever it is, I'm happy
and I'm blessed to be around for my 25th birthday

mama,
thank you for going through
such an excruciating pain for hours
and gave birth to me
I love you.

Alhamdulillah.

p/s: masih tidak dpt berkata2 seperti normal, dan belum dpt menikmati makanan yg sedap2 lagi... :(