Alhamdulillah

as u all knows
arini result SPM kuar
and my little sis amek SPM this year....

Alhamdulillah
She made it
She nailed it
9As with 3A+

Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah

She really is a special and gifted GIRL for us
Alhamdulillah

p/s: this is what I call a GREAT distraction. Syukur....every cloud has a silver lining kan?

p/p/s: kechek....thank you...aku seriously terharu.....jgn risau....k....thanx so much for being so thoughtful...I'm touched!

There's still life after 'death'

yeap
it may feel like someone throw a bomb right on my face
but at least I still have some piece of me
that is still reliable
it may be not in perfect condition
but it is still worthwhile

I won't give up
I promise
If that person decided to leave, I'll move on
If that person decided to throw me out of their life, I'll carry on
If that person decided to enjoy seeing me tumbling down, I'll held my head up high

cause I know
deep inside, I am not mad
I am just........disappointed
what happen to through thick and thins?
Its all a b***s**t and f**kings**t


for now, I am NOT OK
I've lost a VERY IMPORTANT part of me
I will NEVER be OK
NEVER!

but yes, there is still life after death
and I shall start planning on it
for now, just don't shove me any babies....


p/s: I am no more perfect. for anyone.

p/p/s: Will there be anyone who's willing to accept ME? entah lah.tgk la jap gi, kalau dia dtg, kita pergi same2............saya tunggu.

10.03.10

@ approximate 11.15 am
I received a 'death sentence'
to make things worst
I have to face it alone

I don't know how to face the world anymore
how to carry on a 'normal' life

i don't know
eversince, i can't stop crying
suppose to rest for a week
but i refuse

dok kt umah lagi la buat i fikir mcm2
so lebih baik gi je office
walaupon tak buat keje sgt
but at least, i can still try to distract myself

p/s: pandai buat, pandai la tanggung kan?

ouch!

haih
sakit giler
pedih sgt2
tapi terpaksa tahan

tak bitau sesape pon
sbb takut
tp td terrrrbitau someone
nyesal pon ade
sbb no point
tapi tak tau la nape boleh terlepas jugak
3 hari bole tahan sendiri
nape arini leh terlepas eh?
dh la dgn cara yg tak sepatutnye
haih
bende dh jadik kan
nk wat camne?
so skrg, ape patut saya buat?
nk gi doc?
kalo rahsia pecah, macam mane?
damn!
tapi dah tak tahan sgt ni....
 
p/s: google doesn't help much.

PMS

yea
saya mengaku
PMS kali ni tak mcm selama ni
datang pon pada wrong timing
sgt wrong timing
especially bile musim 'mengawan' mcm skrg ni
mmg WRONG TIMING!

sakit dia, extra sakit
emo dia, extra emo
bende yg kecik pon saya akan emo
tapi kalau kene gayanye, takkan berpanjangan
tapi, ni.....memang dh melarat
macam2 yg dah terpikir dah ni

saya tau mesti dia pikir saya ni mengada
dia selalu pikir pompuan ni kalo period je, mengade
bukan mengade ok!
bende ni bukan nye dibuat2
it comes naturally ok!
N.A.T.U.R.A.L!

sakit tahu tak??????
tak tipu!

sia-sia II

kenape yea
kenape kite sanggup tolong org
yg tgh susah walau pon diri kite sendiri pon tgh susah?


kenape kite masih sanggup go through the pain
sedangkan kite tau semua tu sia-sia je
takkan dihargai

ape itu hargai?
bukan harap dibalas
tapi just a simple gesture
mcm say THANKS or an honest smile will do

ni tak
blah macam tu je
macam kite ni terhegeh2
sivik tahu tak?

sia-sia

semua nya sia-sia
SEMUANYA!

I am so frustrated
langsung tak dihargai

saya tau la saya ni bukan siapa2
takde pangkat, ape lagi harta
itu je yg saya mampu berikan
memang tak seberape, tapi amat bermakna pada saya
tapi malangnye, langsung tak dihargai!
memang sia-sia

terima kasih
saya betol2 kecewa
tak tipu.