6 Months!!!

Hari ni rasa macam nk update

hey hey
esok genap 6 bulan kami diakadkan (and our little one turns 21 weeks/5m1w)
tp takde satu pon cerita majlis kami yg I share kt sini
setiap kali nk wat review, rasa malas
ala...majlis kami pon biasa2 jee
nothing much to talk about
tapi cukup meriah utk meraikan kami
takpela...satu hari nnt, agak2 rajin, I’ll post about it k

6 months along in this courtship,
Seperti pasangan lain, we had our ups and downs
Marriage life ni mmg sgt mencabar
Bukan setiap saat kita akan gembira/tertawa
Ade masa mmg happy…teramat happy
Lagi bila fikir yg orang yg kita dok gurau senda siang mlm, yg buat kita tertawa tu ialah suami
Suami….sebut perkataan tu pon cam meremang je rase
Of course, ade jugak masa2 bila emosi terganggu, jiwa tercalar, kes2 merajuk
Itu biasa la kan…adat berumah tangga
Tapi bila dh kawin ni, nk gaduh lama2 pon tak boleh...
Sebelom tidur, mesti nk berbaik
Orang tu jugak laah yg dicari buat bantal pelok mlm kang 

On another note, Tanggungjawab yg dipikul semenjak the moment kita diijabkabul tu, sgtlah byk
Kalau dulu, nk buat ape2, buat jeeee…tak payah pikir2 pasal org lain
But now, once you’re someone’s wife, suami adalah yg yang terpenting
Nk beli pape, kene pikir, suami suka tak eh?
Nk gi mana, mesti minta izin suami
Nk buat sesuatu, kene pikir maruah suami
Ape pon, suami jugak dlm fikiran

Tak kira lah penat mana masa bekerja, bila balik, mesti dok piker, nk masak ape utk suami mlm ni
To those yg tak tahu memasak, to me, tu semua alasan
Semua orang tahu memasak…infact, lelaki pon tahu memasak
Tapi MALAS jeeee…. (mcm my hubs….heeee)
Girls…..it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to be able to cook
Tapi it takes a lot of experience to be a good cook
Nampak tak beza kt situ….tahu masak VS pandai masak
Cari je lah resepi kt google tu
My fav spot utk cari resepi is at Myresipi.com
Cube je laaa mana2 yg agak menarik dan berkenan di hati

Percayalah, kebanyakan suami (especially yg baru kawin) tak kesah pon ape yg isteri nya masak
Yg penting, dia dpt rase sendiri masakan home cook isterinya
Tak kesah lah kalau hanya nasi berlaukkan telur goreng dan kicap
Itu dh sgt sedap berbanding hari2 dok mkn kt kedai mamak

And so far, Alhamdulillah, I’m able to cook for my husband
And yg paling buat makin bersemangat, bila dia memuji (kalau sedap) or even blurted a simple ‘thank you’ for the dish
I mengaku, not everyday I dapat masak, lagi2 dgn keadaan yg berbadan dua ni
But I did try to every other day….
at least seminggu tu ade la air tangan I yg mengenyangkan my hubs…

Speaking of berbadan dua ni, kami teramat bersyukur Ya Allah di atas kurniaanNYA ni
I have a confession…. I did plan to plan (faham tak?)
I pernah tell myself to be ‘kosong’ for at least sebulan
I never mentioned this to my hubs (sorry syg)
Cause he will never agree on this..he loves kids too much…
so do I…but I have some valid reason for feeling so
Therefore, no formal protection or prevention procedure that we follow/used

Bukan I nak menidakkan rezeki Allah
Tapi, bile I fikirkan yg masa awal2 kahwin tu, kami belom dpt betul2 settle down, I jadi risau
Sebulan kami masih tinggal di rumah in law
Hubs already start rented our current apartment, a week before our wedding
Tapi keadaan rumah yg belom lengkap isinya
And financial constrain yg melengahkan kami utk ‘mengisi’ rumah, buat kami makin lambat settle down
So I fikir, if I ever get pregnant too early, nnt mcm mana nk pindah kan?
Nk kemas2 rumah and so on
Sure renyah gile and worst if I mabuk teruk
Kesian pulak hubs kene buat semua sorg2 kan

Alhamdulillah, Allah knows best
I merancang, and Allah menentukan
Niat I dimakbulkan Allah

Tak dinafikan, masa kali kedua ‘my bestfriend’ dtg sejak kahwin on 15 Jan
which happened to be on a day after hubs birthday
masa tu I fikir, kalau I betol pregnant, dpt la I bagi rezeki Allah ni as the best ever birthday gift to hubs kan…of course tu hanya khayalan…. ‘___’
so bila mmg miss P dtg, I risau...I started to doubt myself
Mule terpikir, will I be able to conceive ever? Is there anything wrong with me?
Tp masa tu baru sebulan lebih kawin kot…
Tp gelabah mcm ape jeeee

Kiranya betol2 genap sebulan, I mmg ’kosong’
Cos approximately a month ++ later, bila kami dh hamper sebulan settle down di rumah kami, I disahkan 5 weeks pregnant
Syukur sgt2 masa tu
It was such a perfect timing 

Tapi tu lah, orang baru kawin ni kan
Financially belom berapa stable
Mana nk beli brg umah
Mana nk uruskan hidup
Rase mcm baru semalam ikat perut utk simpan duit nk kawin
Ni dh kene save up utk the little one pulak
Takpe lah, Allah pon dh janji, setiap anak yg lahir, ade rezekinya nnt.. InsyaAllah

Tapi kannnn….dulu, sebelum kawin, sebelum betol2 berniat nk kawin,
I selalu ade mslh duit ni
I mean, i dok laa risau, mana laaa aku nk cekau duit nk buat kawin ni
Mana laaaa nk dpt duit utk hidup after kawin lagi
Byk betol nk pakai duit
Mama siap ckp I ni mcm paranoid..mcm org gila duit… ‘___’

Tapi Alhamdulillah, bila niat kita tu baik, Allah permudahkan
Smpai sekarang, I mcm tak percaya, we managed to get through it
Ye laaa..kami berdua bukan dr keluarga berada
Keje pon biasa2 je….
Nk kata hidup mewah tu, mmg jauh sekali
Tapi belom pernah lah sesak sampai tak makan ke ape kan...syukur

Oh…dh byk melalut
All im saying here,
Im blessed with my life
With this marriage
With a lovely-sometimes annoying-patient-kind-sometimes ignorant-caring life partner

Syg…I know I may not be a perfect wife,
but thank you for accepting me, correcting me, layan kerenah farah yg kadang2 tah pape tu, and most importantly for loving me….
I loff you mucuk! ;p
Happy 6 months!


p/s: I’m not sure if he remember about the 6 months thing…let’s see……
p/p/s: he’s down with fever + flu + cough + asthma for 2 days now…get well soon dear….

Still here

dan bagai di pam-pam
huh


20 weeks along now
the little one is half baked, so they say


byk nk cerita
byk yg berlaku for the past few weeks
what with the braxton hicks,
the UTI or commonly known as 'kencing kotor'
and the best part, pasal our little one
we've got to know the gender masa week 17 dulu!!!
hihihi
tapi taknak la kecoh...
nnt kang keluar lain, udaaahhhh....
kami tak kesah...yg penting, baby sihat!
k sayang???!!!

tap tu la... tiap kali ade access  to the web world, malas gile nk login blogger
dok bace blog momsies je
suke baca experiences org lain
what they bought and so on
nk citer hal sendiri, bapak malas..

eh eh
20 weeks, means dh 5 months kan???
humakaih...cepatnye masa berlalu
and so far doc kata, still stick to the initial due date
which is 22nd Oct 2011
baby's progress is sejajar dgn the estimation day
so ok laaaa


tapi, deep down inside, i do hope i could deliver at least 1 or 2 weeks earlier
sebab???
tak nak la terlalu 'lemau' on my sister's big day!

muahahahaha
I never mention kan?
my kakak is getting married a week after my due date!!!!
29 October 2011

on my solemnization day last 11 dec 2010, she got engaged
InsyaAllah, if everything goes well,
my family planned to have the first cucu's aqiqah on her solemnization day pulak
ironic isn't it??
we both love to 'menyibuk' on each other's BIG day!
hihihihi
but none of us mind that though

thats y la i hope our little one kuar slightly earlier
so that i takde laaa 'lembik' sgt ke ape time org tgh sibuk2 kan
tapi if baby deceide to pop on time, mama don't mind sayang...
as long as you're ok...

btw, Im now at Kempas
I cuti hari ni, replacement Public Holiday for Agong's day
but dear hubs is working
mlm ni tunggu dia pick me up
and will be heading tu felda Tenggaroh (tak silap)
for his cousin's wedding this wiken

oh tak sabar nk mkn nasi minyak!!!
i loveeeee nasi org kawin
tp i uke mkn nasi gitu jeee
hihihih
apaape je la ibu mengandung ni kan??
k laaaa
till then,

p/s: igt nk upload latest gambar...tapi tak jumpe cable...len kali lah k tayang ke'penguin'an tuan blog..... '___'

of being 4 months!

been quite some time since i last wrote in
i just couldn't find the time nor vibe to do so
I have limited internet connections in current office
limited as in only 1 hour of blog-walking per day
they are strict like that
dont ever get me started on FB
they totally blocked it

however, i did utilize the 1 hour freedom as much as i could
by reading other blogs
especially those who are mommy-to-be
just to read their experiences and such

oh oh
our little one is almost half-baked now
4 months through, and Im enjoying every moment of it
it wasn't really a stroll at the beach though

its true, the morning sickness has subsides by now
it did happen occasionally, but very minimal i must say
but something else decided to pay me a visit
my migraine!!!
gosh!

at first i thought it was just one of the things you have to endure while being pregnant
but when it comes quite too often and only at one side of my head
i knew by then, this is not normal
waking up in the morning, trying to stand straight was quite a struggle
often I felt lightheaded, throbbing and spinning all at once
trying to walk normally to the toilet is another story
thus so far, within a month, I have taken 3 days of MC due to migraines
what a bad record of a 2 months old new employee
*sigh*

my appetite? dont get me started on this
i eat almost anything!!!
muahahahaa
so far I only rejected curry
other than that, oh yeah...come to mama!!!
no major craving just yet
only some serawa durian, naan cheese, nasi lemak, big mac are some that makes into the list
common foods right?
my hubs is a lucky man! :)

as i read through infos on being pregnant,
second trimester should be the 'honeymoon' trimester
where we, m2b, should feel more energetic and livelier
and those constant urge on emptying the full- bladder shud decrease by now
but not in my case
it remains!
i need to go to the toilet at least twice every night
making me feel groggy in the morning
hence the multiple snooze of the alarms '__'

eh eh
I should be able to know the gender of my baby by now right?
as excited i can be to see the lil one, and know the gender,
dear hubs is not in the same page as mine
he does not really fancy me going through too many rounds of ultrasounds
so we decided to wait
till whenever he said its ok to do so
'___________'

baby stuff?
none yet!
but I'm very eager on breastfeed our lil one
so, I'm enjoying making some research on which breastpump is suitable for me and our 'pocket'
nad....ko pakai ape huh??? advice skit

on another note,
our crib is still in quite a mess
i have a room half full of unorganized stuff
still couldnt find time to rearrange them
need to do so before i hit third trimester
i need to make room for our lil one's stuff
keep that in mind missy!

ok tu je!

p/s: panas gile mlm td kan?

cuti Cuti CUTI!!!!!

oh oh
Its gonna be a long weekend holiday...
yipppeeeee!!!
whats ur plan huh?

as for us,
we'll be heading to melaka for the next 3 days
Jasin on saturday for my dear cousin Sofia's wedding
and Tg Bidara on the next till monday
for our 'mini' family gathering

yeah
its gonna be jammed packed
what makes me more nervous,
is to meet up the relatives
at Jasin, there will be bunch of relatives from dad's side
and at Tg Bidara will be mom's side
whom some of them, I've never met since my wedding day

and what makes me nervous???
my freaking weight that just keep on adding up!

they'll sure be surprised with how 'well' I've been taking care of myself
and how 'happy' I am with our marriage, that I 'ballooned' up!
ngeeheeeheeeee
u know la all this myth says
"org dah kawin, hati pon senang...tu yang makin gomokkkk"
muahahahahha

but at least, I have a concrete reason for all this extra pounds
ahhhhh
nevertheless, I'm excited for this trip
moreover, its my first kinda long journey since preggo
hope it went well
jgn la nk termuntah ke pening ke ape ke
Pray for the best!

Happy holiday everyone!!!

:)

First appointment at Klinik Ibu dan Anak

after much deliberation and penangguhan
and heard lots of version
of when we're suppose to buka buku at KK,
some say only after u are at 12th weeks
and some say, once the UPT says +ve, u may go,
I've decided to do so a couple of days before i finish of my first trimester
i was at my 11th week, coming to 12 then

this is not the first time we went for checkups though
the first 2 was of course, done at 2 different pvt clinics
together with an ultrasound scan

as we have expected, it'll definitely be a long day for us
but no matter how mentally and physically prepared we are for the long hours,
little did we know, it'll take a toll on us
its not just about the long hours,
but its the numerous waiting for your name/number to be called

i'm not sure about other branches/state,
but the one i went in Klinik Ibu dan Anak in Masai,
for those first timers,
you were sent to numerous rooms for different stages of checkups

your first stage should be registering, of course
by 7.30, we're already at the half-packed KK
i straight went to the the registration counter,
hand them my I/C, and been told to wait for my name to be called


after 15 minutes, my name was called upon
the clerk passed me a number
and were asked to sit and wait

10 minutes passed by
my name were called again
they asked on where I'm staying
just to verify that I went to the right KK based on your residential area
they also asked when did we got married,
handed me 2 copies of 'buku merah' and were asked to hand the books to nurse in bilik 6
so i did

this is the most torturing part of the whole visit
they took almost 15 minutes for each patient
and there were at least 4 new cases patients before me

the thing is, the seats in front of Bilik 6 were very limited
what annoys me is there are some selfish individuals who just missed Civic lessons in their school days
the seats there are all occupied
which 2 of it were occupied by 2 men, which i believe were husbands of 2 of the ladies there

the thing is, im so ok with it as probably at that time, the place were no so jammed pack yet
but when you see 2 ladies, 1 heavily preggo, and another with a baby in her arms,
came in and had to stand as there's no seats available
these 2 men were being so arrogant and ignorant, did nothing!
oh come on!
those 2 ladies need those seats man!
so sick of it, despite of me being lightheaded and nauseous, i gave up my seat
bodoh lah mamat 2 ekor tu!
-___-"

after an hour seems like a year, my name were called
that's when the 'interview' took place
i was asked on husband's and my particulars,
oh yeah, they also requested to have a look on our sijil nikah
to verify that we're legally married
family and self history of illnesses and surgeries
any twins in the family traits
and what not

it wasn't that much right?
but what took most of that 15 minutes is,
they have to write the whole same essay, in both books!
just imagine, 2 copy of each details for each patient
no wonder it took forever!

being a programmer for the last 4+ almost 5 years now,
i felt like offering them a software to key in those details,
and let them print it 2 copies
so that they wouldnt have to waste their (drained) energy, writing those for each patient every freaking single day!

i wasn't mad at the nurses, as they were just carrying out their job, with much efficiency they could
but come on govt! you guys gotta speed up!
they ought to know by now that such procedure is such a waste on time and energy
update your system and procedures, pretty please?!

enuf on that
i was sent to bilik 9
to get my weight and height measured
and of course, my blood pressure
and all that took at least 15 minutes to be settled!

my next step was to get my urine and blood tested
so i were asked to head to the mini lab
waited for my turn to have the limited urine test bottle
which i were adviced to bring my own on the next visits
urine tested, an adequate amount of blood drawed,
it was quite a jiffy i must say
within 10 minutes, i'm out of there

were asked to send my blood sample to the lab
which is located at the next door building

by then, its already 11++
off we went to the lab
which to much relief, air-conditioned!
felt like i just entered heaven!
it was kinda stuffy back at the KK
waited about 10 minutes for the result,
and asked to send the results to bilik 7

which happened to be the longest wait. ever!
my husband found a comfy couch
and dozed beside another man
after what seems to be forever, my name were finally be called upon
only to be told to send my books to Bilik 1

by then, my blood went upstairs!
trying to chill, i walked slowly to Bilik 1, and passed the nurse my books
after 15 minutes, i was called in
its the dentist!
erkkk!!!!
i wasn't aware of this actually
but it went pretty well
no scary equipments used
they just simply check our mouth hygiene
make sure we brush our teeth properly and such
i was even adviced to see the gum specialist for my gum abnormalities
-___-"

once done, i were asked to head back to bilik 7, and waited again
sigh sigh sigh
another never ending waiting session
by then, i started to pace around
its 12.15 and we both are due to clock in at our office by 12.40
which by then, i know is impossible to be punctual
dear hubs has started to give me 'funny' stares as a sign of "I'll be late!"
what am i suppose to do?
it wasn't me who makes us both late!
neither do i blame the nurses
but its the system im mad at!

by 12.25, finally, my name were called in
and to my surprise, it was the best part of the whole visit!
this is when an experienced nurse checked your breasts,
part of your hair, checked for any glands at your neck
checked your stomach/womb
and measure them!
the lady was very gentle and so professional
there wasn't a single time i felt awkward or uneasy
and give you advices on being pregnant
the foods you should/shouldnt take, exercises you could do
importance of breastfeeding, post-natal care and such

by then, its already 12.45
we both are already late for work
hubs were mad, and i were stressed out
he decided to call it a day, but i on the other hand, felt is impossible for me to do so
i just started at my new workplace
i can't take leave just like that
so he dropped me off to work,
and he heads home

the prescription that i were handed earlier, i have to keep it aside
plan to get it some other time

and that, wraps our first visit for our antenatal appointment with KK
i was emotionally drained
too tired and too hungry to work
once i hit my desk, i took a breather
and head to the ladies, took off my scarves,
and showered my face with ice cold water
i felt much better, and continue my work

all in all, we had quite a bad experience for our first antenatal visit
dont get me wrong
this wasn't my first visit/appoinment at govt clinics
i've accompanied my mom to numerous specialists appointments at HSA
so I'm quite familiar with the waitings and all
but this time around, it felt different
me being pregnant, makes it all even worse!
i felt queasy all the way

i'm not sure if i could go through any more rounds of this
but looking at our financial constraints,
we couldnt afford to splurge on private hospitals deliveries
those once a month visit at private clinics for second opinion and scans are acceptable
but thousands on deliveries, i dont think so

therefore, i'm left with no choice, but to toughen up,
and bear with it!
May Allah be with us!

on a brighter note, all the waiting is totally worthwhile
i mean, no private clinics did such a thorough checkups right
plus, its free!



p/s: sayang, i hope u're happy with this entry. thanks for reminding me to update my blog! love ya!

The Best Gift on our 2nd Monthversary

and the best part, its specially 'delivered' by Him

Syukur, Alhamdulillah
We're expecting
in another word, we're pregnant
:)

infact, we're hitting the second trimester now
Alhamdulillah
not that i did not want to share the news much earlier,
but first trimester was the toughest and most fragile period in pregnancy
so I'm afraid it would all just be a false alarm or such
but praise to Allah, it went pretty well

here, I'm about to share the moment we received the great news

well, we got to know this a couple of days before our 2nd monthversary
one fine evening, i saw some spotting on my pantiliners
earlier that day, i was busy carrying computers
that time, i'm still with my previous company
little that I knew, that I might be pregnant
hence, the working so hard

but once i saw the spots, it hit me!
maybe I AM pregnant!
did some research, and the possibilities are there
the tender breast
the cramps
the lightheaded and nauseous
yadda yadda
however, at that moment, my period is not due yet!
'____'

nevertheless, as soon as i got home from office that evening,
i did home UPT (Urine Pregnancy Test)
i just couldn't wait till the first pee on the next morning!
geeeeeeeeeeee
and a faint purple line appeared

I did read, if you could see 2 lines,
no matter its a solid or faint line,
it's considered positive.
at that moment, I was so overjoyed, couldn't do anything
kept myself cool n calm,
whipped up a mihun goreng for our dinner
and waited impatiently for my husband's return from office

as he entered the house
I let him settle down
but I just couldn't keep it to myself any longer
and I shoved him the UPT kit
all he could say was "ni ape maksudnye?"
guys....will be guys.... *sigh*
without a word, I showed him the manual
instantly, he screamed!

he just couldn't believe it
however, i did remind him not to get over-excited
as we need to get a practitioner to confirm it
hence, as much as he wanted to ring his mom,
I told him to keep composed
being overjoyed him,
it took him half an hour to actually bring himself to the bathroom for a bath
for the half an hour,
all he did was in and out of our room,
he said he just couldnt think straight
he knew he need to take a bath
but he couldnt remember that the reason he went out is to get his towel
and it took him quite a while to get it!

the next day,
first thing in the morning,
again, I did another UPT
this time, using clearblue
which is more exciting
as it shows the period since you conceived
;)

and with that,
I head to the nearest clinic to confirm
and the rest, is history

blunt

my heart just sank the moment i heard those words
no words to describe how disappointed i am
if that person really means it, i shall swallow it with all the pride that i have left
and if  that person doesn't, it still will left a mark in my heart
a terrible mark
and it'll remain there, as long as i could breath

the worst part, she had to witnessed it all
she's the last person on earth that I'd tell
I love her, but life does not revolves around me solely
letting her see all the tears that I had,
made me shed more tears
I'm sorry