my-so-called-scrumptious-life

Unwell and Moved Out!

2012-01-27T10:43:00.001+08:00

I was unwell since the last post
nampaknya, bukan Nurin shj yg suka main Peek-A-Boo dgn I
Mastitis too!!!

bermula dgn kiri, bhgn atas - surut on wed
beralih ke bhgn bawah, masih pd mrs B kiri - surut on friday
igt dh ok

tetibe selasa, kene belah kanan pulak
demam, tak usah cerita laaaa
dan dan bengkak, dan dan la temp tak pernah bawah 38 deg
kekadang smpai menggigil

so dekat 2 minggu ni,
I totally relied on painkillers and antibiotik yg sebeban tu
dh 3 jenis antibiotik i telan (sbb 3 kali jumpe doc)

the last one, baru jumpe gynae
doc siap scan mrs b
takut ade puss or whatsoever
syukur, semua clear

Alhamdulillah, I felt at my best today
walau last night taktidur nyenyak
coz Nurin agak renyah, I felt good waking up this morning
dh 2 minggu kot dok demam tak abis2
rasa loser gile sbb tak dpt nk jaga Nurin sgt
hanay attend dia bile dia lapar je
kalau x, mmg hubs or sesiapa je yg ade berhampiran lah yg jadi 'dayang' Nurin

oh yes, we finally moved out last monday
exactly on the Lunar New Year
Alhamdulillah, everything went well
adik beradik hubs byk membantu
Nurin, awal² I dh pass ke MIL utk jaga
so that I can help while we move out too

so far, tinggal di rumah baru, I masih rasa janggal
seumur hidup, tak pernah duduk rumah 2 tingkat
tak pernah duduk rumah corner lot
yg tingkapnye banyak!

dh la I ni jenis pump tgh mlm,
nk tak nak, kena la turun utk simpan the EBM
tu yg I lemah
coz, I ni PENAKUT tahap gaban
sbb bilik I pernah dimasuki pencuri masa kt UM dulu
India tu siap tepuk² tangan I suruh tidur balik lagi
tu yg sampai skrg, I trauma tahap asik terbayang² ade org masuk umah
or ade org perhatikan I dr luar
seram!

I know, eventually I have to get used to it
buat masa ni, hubs sgt membantu
kalau I kena turun, he will tag along
just for the sake of making me feel secured

most of the time, we stayed in our room
TV pon dlm bilik
kat bwh xde TV pon
blom amik kt umah mama
so org dtg, mmg tgk dinding je la jwabnye...miahahah

eh eh...TV tu pon takde siaran
baru kelmarin hubs beli Antenna yg indoor berharga 5.90 kt tesco
bersungguh dia pasang
tp yg dapat, hanyalah siaran Spore
Channel Msia, satu pon tak dpt

nk pasang aerial yg atas bumbung tu,
takde satu pon kedai lektrik area Masai ni yg dh bukak as for semlam
so buat masa ni, redha je lah
Astro, baru daftar smlm
tu pon daftar dgn dealer yg ade bukak booth kt Tesco
tu pon katanya, lg 10 hari baru pasang
nampaknye, kena cari port utk tgk AJL

ape lagi nk cerita eh
byk...
tp nnt2 la eh

ni pon update kt ofis
tenet kt umah tak dpt!
P1 langsung takde signal kt umah tu
menci betol!
so terpaksa tanya jiran² diorg pakai ape...

Mastitis

2012-01-19T22:09:00.001+08:00

I'm having another fair share of mastitis
after the first one which was 9 days after labour

it all started on sunday night
tgh tidur tu, tetibe rasa mcm tgn kiri agak susah nk gerak
at d same time, terasa mrs b kiri cam berat
I dunno y I didnt wake nurin up to feed her
but i get up, and express milk at 3.30am
unfortunately, hasil x berapa memberansangkan

felt tired and exhausted, I slept in
and bear with the pain
masa ni tak skt sgt lagi

so monday tu, gi keje dgn rasa tidak selesa pd mrs b kiri
tp x sesakit masa yg kena dlm pantang dulu
so terus kan keje
sempat jumpe doc kt kilang
and he prescribed me with painkillers and antibiotics
terus ilang sakit bile mkn ubt

but the thing is, the lump, masih terasa
mmg kompem ade clogged milk duct nih
dh try urut, tp x jln
bile pump, susu yg dihasilkan, mmg kurang dr biasa
tp masih ok

monday night, mule menggigil
demam tahap dewa dewi
jejak 39.8 degrees
nk pegang hp, text bos nk btau MC pon xdpt

masa MC tu, I slept straight dr kol 1.45 smpai kol 7
punye la pengsan
eh. tp x pengsan sgt
sbb kekdang tu gigil
solat asar pon kol 7
nasib baik maghrib masuk lambat skrg

now, demam dh surut
tp mrs b kiri, masih belom back to normal
ade lump pd pangkal mrs b kiri

now Im not sure is it becoz of clogged milk duct
or ade clogged pd nipple
sbb sejak isnin, bile nurin df, she takes longer utk kenyang
selalunya, dia cuma df 5-10 mins max
tp skrg, dekat setgh jam....
mcm x kenyang2
nmpak dia mcm struggle skit masa hisap tu

nk jumpe gynae,
I'm pretty sure, the same advice yg i akan dpt
which is frequent nurse
plus, malas sebenarnya nk g hospital

tp yg teramat2 merunsingkan,
hasil ebm yg I dpt hasilkan for a day, drop 50%!!!!!
sedih sgt.....
nasi baik mmg ade stok lebih skit
so boleh cover
tapi tu cume oleh tahan berapa hari je

haih
pening
dh la sakit, susu lak merudum
maybe nk kena panggil org urut
tgk camne nnt

Langsir oh! Langsir

2012-01-08T23:07:00.004+08:00

3 Sliding door
10 tingkap
amekausiapadapattolongkaujahitdalammasasebulan?!!!!

adoiyaiiiii
nak pindah secepat mungkin
infact, by the end of this month
sbb dh bg notis pd tuan rumah yg skrg ni

tapi, rumah baru tu masih dlm keadaan 'bogel'
baru terhegeh² nk beli kain and mintak org jahit
yg sliding tu i tak risau sgt cos design yg weols nk is a very simple one
just ade day and night (or maybe night sahaja coz cermin dh tinted kan) curtain
and jahit straight je takde ropol scallop jurai or whatsoever.
so yg ni i yakin mokteh can pull it off
infact, kalau belum ade baby, i yakin i boleh jahit sendiri
hey hey...saya pernah jahit langsir utk mama's house tau! ecececece
tapi mungkin x sekemas pro laaaa...hihihi

btw, yg agak merisaukan is the 10 tingkap
4 tingkap 2 panel
and 6 tingkap 1 panel

yg 1 panel ni la yg agak gonjeng
sbb kalau nk go for the normal straight design,
i rase dia akan jadi agak gonjeng

so after much deliberation,
i opt for the 'bidai' design
yg mcm ni

yg ni i'm not sure mokteh boleh buat tak

so I'm thinking of nk cari tukang jahit yg pro utk buatkan
satu hal lak nk scout for it
ade try cari o9
ade jumpe a few
tp not sure la can be trusted tak

tgk la nnt cmne
skrg pon tgh shortlist mover
dh ade yg cam ok
tp masih lom kompemkan lg

adoiyainyepun!

p/s: pindah adelah memenatkan! sdg mencari mover jugak! adoiyai nye pun!

Numb

2011-12-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

I wish I can be numb

numb to all negative reactions

numb from getting hurt

numb to any rejections

numb from being misjudged

numb to all the pain in the world

numb from getting heart-broken

numb to all hurtful words

at the end of the day

I'm just human

with feelings

and tears that came along

I may appeared numb to you

but deep in me,

I'm falling apart

into pieces

as I forced myself to be numb,

those pieces became even more little pieces

I'm afraid,

comes one day

there are no little pieces left to be shredded

and when it happens,

there' nothing left,

except to bid, Goodbye.

p/s: calar di lengan, orang tahu, calar di hati....simpan sendiri.

Of 2 months

2011-12-20T08:15:00.000+08:00

dh lambat
dh nk masuk 3 months pon
tp bende ni mmg dh lama dlm draft
cume ntah nape, x siap²

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dear my child, Nurin Balqis Mohd Afiq,
as u turned 2 months,

u sleep better on ur tummy. Initially we planned to let u sleep on ur tummy only during ur day naps, n on ur back at night. However u tends to get startled very easily while u sleep on ur back. to swaddle u up is not even a choice, as u'll get mad once we tied u up.

u can turn ur head to left and right while sleeping. sometimes, u even kept on turning ur head left n right several times when we put u down to sleep, before u eventually find a (nice) spot to land ur chubby cheek on. and mama find this particular habit of urs, very cute!
u went bald at 1m7d. we kept procrastinating on this particular thing as we're all afraid that it'll hurt u. and mama worried that u'll look 'weird' with a bald head. but boy, i was wrong! u looked even much cuter aftermath!

before

after

u started to coo!!! Allah knows how long I've been waiting for this moment to arrive. it may not even sound like any words that we could find in the dictionary, but it sure landed on the soft spot in mama's heart. However, u did not coo too many times. just when u felt to do so. and I'm honoured to be the first to witnessed it
u can now bare ur weight with ur two strong legs, each time we held u upright. Sometimes u get furious when we put u down, and calmed when we let u stand (with us holding u upright)
u've been loving ur bathing time since u were born, darling. u kicked and slapped ur cute little arms profusely while in the tub filled with lukewarm water. btw, u hate tap water! u'll scream on top of ur lungs when i tried to bath u with normal temp water.
u now love being clothes-less. everytime before bath time, I let u get loose with only ur diaper on. u no more cried each time we undress/dressed u up.

u can now coordinate sound. u'll turn to the direction where the sound came from. we love to entertain u with the sound of the rattle. however, after 2 minutes, it seems like we're entertaining ourselves as u already got bored by then.
ur sight is still pretty much blurry. we never got tired of testing ur sight everyday by moving certain object in front of u. u usually just stared blankly to whatever u're looking at. i guess at this stage, u react more to sounds.
u have this particular (cute) reaction everytime u pooped! u'll 'kembangkan' ur nose and grin (with lips shut together) on each attempt of pushing out ur stool. those reactions are certainly too cute that I never failed to laugh. and dear, once u're done, u'll be 'tersandar kelegaan'...hihihi

ur 'meneran' face! lol!!!!

ur daily activities and nap scheduled vary from day to day. and yeah baby, u still wakes up 2 hourly at night for milk and sometimes to poop.
unfortunately, u have colic on some days...about twice a week. and when u had one, u cried like nobody's business till u went all red and it hurts me so to see u suffer. sometimes u totally refuse milk, while most of the time, u kept on sucking each time I try to feed u. til u got overdose. and u vomitted it out. there was one time, it was too much, that it even cam out of ur nostril. pity baby. I found out that the yuyi ointment is not good enough for u. Minyak Herba NR works better.

I'm sorry dear, but as for now, u're still pretty much relying on FM...u'd love to df from mama, but sometimes, the pain is way beyond my threshold that I gave up (I'm sorry). If there are ebm in the fridge, we'll feed u with those. or else, FM it is. :(

our first ever NIP (Nursing in Public) at KK

I'm glad u could accept the bottle

u love going out! ur debut was to JJ Tebrau when u were 1m17d. though u are pretty much sleepy, u kept holding on with eyes wide open. I guess u r so curious on where u r at as it sounds so different.

and just for the record, as u hit 2 months 5 days u weighed 5kg (u've doubled up ur initial weight!) and u're such a cute, strong, and Alhamdulillah, healthy baby.

when u were 1 month - 3.75kg

2 months! - 5kg

u cried for 5 seconds when u got ur 2nd months jab. strong baby!

consoled by abah before ur 2nd months jab

Monday Morning Motherhood Mishaps

2011-12-19T10:16:00.002+08:00

what a jerky start I had for this week

it was raining this morning
i find myself kept on snoozing the alarm which rang at 5.45 am
while 'tidur2 ayam', i contemplate whether i should wake up early to express milk
or just sleep in till 6.30 and just forget about pumping
and I decided on the later

so as I woke up, it was already 6.40
I jumped off bed, thinking "shait! my boobs are full and we're heck late!"
quickly I had my shower,
woke dear hubs up
and kept on reminding him to have a quick shower
as I prep up myself, Nurin's stuff, and my breastpump

by 7.05am, we're out
it was drizzling
dear Nurin was not in her best morning mood unlike other days
she was restless

luckily hubs carpooled with us
so I could calm her while hubs drove
and that was when I realized,
I did not packed Nurin's ebm stock!!!

all I brought was the 3oz that I thawed
and filled in her TT bottle
the rest, still in the freaking fridge!
to survive the whole day with just 3oz of milk???
heck no!

reached mak's place around 7.15
unload her stuff and pass her to mak
and told mak that I forget to bring along her milk supply
so she should just use the FM that we already prepared for her incase of lack of supply
with that, I drove off the driveway

I felt guilty all the way
as I drove, I saw the highway is jam as usual
and I'm thinking, "What the heck! I'll be late anyway!"

make a u-turn, went back to our place
quickly parked the car, get to the lift, enter our home,
grab the 4 bottles of ebm in the fridge
safely keep it in JJ Weekenders cooler tote
locked the door and grill, went down the lift
and off I went back to the car
all in 5 minutes

drove back to mak's
she was surprised to see me
transfered all the ebm into her fridge
give a huge kiss to the little one, and whisper 'sorry' to her ear,
and off to workplace

it was 8.28 when I scanned in
NVM, I can always replace the lost hour to OT on any of the days
but I should never thought of taking the easy way out,
by giving my dear daughter FM
when I still have enough supply for her
(read: It would be a different story if I dont have any stock of ebm)

Yeap. I felt guilty for even having those thoughts
I even slapped myself (twice) as a punishment (yeap. to that extend.)
but I'm glad and relieved that reality hits me at the right time

to exclusively bf ur child is definitely not easy
only mommies who experienced it would understand
I, myself, still struggle to exclusively bf my child
I'm still suffering with tormenting sharp pain on the nipple after a few feed session
but the priceless bonding moment that I get each time she needs me (read: milk),
defeats all excruciating pain that I have to endure
knowing that only me, her mother, can experience that moment, is definitely beyond words

unfortunately, while to others,
"why go through so much hassle and pain? there's always the FM!"
again, only we, understand.

1 Year Anniversary

2011-12-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

Merdeka

2011-11-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

sudah hari ke-45

not that I hate my 'pantang' days
sbb my MIL pon takde la strict mana
tp the fact that the 44 days dh over, sgt relief
at least lepas ni kalau nk keluar umah, x perlu la rasa bersalah

smlm lg dh mencemar duli
hubs dgn baik hati ajak keluar
bukan g mana pon
saje jejalan, bawak kete
nurin, tinggal dgn mak
dh mlm masa tu, kol 9
dia pon dh tidur....

last2, hubs melencong ke Today's
as usual, kalau dh ke sana, x sah kalau x memborong dvd

then otw blk, singgah Kamal
pekena tosai garing

by 10, dh balik dh
sejam je keluar...
tu pon dh dok teringat kt nurin....rindu!
si kecik yg dh pandai main air liur...huhuhu

then td pulak hubs bwk g Tesco
bukannye ade bende nk beli pon
just for the sake of taking me out je

sempat grab a rice cooker for mak
she kept complaining yg the current one dh mule meragam
so as a token of appreciation dia jage kami,
I bought her a new one.....

x sah la kalau si ibu ni keluar tanpa igt kt anak kan
makanye, I bought 2 pairs of leggings for her
dh lama nk beli, tp sbb she was born agak kecik kan
even her mittens and booties pon kept on falling of bile dipakaikan
bygkan betapa 'halus'nye my daughter ni

but now, dia dh berisi skit,
so baru la bole nk pakai yg cantik2 skit
hihihih
yg merana, opkos la poket si mamanye kan
I ni dh la x bole menahan tgk bende2 comel utk girls ni
asik la dok hit 'Add to cart'....bahahhaha

p/s: for the first time, I typed this entry while bf nurin. selalunye hanya bole scroll and browse je...kali ni, berjaya mengarang....yeay!

Memoirs of Welcoming Our Little Princess - Part I

2011-11-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

1st Oct 2011
we were at kempas. i decided to tag along when hubs went for a jog at Setia Tropika. Infact, I'm the one who suggested to go for a walk coz I felt extremely bored, staying in the whole day. Plus kata orang, kalau nk mudah/cepat bersalin, banyakkan berjalan...so I did. Mlm tu rasa lain macam skit kt bhgn bwh..tp xdela sakit sgt ke ape....come to think about it, maybe masa tu our little one dh menganjak ke bawah...tu yg rasa x selesa je kt bwh....

2nd Oct 2011
we went back to our place that morning....ade jugak ajak hubs jln2 kt JJ, tp x dilayan...hohoho...smpai umah, kemas serba sikit, settlekan laundry, then kami 'bersama'....masa mandi tu, I hisap air di hujung rambut...beria kan I amalkan tips2 nk bersalin cepat? masa tu takdela mengharap sgt menjadi ke ape...tawakal je kpd Allah...above all, I selalu berdoa, kalau anak kami dh cukup sifat, sihat dan kuat menghadapi dunia luar, dengan izin Allah, lahirlah....

ptg tu, Hubs went out for futsal...I dok sorang kt umah, tetibe rasa nk memasak...mind you, towards the end of my pregnancy, I malas gile nk masak...not that I mabuk ke ape, tp mmg MALAS. tp sgt cepat lapar...hohoho...btw, dlm tgh sarat tu, I berjaya sediakan cekodok and mihun s'pore/putih....lepas maghrib, we had dinner together in front of tv....masa tu dlm kol 8...as we had dinner, we watched Masterchef US.

Tetibe, dlm tgh tgk the judges tasting the contestant's dishes, *Plop*....felt mcm a bit basah down there. without moving an inch, i terus seluk and calit skit with my fingers. yeah. Im THAT curious! as expected, its something mcm air, tp agak pekat, tp tak pekat sgt. ape aku merapik ni. ahhhh..u know what i mean kn...and masa tu jugak baru i faham, kenapa we, expecting mommies akan confuse air ketuban dgn air tuuuutttt...hohoho..again, u know what i mean. siap tanye hubs lagi, ni air ape...dia lagi laaaa tak tau kan...tp sbb excited nk jd abah, konpiden je kata tu air ketuban...

and yeah, i pon agak yakin tu air ketuban, tp, tak berapa yakin, coz mcm sikit sgt...sbb i always thought bile air ketuban pecah, dia akan mcm bursting gitu...ala....mcm dlm drama2 tu....tp ni sikit....so what i did, i wear nothing! eh bukan...masih pakai baju, tp seluar and panties, i bukak....so i walked around the house, dgn berbaju shj...hoho...so as i ke hulu ke hilir dlm rumah, feeling nervous and tak tentu arah, i dpt rasa ade air mengalir kt peha...agak warm gitu....masih x konpiden...rase tak selesa dia mengalir gitu, and takut kotorkan lantai umah, i stayed put in the toilet, and gave my mom a call, and clarify, air ketuban tu mcm mane...she did described how it looked like...tp bile i cerita how i experienced it, dia tak bole nk kompemkan, coz she never went thru it b4...she had all 3 of us via c-sect...so next, call jane, hubs' friend...cerita kat dia, and yeap, the way we described it, it is air ketuban.

tp i masih tak puas hati. sbb takde 'show' kan...tetibe terpikir nk pakai pad...so pakai seluar, and i wore a pad....sambil2 tu, i gosok baju keje hubs utk esoknye (ntah kenapa, i pon tak tau...) and packing2 brg yg last minute tu..few minutes later, i checked my pad, a bit basah, and ade lendiran brownish gitu. ok. I'm in 1st stage labour. tapi......masih tak tau nk terus ke hospital ke tak. sbb i don't want to stay at the hospital too long, or worst, kene hantar balik, sbb belum time.

so I gave my uncle, our Gynae, a call...as expected, dia suruh ke hospital immediately...kebetulan masa tu pon dia mmg ade kt hospital sbb ade case...so we decided to go and serah diri laaa...

but before we went to HSI, we made a quick pit stop at MIL's...to drop off my confinement period bag....and some of our baby's stuff...unfortunately, mak wasn't around...ntah mana dia gi masa tu...by then it was 10.15pm....sbb hubs igt nk mintak mak ikut sekali...so mmg takde rezeki....

otw to the hospital, kakak called....she was excited that I'm in labour..kebetulan dia baru pas dinner kt kg melayu dgn her fiance...so nk dtg hospital jumpe i....i kata ok je...mmg sampai je kt area ER tu, I saw them....dia pelik I siap sengih, gelak2 lagi....dia igt I akan mengerang kesakitan ke ape...tp mmg masa tu tak sakit ape pon...rilek je lg......dh la i pon selambe je pakai seluar masa tu...lupe lak yg bile dh in labour, I should wear kain...hohohoh....

fuuhhh...panjangnye........citer kt hospital, next entry la eh.....
tralallalalalal

10 nonsense facts.

2011-11-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

masih dlm proses menyesuaikan diri dan menguruskan masa semenjak menjadi ibu
masih dlm proses memupuk sifat kesabaran yg tinggi dlm diri
migraine adalah semakin menjadi2 sejak kebelakangan ini. but surprisingly, sakit itu masih mampu ditanggung setiap kali nurin di pangkuan
sesekali, perasaan 'terkurung' amat bermaharajalela dlm diri. rasa mcm terlalu terperap within the 4 walls. mahu keluar. mahu bercuti.
sesekali, perasaan 'ini tidak adil' juga menguasai minda. hanya krn bdn sudah terlalu letih, ttp melihatkan org lain mampu buat ape yg mereka suka dan terus bergembira, sedangkan saya, menahan shj.
breastfeed itu sakit. tak tahu kenapa, tp ia menyakitkan buat saya. jadi, saya akan menggigil tiap kali nurin demand. tp tahan je lah.....
bile org kata itu ini, atau beri komen yg negatif ttg anak saya, saya berbulu. tak suka lah. go talk to others. not me. the mother.
sudah 31 hari. rasa mcm bukan dlm pantang lg. hanya pantang bende sejuk je...yg lain, cam takde pape pon. pakai stokin pon bile rasa nk pakai je. hoh.dasar!
bile dh bertiga, rindu saat berdua. rindu saat perhatian yg tidak berbelah bahagi itu. rindukan belaian manja. ops!
bile anak berjaga dan merengek dan saya sudah terlalu letih utk melayan, dok popok dia suruh tidur...bile tgh tidur, lagi dgn muka yg comel, rasa mahu dibangunkan...rindu!

Demam yg amat!

2011-10-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

tak dpt nk teruskan entry day by day...
ni pon dh 2 hari xsentuh laptop....
fb pon x sentuh
demam yg maha hebat...

sedih gila rase sebab terpaksa susahkan mak n hubs
nurin pon dh 2 mlm tdo ngan mak
mlm ni pon...

skrg dh rase sihat sikit...
tp masih jejak 38degrees...

hopefully by esok sembuh betol2...
sbb dh janji nk bwk nurin tdo umah atok n tok mama dia....

jiayou fana!!!!
kuatkan semangat!!!!

p/s: dlm pd i tgh kesakitan, they made a decision without asking me, her mother....they just blindly listened to what others said....luluh rasa hati ni tiap kali nurin disumbat dgn 'benda' tu..... :(

Day 1 - Day 3

2011-10-10T20:46:00.001+08:00

Day 1

since I delivered in Govt Hospital, opkos la ade visiting hours kan. so bile non-visiting hour, I tried to catch some sleep. tp x boleh...coz hati ni dok nk ngulit and perhati si kecil
masih dlm mode tak percaya dh jadi seorang ibu, and berjaya endure the labour pain and process. normal delivery lak tu. dok terkenang2 saat2 nk melahirkan tu....Subhanallah...
rasa sakit jahitan buat i jadi malas. malas nk minum, malas nk makan. tp hubs, mama, mak, ayah and akak dok paksa2 masa i baru je masuk wad. tp i buat dek. bile sampai visiting hour tghari, mama ayah n akak dtg lagi, again, dipaksa makan....makan la jugak sesuap dua sudu nasi hospital (keras!) ngan lauk fishball sup (sedap) and ikan sweet sour (x lalu nk telan)....
sister dtg ajar i serba sikit utk breastfeed baby...tp masih tak berapa nk berjaya, cos baby dok nk tido je...dia hisap kejap je.. itupon dia tak dpt nk latch dgn betol coz my nipple yg hujung tu, tak terkeluar sgt....bentuk kon je....hok hok
berjaya pee sendiri dlm masa 4 jam after delivery. walau rasa horror gile, dan ditemani akak (smpai dlm toilet) i kuatkan semangat. sbb dh set dlm kepala nk discharge ptg ni jugak. xmo susahkan hubs ulang alik spital....akak jugak laaa yg dok tolong i salin baju, salin pad and wutsoever. malu? dh tak tau ape itu malu sejak asik kene seluk...hohoho....nasib la akak ade masa tu.....tq kak sbb sanggup amik cuti! loff u!!!!
bile nurse tanye baby dh kencing n berak, I gelabah..dh la masa tu takde sape teman, plus i tgh ngantok gile....so cam mamai...nurse dok paksa I cek sendiri baby nye diaper.the thing is, i dunno how!!!! dh la baby pakai bedung, kang I bukak, camne pulak nk pakai balik. plus i takde bwk bekal any wet tissue...duh! last2 mintak sikit dr akak katil opposite. dia jugak yg ajar camne nk cuci, tukar diaper and bedung baby. fuhhhh!!!! berjaya jugak, walau dok terkepit2...huhuhu
rasa mcm nk maki je nurse, bila i tgh dok nk tido, tetibe dia kejut (dgn kasarnye) suruh i bangun n gi satu bilik ni sbb doc nk cek jahitan and again, kene seluk utk cek ntah ape before boleh discharge.
slepas kene cek, tetibe doc kata, i tak boleh discharge ptg tu, becos our baby's GM level was quite low....(note: baby yg bawah 2.5kg mmg akan dimonitor GM level, katanya)
i balik ke katil, n since tak boleh balik, i decide utk mandi. ade air panas! best!!! rase segar bile dh mandi tu....
tetibe dtg sorg nurse, tanye i, since i tak discharge, i nak tukar bilik tak. sbb 2nd class ward yg i duduk tu, aircond nye rosak. hampeh gile!!! so dia offer dok 3rd class yg setiap katil ade 1 kipas. i ckp, i don't mind...sbb yg ltak i kt 2nd class tu pon is my uncle, Dr Ghaz (Uncle Li)....sepatutnye dpt yg first class yg bilik 1 katil tu, tp ntah nape, ade sister tu x bg! nurse dh tolak masuk dh, ttbe dia tarik balik...tak tau la nape....
n tetibe jugak, nurse tu dtg semula kt i, kata i boleh balik...yahooo!!!! rupenye GM level my baby dh naik...bape readingnye, idokle teman tau....dh boleh balik tu pon dh cukup syukur dah....
discharge process agak lambat. yela...bk documents kene setel...gitu gini, 7.20 baru setel..dh laaa tgh maghrib, nk bawak baby keluar...tawakal je la
sepanjang perjalanan balik, ujan renyai....ujan rahmat utk baby kata mak...Alhamdulillah, sampai rumah, hujan reda.....

Night 1

had nasi putih, air asam and ikan cencaru bakar for dinner...masih xde selera nk mkn...tp telan je sbb kesiam mak dh sediakan.....
baby nangis, i dok suakan my breast. 3 of us (hubs, mak n me) dok pikir baby lapar...but she refused! dia cam dok paling2 muka...mak dh baca ayat2 pape yg patut. cos igt ade 'something' yg tak kena or kacau dia masa balik td...sekali i teringat nk cek diaper dia....duh!!! dh naik kering dh stool dia...patutla dia meragam....
after salin diaper, she slept. weols pon setel la pape yg patut semua..tetibe, dia nangis..lapar la tu kan....i sua kan my breast...sumpah i semangat gile nk breastfeed kn my baby.....tp hampa gile sbb though my nipple is already in her mouth, dia taknak latch...dia dok melalak jeeee... i try urut mrs b...dgn harapan dptlaaa menghasilkan hasil...unfortunately, takde...nothing came out...they were very soft too...mak dok kata, dia dulu, dh keras dh...air dh memancut la ape laa...i ape lg, depressed la....rasa cam loser and such a failure....hubs teringat psl my breastpump. dia suruh i pump. i did. unfortunately, mmg takde pape yg keluar...and mrs b i lak rase sakit gile sbb mcm dipaksa2 kan...hubs dh mula nk marah...siap hentak my breastpump kata BP tu tak guna.. sedih hati i....again, bertambah depressed....hasilnye, the whole night 3 of us x dpt nk tido coz bb dok melalak on and off...dh la mmg takde backup FM...mmg i tak terpikir nk beli sbb mmg dh set dlm kepala nk fully bf kan...mana sangka, mrs b tak dpt beri kerjasam sepenuhnya....last2, mak and hubs insist on bg air zamzam...i redha je la....nk buat cmne kan....dr terus tgk bb exhausted melalak, mak suapkan air zamzam pakai sudu sikit2...Alhamdulillah, reda sikit tangisan dia...
oh yea...kakak and ayah came over to visit us....baru pg tu jumpe kt hospital, atok dh rindu kt nurin...tp masa they came over, nurin belom meragam lagi....ok ok je lagi..huhuhu

Day 2

start berurut. bibik yg urutkan..mak mmg rajin panggil dia utk urut or kemas umah....oh i loved being diurut..bibik ni urut sedap gileee...ade la sikit2 part yg sakit...tp mostly i rase best jeee....kan ade org yg jenis urut bersungguh...mana yg u sakit, lg ditekan2 ke ape kan..tp ni tak...mmg sedap....after urut satu badan, dia sengkak perut..ni takdela sakit mana, tp tak selesa sikit la...tp ok je.....then berparam satu badan, pakaikan bengkung lilit yg panjang gile tu and berpilis..... fuh...param tu mmg hangat!! rasa warm je badan ni
pokteh n mokteh dtg....pokteh yg temankan hubs gi kedai beli FM...they bought Enfalac A+....Alhamdulillah....our baby dpt terima susu tu...luluh hati ni tiap kali bancuh susu tu....tp nak buat mcm mana kan...takdir mengatasi segalanya. jgn kata i tak berusaha! i did...even sblm anyone sumbat FM ke my baby, i insist to hold my baby, and paksa dia hisap jugak mrs b...dgn harapan dpt stimulate la kan...tp mmg takde hasil....takpelah. dlm kepala i pikir positif...esok2 adela rezeki anak i....cuma i kene kuatkan semangat....
for lunch, I had nasi putih + singgang ikan ape ntah yg fresh dr laut courtesy pokteh + sup sawi

Night 2

dinner pulak nasi putih + cencaru bakar + sup sawi
Fikri (hub's friend) and wife, Jane together with their adorable son, Rayyan came to visit...byk tips yg diorang share....infact masa tgh pregnant and air ketuban pecah pon tanye diorg....hiks! diorg dtg siap hadiahkan bag lagi...comel beg tu! ;)
Nurin berjaya tidur dgn nyenyak unlike the night before. she woke up only once at 3.30am for milk and diaper change right after...tp dh pagi tu rase bersalah pulak sbb tak kejutkan dia every 2 hours for milk...sbb baby kan patut byk menyusu kan.....tp juga rasa gembira and bangga sbb berjaya went through the night with nurin alone, tanpa ganggu tidur mak or hubs...;)

Day 3

pagi tu, urut lagi.....same routine..and kesedapan masih same....hikhik.....mcm nk mintak urut 44 hari je terus...hahaha...melampau!
ptg tu, tetibe nurse from KK called, said they'd like to come over to visit mom n baby
dlm kol 3, diorg sampai....3 of them...they checked me first. since i dh kencing before they came, x dpt la nk check urine. move on to check my BP, mata, leher, breast and kaki for oedema....entah ek...sejak bersalin, kaki i masih bengkak lg....takde la segemuk masa end of pregnancy...tp bengkak la jugak....
after dh check mommy, check baby lak...they checked her physical and reflex response, alhamdulillah, all good...unfortunately, they claimed my baby mcm ade jaundice (kuning) and adviced us to go to KK for further check up the very next day. hati adelah sgt risau..... :(
masih mencuba utk breastfeed, tp tak berjaya..pump pon tarak hasil....Nurin on FM the whole day

Night 3

kawan mak dtg...tp x kenal siapa....
Nurin managed to sleep well....infact, she slept too well...mmg baby yg ade jaundice, akan asik tidur jeeee....I yg risau sbb dia tak bangun utk susu..jaundice bb kene selalu diberi susu, kalau boleh 2 jam sekali...so that dia byk poo and pee, maka kuningnye pon akan kurang...therefore, i tried to kejutkan dia....i usik2 pipi dia, cuit sana sini, tak jln...dia just kerut2, or tido jeeeeee..dekat sejam i tried...i dh risau amat...siap kejutkan hubs mintak dia kejutkan nurin...last berjaya jugak bangunkan dia....rupenye nk kejut baby, cubit tapak kaki dia....tp nurin ni, org cucuk jarum kt kaki pon dia dek je tido..... -____-

Our Bundle of Joy ~ Presenting Our Little Princess

2011-10-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

Name : Nurin Balqis binti Mohd Afiq

D.O.B : Monday, October 3rd, 2011, 7.58am (5 Zulkaedah 1432)

P.O.B : Hospital Sultan Ismail, Johor Bahru

Weight : 2.39 kg

Height : 46 cm

Mode of Delivery : SVD (Spontaneous Vaginal Delivery)

She started to open her eyes as soon as 7 hours after birth! :)

da lame x main futsal

2011-10-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

Untuk Nurin!

2011-10-07T23:25:00.001+08:00

Pumping while blogging and bertungku
sgt multi-tasking!

best achievement so far : 2.5oz from right B
left B masih kurang memberi kerjasama
takpe!!!
jiayou!!!!!!!

Lobak putih....come to mama!

p/s: siapa Nurin? will update later....stay tune!

xoxo

my first VE experience

2011-09-30T17:08:00.001+08:00

wah.....sudah kene VE!

dh berasalin ke????

mmg tak laaaaa... -____-

eh jap jap

what is VE, u asked?

its Vaginal Examination

pendek kata, kene seluk kt va jay jay untuk cek bukaan serviks

ade paham?

well, this happened last night

gini ceritanya

dh 3 hari (since tuesday yg rasa sakit tu) I perasan, baby mcm kurang gerak

usually, by 3 or 4pm, fetal movement chart tu boleh setel

tp ni nk dekat maghrib, baru dlm 5 or 6 jeee

plus rasa mengeras and tightening kt area abdomen tu

comes and go

I couldn't really be bothered to time it laa

sbb mmg tak regular pon

so I just assume its Braxton Hicks

tp bila dh 3 hari berturut, I jadi risau la jugakkan

lagi pulak bile I google up,

ade kes yg baby kurang gerak sbb tali pusat dh terbelit

so kene emergency c-sect sbb takut baby lemas

oh risau nyeeeeee

so I raised my concern tu hubs,

dia lagi la risau

asik la tanya, anak kite ade gerak takkk

last², we decided to go to the hospital je

so smlm, after maghrib, kami terus ke HSI

first time ni, agak kompius tak tau nk gi Emergency Room or Dewan Bersalin

hubs rang his friend and asked, dia kata gi Dewan Bersalin terus

so ke sana la kami

he dropped me, and parked the car

naik tingkat 4

went to PAC (Patient Assessment Center)

terang serba sikit my concern to the nurse,

then disuruh buka panties and lie on bed no. 3

as expected, a houseman yg attend I

as the nurse's said, 'kt sini, dato' mmg letak houseman je kak'

houseman pon houseman laaa

diorang pon nak blaja gak kan

tapi, tapi....saya malu laaaaaa

sbb tau² diorang ni around my age

ahhh..belasah je lah

so he asked me this and that

sakit mcm mane, sejak bile, so on and so forth,

checked my blood pressure - 145/93! erk?!

tp dia senyap, I pon senyap je

next, wat CTG, to check baby's heart rate

dekat 20 minit jugak ah terlentang gitu

boring! dh la pinggang i ni mmg sedia ade skt

so tgh² tu, I gerak² la kan

nk selesakan pinggang ni

tapi..tiap kali i gerak, CTG device yg kt perut i ni pon cam teralih

so kekejap kang, sayup je dgr heart beat

kang tetibe kuat pulak

saspen je diorg...huhuhuhu

and based on the CTG result,

semua nmpak OK shj

nothing to worry about

baby's doing just fine

takde tanda² yg pelik ke ape

setel tu, tetibe the doc said nk wat VE!

oh nooooo....I selalu disogok dgn org kata VE tu sakit!

siap tanya doc, perlu ke VE?

he said yes, since I've been having pains for 3 days

takut mmg dh in labour

mak redhaaaa

dh la doc muda...malu laaa saya!!!!

but syukur, he never made it awkward at all

dgn ditemani nurse,

he sat by the bed

dia selak kain pink tu,

tgk part tu kejap to make sure of where to probe,

toleh ke tepi, and......seluk!

sakit? Alhamdulillah, to me, tak sakit pon....

cuma rasa cam tak selesa je laaa

sbb dia pakai glove and ade lubricant kan

so cam licin je laaa

takdela rase pedih kene geser ke ape

bile dh masuk tu, dia gerak² jari sikit

nk cari bukaan kot

tak lama pon

dlm 10-15 seconds gitu

that's it

and the result?

masih tertutup ye kawan².... -______-

terus dia kata dh boleh salin baju

and tunggu kt luar

means dh boleh balik

while I was waiting outside

I dah siap boleh ulang alik gi toilet and jumpe my hubs

tetibe i dipanggil semula

coz nk check BP again

sbb reading awal tadi quite high

so baring semula kt bed 3,

nurse suruh relax jap, sbb katanya maybe td reading tinggi sbb i risau... -____-

10 minutes later, doc came,

and checked my BP

I swear he pumped that thing 3 kali ok! (dia pakai yg manual tu...sbb lebih accurate kan)

bersungguh gile mcm tak caya my BP rate

as expected, BP masih di tahap tinggi dr biasa

berulang kali dia tanye i ade pening tak

ade mual tak, ade sesak nafas tak

i gelak² ckp mmg takde

dlm hati dh berkata, ni kalau betol i have the symptoms, kompem kene masuk wad

tp mmg takde...I felt totally fine

cume skt² kt area perut and pinggang tu je

so, again, I was asked to wait outside,

while he prepared the report

10 minutes later, report siap,

gi ER, bayar 5 ringgit

dan balik...

Alhamdulillah

nothing to worry about

semuanya ok je

cuma dipesan,kalau sakit makin teruk or baby masih kurg gerak,

dtg semula

itu lah ceritanya

part of me agak kecewa sbb dh sakit² manja tp masih belum ade tanda nk bersalin

tp part of me juga relieved, sbb semuanya masih OK

at least, dh ade experience la pergi spital

so nnt kalau dh sakit betol² nk bersalin,

takdela hubs or I gelabah tak tau nk gi mana kn

sbb dh tau area tu...

I really hoped I will get to experience a smooth sailing labor

tp rezeki masing² kan

suke bace experience mommies lain

pastu sebak sendiri smpai menjejes air mata bile diorg minta maaf ngan their moms and husband

sumpah sayu gile bile baca part tu

I kept on reminding myself to spare some time for that moment bile my time comes nnt

pastu happy sendiri mcm diri sendiri yg dh beranak

mcm sendiri yg dh dpt anak....

oh tak sabar nk cium bau baby....

wangi........

hai lah anak....

bila kah kamu mahu keluar?

3am

2011-09-29T15:11:00.001+08:00

dah 3 malam berturut² I terjaga at exactly 3am

sumpah tak tipu

bile terjaga, tgk jam kt hp, 3am

bukan terjaga sbb mimpi

or sbb nk terkench

or sbb sakit

or sbb baby tendang

or sbb hujan ke ape

tp mmg automatically,

terjaga.tgk jam. 3.00am

weird kan?

adekah my biology clock sedang mengajar myself utk berjaga di tgh mlm

demi anak kami nnt?

lak tu, bile dh terjaga, bukan nye boleh lelap balik

maka i terus bangun

gi bilik air,

lepaskan hajat kecil yg mmg sentiasa je ade

dlm pd tu, terlintas di hati

nk solat hajat

terus angkat wuduk, lalu menyembah diri padaNya

begitulah rutin ku 3 malam yg lalu

hajat ku buat masa ini, hanyalah satu

dipermudahkan, diselamatkan dan diberkati tatkala melahirkan benih kami nnt

bersungguh² aku berdoa, sehingga tersedu²

dgn suasana mlm yg hening,

buat aku byk reflect balik segala dosa aku masa lalu

malu rasanya hendak meminta bermacam² dariNya

sedangkan aku sering lalai dgn perintahNya

bila dh susah, baru mahu mencari

Astaghfirullah

ampunkanlah dosa hambaMu yg hina ini, ya Allah

Of terminating Astro account while in confinement

2011-09-28T15:06:00.001+08:00

seperti yg sedia maklum,

I akan berpantang di rumah MIL

so plus minus, sebulan la kami tak jejak umah sendiri kan

therefore, I igt nk terminate la akaun Astro kami

yela...sebulan I byr nk dekat 100 for it

so konon nk save, tu yg terpikir nk terminate sementara

I tried to google hal ni

tp mcm takde org yg pernah query on this issue

so I sent an email to astro prior to this

I must say customer sevice diorg mmg sgt cekap

tghari tadi, after lunch, I received a call from them

Unfortunately, for us yg pakai Astro B.yond

and we first subscribe mase 17 Jan 2011 (tak sampai sethn lg)

we are not allowed to terminate atau disconnect (or ape² yg sewaktu dgnnya) within 1 year

its in the contract (katanye laaa...tp i tak perasan pon...sbb mmg tak baca.lol)

so what they suggested is

selama mana we're out of town tu, (I takdela btau diorg yg I'm away psl confinement. I just say I'm out of town. lol)

dia cadangkan amik pakej yg paling basic shj

which means takde sports and entertainment tu

yg tu should cost us RM37.95 (incl tax would be dlm RM41 gitu)

ok la kan

at least ade jugak kurang

so I decided to do that laaa

but not now

sbb dia pon kata, bile I dh ready, just give them a call

and they'll reduce the package immediately

so no hassle there

maka terjawab sudah persoalan itu...

p/s: nampaknye skt semalam tu hanyalah false alarm...tp mlm semalm I mimpi I melahirkan and siap peluk cium baby lagi...bile sedar, boleh pulak I menggagau cari mana my baby..felt so real la mimpi itu.... ;)

test

2011-09-28T14:26:00.001+08:00

does this work?

I wonder...

hurmmm

Apekah????

2011-09-27T19:16:00.003+08:00

am updating
smbil nonton sofiyya on TV3
benci gile dgn bapak yaya tu
pffttt!!!!

btw, just nk update
perut kerasssss....
and ni dh start sakit2 ni
kt area bwh sikit dr pusat
tp takdela skt amat sgt
cam tarik2 manja gitu
nk timing...tp cam takut....
plus not sure
erk...betol ke ni contractions eh?
konpius.....

Major Purchase #2 - Car Seat

2011-09-27T14:05:00.002+08:00

Perlukah car seat?
Personally, if u were to ask me,
Compared to stroller, car seat is much more important than a stroller

Why?
Well, the main reason is of course, for safety purpose la kan
FYI, all this while,
Even though hubs’ and my workplace is just merely 3 minutes drive away,
We went to work separately.
I drove, while he rides his bike

Reason is, he can’t afford to be late to work (read: Japan company)
While mine, is more flexible…u came in late, u left later laaaa
knowing the traffic in Pasir Gudang,
One day, u can reach ur workplace in 15 minutes,
and on some odd days, it might take u up 30-45 minutes

moreover, he often needs to stay late for work or did OT
while as for moi, I never left work later than 5.45pm (unless there are urgent cases)
therefore, due to the time constrain, its much more convenient for us to go to work separately,
rather than stressing each other out on the time

so u can see that, since I’m the one who’s driving to work
of course, it will be my job to send and fetch our dear baby
to and fro the babysitter’s, once I hit back to work
It’s impossible to do so without the car seat

At first, I decided to get a cheap one
U know laaa, asal ade gitu…
But hubs on the other hand,
Vetoed, since this is for safety purpose, no compromise!
Since I get to choose on the breastpump, he should get the say on car seat. Period.

He searched high and low for the best car seat for our baby
Which is almost impossible
His criteria ade 1 je
Which is it should be able to carry a newborn, up to 3-4 years old
Therefore, the seat should be able to (almost) fully recline,
yg selesa utk newborn yg fragile
Tang ni la paling susah nk cari
coz most car seat yg boleh recline habis is the one yg carseat cum carrier cum rocker
macam ni

which can carry a newborn up to 9-11 months only
bile dh besar, kene beli yg lain cos the baby will surely outgrown the car seat/carrier

tp yg jenis ni, mmg la mcm best
sbb kalau baby tidur, we don’t have to get her out of the seat
we can just carry her along with the seat,
masuk rumah or attached to the dedicated stroller
tp tu lah, the downside, it can cater babies up to 10kg je
dh besar, sile beli lain

byk jenis carseat yg kitorg dok belek
from Graco to Halford, Combi, Ferrari to First years
tp tak byk model la yg available for each brand ni
u know laaa, kt JB ni, the choices are pretty limited
nk betol byk, sweetcherry la
mana² JJ ade jual…full range.

Kalau nk brand yg pelik² skit especially the imported ones, mmg jarang jumpe laa
setakat ape yg ade kt kedai je
infact, ade tu, diorg tak simpan stock pon....ape yg ade on the display rack je
btw, we did this survey mainly in JJ Tebrau
ade 5 kedai we checked out
3 dekat area surau, toys r us and dlm JJ itself

So after much deliberation
Only 1 particular model yg fits our criteria
And tidak terlalu menyesakkan our pocket
Moreover, it’s made in Malaysia
Harus la support brg buatan Malaysia kan… -_____-

Safe N Sound Chiara

• Convertible car seat. Rear-facing from newborn to 10kg, forward facing from 1 year+ and 10kg, to 18kg
• Conforms to European Safety Standards ECE R44/04
• 5 point harness with harness pads
• 4 position recline
• Comes with newborn cushion insert and airflow head support

We found this at the shop yg berdekatan dengan surau
Its in between surau and Voir tu
Tak ingat nama kedainyaaa
Tp kalau yg dh biasa ngan JJ Tebrau, kompem tau kedai ni
Sbb dia mmg jual brg² baby yg comel²
Especially tang accessories
Price wise, if u were to ask me, taklah murah sgt brg² dia
Byk yg lebih baik beli online...;p

Mmg la walaupon dh fully recline, dia tak 180 degrees flat
Tp sbb as mentioned on the last point,
Dia ada sediakan extra cushion utk bhgn pinggang/punggung baby
So bile kite letak baby dlm tu,
Our baby akan dpt dibaringkn, instead of ade angle mcm position terduduk tu
Faham tak? Ugh..I’m not good at explaining lah
Tp, lebih kurang camtu lah

In terms of design pon nampak sturdy
Tapi tak boleh lagi nk ckp lelebih kan
Sbb belom test lg
Nnt bile our baby dh pakai the seat,
I’ll review more k

Hopefully she loves it
More importantly, she’ll feel comfortable la

p/s: did u know, in some countries (especially in the west), Doctor’s/Nurse’s will not discharge a newborn, unless they are sure that the transportation of the baby is securely installed with a carseat! They will never discharge the baby without one. It’s a good practice eyh?

Major Purchase #1-Breastpump

2011-09-26T21:32:00.003+08:00

As I've mentioned before
I've been planning to (InsyaAllah) exclusively breastfeed my dear baby

Therefore, I sure need a breastpump as I foresee myself as a working mom after confinement
without one, its almost impossible la utk breastfeed kan
mmg boleh, guna kaedah marmet
but sampai bila la kan?

so I decided to get myself a (good) breastpump
after much research and reading reviews here and there,
of course, many recommended Medela FreeStyle
reality check, it's totally out of my budget

so I settled with the next best thing
Medela Swing that is

An electric breastpump which perfectly adapts to the daily routine of a dynamic mother. Ideal for frequent pumping – handy, trendy and quiet. It can be used on a tabletop, belt clip or shoulder/neck strap, so you can always take it with you. For fast, gentle pumping, where it suits you best. Swing is discreet and stylish - it makes breastfeeding fun! It is the only single electric personal use pump with breakthrough 2-Phase Expression Technology for maximum milk flow. First researched and developed for hospital breastpumps, 2-Phase Expression is an advanced pumping pattern that mimics a baby's natural nursing rhythm by pumping in two distinct modes.

Stimulation mode: To simulate your baby's initial rapid sucking to start your milk flowing

Expression mode: To simulate your baby's slower deeper sucks to express your milk gently and efficiently.

More features:

One touch let down button designed for faster milk flow
Convenient, easily fits into a purse or briefcase
Efficient, adjustable speed and vacuum
Comfortable, comes with SoftFit Breastshield
Mobile, use on a tabletop, belt clip or shoulder/neck strap.

Main reason I pilih ni
Is first of, its not bulky
So senang I nk bwk gi office or bile travelling
Second, it can be battery operated or direct current
Tak byk breastpump yg bole pakai bateri
So senang la I nak pump kt mana², even dlm kereta ke pon kan
Plus, the suction tu kite boleh control
Nk kuat ke nk pelan
Tang ni cannot elaborate sgt, sbb belom experience lagi kan
Dh pakai baru tau la ok ke tak kan

Downside yg I boleh nampak skrg ni,
Is that it is single pump
Kalau double pump, sure dpt pump lg cepat kan
Tapi, takpe laaaa
Dgn bajet yg ade, I believe, this is the best that I could get

Once I've decided on which breastpump to buy,
next is to search for the best deal in town

I searched high and low for the best deal
and OneBabyWorld is the right place to get the best deal of (almost) everything pertaining baby stuff
go check em out k?

Oh....btw, I just realised they've increased the price a bit now
luckily i placed my order just before that

I decided to get the back to work package

which includes Medela Swing BreastPump, Cooler Bag, Ice Pack, Milk Storage Bottles, Nursing Bra, Drying Rack and a swaddling blanket
and I add in another Nursing Bra, Washcloth and a thermometer

I placed the order and paid them via Maybank2u on Saturday,

and my dad received them on Tuesday
not much hassle
pretty smooth

oh yeah
I received a voucher from OBW worth RM10
am thinking of purchasing more stuff from them later on

9 bulan!

2011-09-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

We’re now full term ya’ll
Syukur Alhamdulillah
We managed to come this far
Macam tak percaya!
So lepas ni bile org Tanya, dh boleh kata “tgh tunggu hari la ni….” -____-

InsyaAllah, if ever baby decided to pops out even belom reached EDD,
she should be able to survive
coz based on what I read, all her organs are fully-formed and should be able to function on its own now
So sayang, kalau syg dh rasa kuat, and bersedia to meet us, U are most welcome dear
We are more than happy to have you as part of us in this world
But please, don’t force yourself k syg

So far, all preps to welcome our little one pon dh siap
Especially the emergency bags (1 for mom and the other for the baby)
Dh siap masuk kereta pon
Kali ni punye, mmg betul² dh siap
Tu pon I packed based on checklist org lain and ape yg i rasa perlu n tak perlu la
So I guess, ok la kan
Hopefully I tak termiss anything yg essential… ;)

Dr segi barang keperluan baby
Alhamdulillah, we managed to strike of all the items in my NB Checklist
Except for the Warmer and Stroller
Stroller tu, InsyaAllah akan beli esok
There’s a Mom & Baby Expo kt Danga City Mall (Sep 23-25)
Will definitely pay a visit there esok or ahad (kalau belom in labor laaa)
Hopefully ade la booth stroller kt sana

Hari tu dh survey kt JJ tebrau
Masa beli carseat haritu
Dh ade yg berkenan
Tp ni nk tgk mana tau kt expo tu ade offer ke kan
Dpt murah brg seratus dua…hehehe
Ceh…Harapan je laaaa…dpt kurg 10 hinggit pon dh cukup syukur….

I know, I know
Mmg stroller ni tak penting pon buat masa skrg
Sbb baby bukan nk gi jln² ke ape pon lagi kan
But mama insist on getting it earlier
Sbb, we’ll need it masa majlis kawin kakak I end of oct nnt
Ye la, takkan nk expect I ngendong je kan
So kalau ade stroller tu, boleh letak dlm stroller, and sesape pon bole tolong jagakan
But of cos, takleh la sepanjang hari dok dlm tu
Harus la sediakan tmpt dia baring
Tapi kalau stroller tu boleh fully recline, should be no problem la kan?
Hurmmm…tgk camne nnt
Tapi namanya nk suruh beli moses basket ke hape ntah tu, mmg tak laaa
Pakai kejap je….bazir….so mmg no no la

Yg warmer tu pulak,
Bole beli bile I dh nk dekat² naik kerja la kan
Coz I don’t think I’ll need it masa confinement period ni
Sbb direct feed kan?
Unless, kalau baby ade complications yg perlu tinggal kt hospital
Or under any other circumstances la
Harap² tak laaaa…

Tapi ade satu lagi task yg belum dpt disetelkan
Which is my our confinement period needs
I did mention that I akan berpantang di umah mak kan
So opkos la dlm masa 30-40 hari tu I takkan jejak our home
So I need to pack segala baju bajan I n hubs laaaa
Tu baru baju, belom toiletries, and other needs
Bantal lagi….sbb I suke my bantal kt umah tu…tp bukan bantal busuk ok!
Ade yg angkut 1 umah kang… -____-

And barang baby yg lain² tu pon
Harus di transport ke umah MIL
We planned to do it by next week
Tp yg ni mmg dh siap
Tinggal nk angkut je…should be no problem

One more thing, I’m thinking of temporarily terminating our Astro susbscription utk sebulan nnt laa
Any such thing tak eh?
Ye laaa…membazir je bayar 100++ utk benda yg kite tau tak pakai
Tapi temporary je…nnt dh balik umah sendiri, subscribe blk
Boleh ke gitu eh? Anyone?

Speaking of astro, I’m thinking of a way to pujuk hubs utk subscribe Star World/E! kt MIL’s laaaa
1 bulan tak dpt tekan tekan 711 and 712, mau gigil gak kang….huhuhu
Poyo betol
Tp serius, I mmg tiap kali on TV, i terus tekan 711
Hubs pulak, opkos la 811 kan

Ape lagi eh?
Hmmm…as for myself pulak,
Skrg I’m at the phase of memperkukuhkan pengetahuan on labor, breastfeeding and baby care laaa
Lately, I spent most of my nights on youtube
Dr delivery process, to how to get you baby to latch, and understanding different baby needs

In terms of my health,
Syukur lah kan, so far, I’ve no major complications along this pregnancy
Setakat nausea, morning sickness (mild), foods craving (yg common² je) tu biasa la kan
Cuma ye la, dh makin sarat ni
Mula sakit pinggang, tulang punggung, tulang kt va jay jay and tulang peha
which I believe is due to kepala baby dh kt bawah kan
so segala beban tu terkumpul kt area tu
and sakit itu adelah menjadi makin sakit
bila nk pusing² masa tidur, n bile nak bangun dari duduk
sakit sgt²….smpai terpejam² mata nk get hold of it
but of cos, masih bearable laaa
yg penting, minded tu kene positive…

oh yeah….Semalam, I went for my 9 months checkup
Alhamdulillah, baby is in cephalic but posterior (head down and face facing my belly) position
Tp doc takde mention lak dh engaged ke belom
And regarding posterior position, doc kata, InsyaAllah, baby boleh move herself to anterior position towards delivery
So tak perlu risau sgt, and bykkan berdoa….
Lain², amniotic fluid sufficient
Placenta pon kt atas
Kirenye so far so good laaa

Cume yg I risau is baby is quite small…2.4kg
Kalau ikut baiboo/baby centre, its normal
Tp entah eh, I was expecting her to be erm…..chubbier
But according to doc, tgk perut I, dia pon mmg tak expect baby to be besar ke ape
Yeah…..for a 9 month pregnant lady, my belly is ain’t that big!
Badan je besar….berat pon naik dh total up 16kg!
Sbb tu la I expect my baby to be besar sikit
Konon nk sedapkan hati yg I gained weight ni pon sbb baby….hehhehe

Tp hubs kata, takpe laaa..yg penting mama n baby sihat…..
Thank you syg!
Tp farah tau, bile syg ckp mama sihat, its more to mama ‘sihat’ (read: demok!)
I Love U! ;p

Antenatal Class

2011-09-19T17:23:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, we (finally) attended an antenatal class
Unfortunately, there aren’t much hospital organized such classes here in JB
Whichever did, it was only held once a month
Some of them are Kempas Med Centre, Hospital Penawar and Johor Specialist

We attended at the later one
Coz it was advertised it Baiboo
Therefore I knew exactly when and how much it cost
JSH organized antenatal class on every third Saturday of the month
For RM30 per couple from 2-6pm

With so much topic to covered in such a nick of time
I must say, the class is very brief
Frankly, there’s not much new info that I gained through the class
As most of the info they shared, are very general and brief
Something that I’ve already known from the research I did via the net all this while
Except for the explanation on how to bath our newborn (we managed to record the whole procedure) and the labor room visit

The class started off with a talk given by a representative from StemLife
On the Cord Blood Banking
Google for more info on this yeah…
Its good to know on this….

Followed by 3 sessions with Dr Mohan (one of the ObGyn in JSH)
On Preparation of Delivery, Types of Delivery and Pain relief in Labor
Generally, he informed us on the signs that shows u r ready for labor,
Brief infos on Vaginal/Instrumental and C-Sect Deliveries
And the laughing gas (etonox)/epidural for the pain management during labor
It was pretty interesting though
Coz he’s good at explaining and giving us examples an such

Unfortunately, my 100% attention to the class got taken away
Once the (chinese) midwife started her session
On the required Nutrition during Pregnancy and Antenatal Exercise
Its B.O.R.I.N.G!
She’s not good at captivating our attention
The so-called nutrition talk, was just something you’ve known all while long
She even skipped a few slides! Pffftttttt!
And the exercise she thought, is just merely different techniques of breathing
Of which, I expected more!

Then, the floor was then passed to another midwive (malay)
Who carried on the class on baby bath demo, care for newborn, breastfeeding benefits and technique and Immunization during Infancy
I must say, she has to improve her public speaking skill
You see, she’s a nurse in a private hospital
And were trusted to give a talk to the public
However, her English was, soooo pathetic!
I got so stressed out when when repetitively mispronounce some words
It’s annoying, I tell you!
She might just as well carry out the talk in Malay so that she won’t keep having this
‘emm’, ‘aahh’ while finding the right word at the back of her head.

And what frustrates me the most,
She did not emphasize much on the benefits of breastfeeding
Neither on how a newborn DO NOT NEED any extra fluid (read:water) other than mother’s milk
Cause I need hubs to understand this fact,
as this, I believe, is the most difficult part to convince Mak on
FYI, she insisted me on preparing at least 2 bottles for my baby
1 for the milk, and the other, for ‘air masak’…. -_____-
I’m afraid that my intention to EXCLUSIVELY breastfeed my dear baby
Will be going down the drain, by ‘air masak’…… -____-

Nevertheless, despite all my frustration towards the class,
dear hubs did learned a lot from it
Man, they prefer to be told, than read
For that good 4 hours, it definitely turned him into a man,
who’s very excited and eager to become a dad
Why so?

Cause since then, he’s totally at the full gear on preparing to welcome our dear little one
First, he started to do some research on the hospital that we planned to deliver in
On where to go when I’m in labor and keep pestering me on my hospital bag preps

Next, he bought the car seat yesterday
I thought we’re just surveying
I did sense he’s ‘different’
Usually, when we shop, he’ll be just like look at the thing, the price, and that’s it
But yesterday, he touched it, maneuvers it, checked and rechecked the specs
Disclaim on how it should be instead of that and what not
And finally, we agreed on one, and purchased it then and there

Another important note,
He googled on video on how to use a breastpump!
Btw, yeah, I’ve bought mine online and received last week
I addressed them to my parent’s house, so I just got my hands on it last Sunday
(Will update on this bit later)
So as we reached home, while I’m inspecting and unpacking my valuable purchase,
He silently googled it, and we watched it as we learned together

I have to say, all this while, when I told him that I wanted to breastfeed our baby
And I would need a breastpump, and told him how much it cost (which apparently cost me a fortune!),
He said it’s totally ridiculous to spend so much on one item,
And left it to me to decide on should I proceed to buy it or not
And of course, I have to pay for it myself cause I insisted on this particular model… -_____-
Who knew, after the class, he got so interested in it
That he even tested it, just to hear the mimics sound of baby sucking…
And had the most glorify expression on his face once he heard it…
Such a beautiful moment I must say

Haih
Really can’t wait to meet our little one
Sakit pinggang wooooo!!!!!
Nk gomol dia lama²

A special note for the unborn....

2011-09-15T09:42:00.004+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum anak mama
How are you in there, my precious dear?
Sempit ye….as I type this, u’re frantically kicking (or punching) on the right upper side of my tummy….
senak mama tau!

Syg…Mama minta maaf yea sbb smlm termarah baby….
Ye laaa...mama penat, tapi mama tak dpt nk sleep well,
cos syg asek main kt area rusuk mama…
Susah mama nk jumpe position yg comfortable utk sleep
Mama asik rasa susah je nk nafas
Lepas mama pujuk and zikir², baru syg bergerak dr situ
Then baru mama dpt sleep
Thank u syg…baik anak mama ni…
Mama syg baby tau!

Bile anak mama ni nak masuk ke position yg btol?
Kalau syg rasa kuat, and ade ruang, syg pusing lah parking kepala kt bawah yea…
Mama harap sgt mama dpt lahirkan baby dgn cara normal…
Tapi, kalau tak dpt, its ok…
Mama tetap syg baby
Yg penting, mama selamat lahirkan anak mama ni nnt
Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya…kan syg?

Sekarang anak mama ni dh 34 Weeks ++….
Lusa genap 35 Weeks
Means lagi seminggu, anak mama ni dh cukup 9 bulan
Tapi ramai yg komen muka mama sembab
Mcm org yg tunggu hari

Tapi xmolah keluar dulu ye syg
Tunggu lah atleast dh cukup 9 bulan
Then bila baby rasa dh kuat, baby bg hint kt mama dulu eh

Deep down inside, mama pon rasa mcm mama ni tgh tunggu hari
Sbb dh sarat sgt rasanya bwk anak mama ni ke hulu hilir
Nk jln pon susah…
Abah kata mama dh mcm ‘gergasi’ bile berjalan
Sbb mama tends tu terhuyung-hayang...jahatkan abah?
Hihihih

Speaking of abah,
Abah masih lagi terkejut kalau terasa syg kick perut mama
Tak tau napa, dia kata dia rasa geli -____-
Patut mama yg rasa geli kan? Pape je abah ni
Tapi dia syg baby sgt ² tauu…
Dia selalu tanya, bila baby nk kuar nk jumpa dia...
Dia tak sabar nk manjakan baby…nk gomol² baby
Mama kata, sabarlah...kasi la baby ni dok dlm perut mama at least smpai 9 bulan

Lately ni pon abah caring sgt²
Dia rajen ‘bobok’kan mama before sleep
Ye laa…mama kan dh susah nk tdo…
So dia selalu gosokkan blkg mama smpai mama sleep
Even kalau dia nk tgk wrestling kol 10,
dia akan tmankan mama sleep dulu
baru dia gi tgk tv....

Cuma tang urut kaki tu, abah selalu je bg excuse
Selalu dia kata, esok lah....bile dh esok, esok lagiiii...hihihhihh
Dulu dia rajin....tapi ni, dgn minyak panas pon dh misplace tah kt mane,
Mmg dh tak merasa la kaki mama ni diurut
Nnt syg igtkan mama beli minyak panas baru k?
Kita buli abah....hihihihi

Tapi nasib baik lah, dh nk dekat 9 bulan ni, mama tak pernah lg kene cramp kt kaki
Cuma ade sekali, tgh masak, hampir terkena simpul biawak
Tp cpat² mama straightkan kaki, then ok dah...
Kesian mommy² to be yg lain yg selalu kene cramp kan?
Mama tak tau sakit dia cmne sbb tak pernah kena
Tapi sure skt amatkan?

Barang baby utk kt hospital nnt, dh lama mama preparekan
Sejak jln² raya aritu lagi, mama dh bwk bag emergency baby ke mana²
Ye laaa…mana tau, kot², baby tetibe nk jadi anak Pontian / Muar / Spore?
Hihihihihihih

Syukur sepanjang 2 minggu raya ni, baby ok je
Baby rasa tak mama makan dgn byknye?
Mama naik 2 kilo ok sejak raya 2 minggu ni
Mmg mok² teramat dh sekarang ni
Total weight gain mama pon dh jejak 12kg!!!
Hikhikhik
Takpelah…yg penting, baby sihat….

Mama harap baby gets all the nutritions u need, syg
Mama try to balance ape yg mama makan
Tp dh nama raya kan, lebih byk yg tak elok dr yg elok
Oh oh…mama jugak minta maaf sbb dh lama tak minum susu
Mama janji, mlm ni mama minum k?
Sbb tiap pagi, bila mama gosok gigi, kompem gusi berdarah
It must be lack of calcium...
Anak mama ni tgh nk membesar…so byk amik calcium dr mama ehhhhh
Baby pujuk lah abah, minta dia buatkan mama susu....
Mama ni, kalau kene buat sendiri, dan dan tak jumpa mana susu tu…hihihhi

Baby,
kalau ditakdirkan satu hari nnt,
mama tak dpt nk bersama baby lagi,
mama harap sgt yg baby tau, mama syg baby sgt²
baby ialah anugerah terhebat and terindah dariNya pada mama and abah
sepanjang hampir 9 bulan baby dgn mama,
mama rasa bahagia sgt

From the moment we know that we’re expecting you,
I’ve loved you with all my heart
Everyone did…Mama, Abah, Tok Mama, Atok and Maktok
Semua happy sgt bile dpt tau u will be part of us in matter of months…

Syg, tak pernah sedetik pon mama rasa kesal dgn kehadiran syg dlm perut mama
Mungkin sesekali mama ade merungut on how tak selesa I felt
Or how irritating it is to have to go to the loo every 15 minutes,
Tapi, tak pernah mama slhkan baby
Mama tau, its just parts and parcels of being pregnant
And InsyaAllah, there’s d greatest reward waiting for me at the end of the tunnel
And I just can’t wait for that moment to come

TQ syg sentiasa jadi peneman mama,
especially bila mama merajuk dgn abah….
U’re always there to ‘comfort’ me bile mama mengadu pape
Bile mama nangis, baby akan give some reaction kt dlm
Either kick or golek²….and mama anggap tu as syg trying to pujuk mama
TQ so much syg

Anak mama, jadilah anak yg sentiasa membahagiakan keluarga
yg taat dan patuh pada Allah, hormati org tua, dan disenangi semua
syg jaga abah yea...
xmo selalu susahkan abah tau
abah tu cepat panik kalau benda yg kurang diingini berlaku
tapi he’s a good problem solver...Cuma first² je dia akan panic
nnt dh lama sikit, dia dpt digest keadaan tu, then dia dpt think straight…
tu lah abah syg…
mama syg dia sgt²...dunia akhirat, InsyaAllah

k lah...
dh panjang sgt note utk baby....
hopefully satu hari nnt, baby dpt baca ni
nnt bila², kalau ade kelapangan lagi,
mama tulis lagi utk anak mama ni k?

Till then,
I love u, my precious little angel....

mama and abah while u're 8 months in mama's womb

p/s : Kirim kan salam syg mama pd abah ye...U both means the world to me… xoxo!

The Ups and Downs of Living in an Apartment

2011-09-12T15:38:00.000+08:00

Frankly speaking, it wasn’t our first ultimate choice
I mean, we never thought of living ‘atas langit’ when we first scouting for a place to rent
We preferred a landed house
Kebaikan dia, tak payah lah nk elaborate kan
Semua pon tau
Dpt parking dpn umah, buang sampah dpn umah
Tak payah tunggu lift, yadda yadda

Tapi Allah Maha Mengetahui
We searched high and low for a landed house
Tapi sentiasa tiada ‘jodoh’
Malas nk citer panjang

Dipendekkan cerita, we finally settled with a unit on the 8th floor at P**** R** Apartment
If u were to ask me, I anggap ia sebagai takdir and ‘jodoh’
Sbb we never knew/heard of this place,
tp masa survey area A, someone told us about the apartment
Terus gi tgk, terus suka (I did till now, but not hubs) and terus setuju sewa

And dh 9 bulan duduk sini,
I must say, it wasn’t a perfect place
Mmg byk kekurangan dok atas langit ni
Tapi I boleh terima tu semua
Sbb to me, walau mana pon kita duduk, ade shj cabarannye
Takde tempat yg takde masalah
Lagi2 menyewa kan
Mana ade rumah yg betol2 perfect yg fits our criteria kan

Nak buang sampah, kene bawak turun and buang kt tempat disediakan
Nak parking, kene berebut
Mmg each unit disediakan 1 dedicated parking berbumbung
Tapi our owner pakai lot tu, so we can’t use it
Kalau balik lewat mlm jgn harap dpt parking yg dekat dgn blok
Nak gi kerja, kene tunggu lift
And nak dijadikan cerita juga, the lift that is much nearer to our unit selalu sgt rosak
Selalu as in sebulan, at least ade 7 hari kami tak dpt guna lift tu

So far I rasa 3 points itu shj yg I kurang berkenan
Tapi I still can tolerate laaaa
Sbb masih ade option lain kan
Cuma kalau those 3 points dpt dibaiki, it’d be much better laaaa

Hubs on the other hand
Tak berapa dpt terima keadaan2 ni
To him, it’s all so troublesome
Walau dh lama dok sini, he still complains and blurts how much he hates this place

Lebih² lagi on last wiken
Kan dia jemput his friends and family to come over….
And nk dijadikan cerita, there are few unnecessary incidents happened

1. Guests have to register at the guard house and leave their driving license
Dah nama duduk apartment kan, and its guarded, of course la security harus mantap. Takkan la sesenang je ntah sape2 boleh keluar masuk kan…residence sendiri mesti pakai their access card utk masuk. Takkan guests boleh masuk macam gitu je kan. Kalau mcm tu, baik residence semua ngaku guests je…tak payah nk beria scan card bagai. And that, to me, is the biggest difference between umah flat and apartment. Security!
And because of this jugak, I’m happy with this place. I rase safe and secured. Infact, I don’t mind kalau hubs tinggalkan I sorang bile dia pegi futsal, and blk lewat mlm. Tp bila dia tinggalkan I sorg at umah mak (landed house), hah, yg tu I mmg sumpah takut! Ade sekali tu, umah mak dimasuki orang masa mak tgh terlelap waktu lepas asar. Habis barang kemas dia, and no one noticed! Of course la I takut kan. Siang pon sesenang org masuk, ape lagi mlm…..

So I mmg sgt suka dok sini…sbb I tau, I can trust their security system. lagi2 skrg dlm lift pon diorg dh pasang CCTV…. But of course, harusla masih berhati2 kan…malang kan tidak berbau….

And yeah, as u guessed, hubs felt so disappointed sbb telah menyusahkan kwn2 and his family sbb kene register and tinggalkan license at the guard post. Lagi2 bile the guests sendiri dok complain and said, susah nak masuk umah kitorg…lagi la hubs rasa stressed. I totally understand how he felt. He’s afraid that the guests will feel menyesal dtg sbb leceh. But to me, they should (already) know, living in an apartment, ade security, maka ade lah penapisan orang. But they just couldn’t accept this fact. -_____-

And deep down inside, I felt so disappointed dgn minded mereka. Sbb this is the main point why I love staying here, but on the other hand, others hate it so much. Sedih!

2. Lift yg berhampiran our unit, not working
Of all days, perlu kah lift tu rosak pada hari we’re expecting guests???? Arghhhhh…I pon geram…tapi pasrah je laaa..nk buat camne kan? Dh takdir…tp tu laaa…kesian kt mereka yg dtg..ade tu, dia igt itu satu2 nye lift di blok kami, and he found out its rosak, dia naik tangga sampai tingkat 8!!! Kesian! Silap kami jugak sbb tak inform awal2 yg there’s another lift on the other side, cume kene jln ke depan sikit. Tang ni, mmg I kesal sgt…kesian kt dia…nasib orang lain jumpa lift yg lagi satu tu…. -_____-

3. Kereta kena clamp
As I mentioned earlier, each unit disediakan 1 dedicated parking berbumbung kan. So its understood that guests, harus lah parked di kawasan yg tidak berbumbung. Atas sebab² miscommunication, hubs dh bilang, park di lot TIDAK berbumbung. Unfortunately, his friend did not hear the word ‘TIDAK’, thus parked in one. Makanye, bila dia nk balik, of course, kereta kena clamp!

And it became a serious issue bile, even kami dh settlekan the summon, his friends telah memanjangkan cerita dgn mengugut the guards! Siapa yg tinggal di apartment tu???? Siapa yg harus mengadap and menanggung malu di atas sikap insensitive mereka tu? The guards are just doing their job. Kalau I jadi pemilik parking lot tu pon, I akan marah. Ye laa..that’s my lot, tapi ade ntah siapa parked at mine. Siapa yg tak marah kan. Of course la owner tu gi ngadu at the guards and they clamped the car. So to me, the guards tidak ade pape salah pon. Haih…. sedih…-______-

Therefore now, no matter how much I love to stay here
How secured I feel to stay here
Lagi² bile nnt dh ade anak, I yakin I selamat ditinggalkan sendirian dgn anak kami
Especially bile hubs OT or blk lewat utk futsal or lepak session with his friends
I have to give in

Dh too many times I have to listen to hubs, blurting how he hates this place
How troublesome it is staying here
And how annoying the guards are
For the unconditional love I have to my hubs, I dgn rela hati, give in

For now, kami tunggu rumah tu dipasang grill,
And we’ll move in ASAP

It’s kawasan umah baru,
Security, I’m not convinced
Mmg ade guard post, tapi they just let anyone in and out of the area
Without scrutinizing them
So, mmg I tak akan rasa secured

Plus, it’s a corner lot,
Lagi la bertambah takut
Tapi I’ll embrace it
Cause I believe, setiap rumah, ade rezekinye
And of course ade cabarannye
Hanya bergantung pd kita utk mengolah and harunginye sebaik mungkin
Mengikut cara hidup masing²
And I’ll always berdoa and tawakal kepada Allah
Agar Dia sentiasa lindungi kami dari sebarang bencana
InsyaAllah

p/s: I am not complaining, but just sharing my experience. Life is definitely a never-ending learning journey. Dugaan and cabaran tu ada di mana²...Its up to us to decide how to overcome it. ;)

Open-ing the house

2011-09-10T09:11:00.000+08:00

it has been almost 9 months we stayed here
and we barely have any guest around
accept for both side of the family, mak teh, and maklang's family

itu pon they came mase awal2 kitorg pindah dulu
mak came on end of January,
saja nk ziarah kami yg at that time belom ade anything at the hall
it happened that masa dia dtg, sofa, tv and kitchen cabinet pon baru smpai
so she witnessed all the messiness
tp dptla I hidangkan mihun sup and ayam bakar for them
simple jeeeeee...sbb diorg btau nk dtg pon dh last minit

mama and others pulak dtg on cuti apentah masa tu
raya haji ke raya cina,...ntah x igt dh....
masa tu mmg tau ade dlm 12 org nk dtg
n mama pon dh btau awal
so I dgn semangatnye masak nasi ayam
woohhhooooooo
and sukses ya'll!!!
hubs pon kata sedap.....hihiihihh
since then, I mmg rasa yakin utk masak nasi ayam secara byk utk org
oh oh...masa tu i blom pregnant lg
so mmg mengadela kan kalau dh tau org nk dtg, tp tak prepare pape...

eh panjangnye intro
btw, the point of this entry is
just nk btau yg we're expecting guests tonight
nervous i!!!!!
hubs is inviting some of his school frens to come over for raya tonight
and he, being nice, xnk isteri dia penat, dia order je the foods
x silap dia order mihun goreng n ayam
yeah...simple je....

tp i as a wife, am x sedap hati la pulak kan x buat pape
so i decided to prepare some dessert
and I made fruit cocktail trifle

its my first attempt
hopefully jadi laaa
ni tgh set dlm fridge
harap2 ok jeee...
kalau x, malu wooooooooo
hihihhihi

and aritu dh beli apples
so igt nnt diorg nk dtg,
I nk wat fruit salad skit
tgkla camne

as for now, jap gi ni
nk kene mop skit
smlm hubs dh vacuum and arrange semua

eh eh
lagi satu nk btau
esok, mak, maklong, makngah, mokteh and moksu's family is coming over
ade lebih kurang 20 org tu....
ramaiiiiii...tp i dgn semngat dan rela hatinye offer diri utk masak
opkos nasi aym......ahahhahahha
hubs doubt that i could manage
susah jugak nk pujuk dia

ikut dia, dia nk order jeee
tapi i tak setuju
i rasa i mampu
lagi pon, yg dtg ni family kot.....first time lak tu
dh la mmg selama ni kt umah mak, i jarang masak
setakat tolong je...
so i nak jugak diorg rasa air tangan i....
walau tak sedap mana....
but it means a lot to me....

hopefully everything went well tonight n tomorrow
hrp2 ank mama ni pon behave ye syg

k lah...
nk sidai baju n mop
i'll update on the house 'opening' nnt yeah!
toodles!

raya kali ini

2011-08-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

di rumah keluarga mertua...

coz it happens that kak anim, my SIL is spending her raya at her in law in Kelantan
so cam kesian mak, takkan nk biar dia beraya dgn 2 anak bujang je
so decide to spend mlm raya di sini

so here I am, di Rinting
any difference? ade laaa sikit
kalau sblm2 ni, kt umah sendiri
biasa mlm raya mmg kt umah je
sbb usually ayah akan bertugas utk baca khutbah raya
then lepas tu dlm kol 10, baru blk pontian

menu pagi raya pon sempoi je
kekadang bolognaise, kekadang nasi lemak, or nasi minyak
takde laaa nk masak rendang ke ketupat ke, lodeh ke
sbb tau nnt blk pontian, menu raya mmg dh fixed
so tak payah mengada nk rajin masak mcm2

tapi kt umah in law ni
and ni pon kebetulan mokteh and family raya sini
so cam meriah laaaa
jap gi nk rebus ketupat
then sedia bahan utk wat lauk pauk raya yg mcm2 tu
things yg i tak penah experience unless bermlm raya kt pontian
hihihi...excited gak nih
plus diorg nyalakan pelita kt dpn umah
nampak cam meriah
katanye nk main mercun
tp tunggu the heroes blk dr shopping ape ntah....

so sementara tunggu diorg blk ni,
tu yg i update
oh yes....
being 8 month pregnant, makes me realize, how 'prego' I am
I mean, selama ni, walaupon pregnant,
I am still active
jln sana sini, laju je
siap bile dgr org kata diorg pregnant cam lembik or susah nk tido or skt kaki
i mcm....eh..I tak rase camtu pon
except skt kaki laaa..bile dh jln lama, of cos sakit kan

tapiiiiiiiiiii...sejak a couple of days b4 i hit 8 months,
segala sakit tu dtg
tak payah la nk mimpi tawaf shopping berejam
kasi 30 minit pon i dh dok cari kerusi
kompem buku lali mmg dh tak nampak

semalam lagi laaaa
for the first time, I cried coz i can't sleep
the thing is, i batuk...
last thursday, ade sekali tu, I batuk tanpa dpt control myself
batuk yg kuat gile, sampai i rase urat yg dekat dgn va jay jay tu, mcm ditarik/terputus
sumpah.....Im not exagerating, tp tu yg i rase
and eversince then, setiap kali dr duduk ke berdiri,
tulang dkt va jay jay tu, rase sengal sgt
skt betol.....tu yg i smlm tak bole tido
smpai menangis sebab no position is comfortable
nk pusing pon susah sbb tulang tu skt....
hubs pujuk2 pon tak jln...
tp ntah camne, dpt gak i tido nyenyak pas tu
n now, masih skt...redha je laaa
nmpak nye, I akan beraya dgn berkeadaan sgt 'mengandung'

even my little sis baru smlm ckp
"akak dh nmpak mcm perempuan mengandung"
I was like...."I've been pregnant for the past 8 month, baru skrg girl nk ckp gitu??"
she said "xde laaa...now only i see u walk like one...u know...terkengkang gitu...."
pfffffttttt
yes i admit, i tend tu mengengkang a bit
entah eh.....itu lg cam selesa
malas nk pikir cantik ke hape dh

and lately, I asek ade instinct I akan deliver awal
cuakkkkkk wooooo
tu yg bag baby dh siap dlm kete
but i couldnt find the time yet to scrutinize exactly ape yg perlu ade dlm bag tu
i just pack ape yg i rase perlu
tgk la nnt, ade masa, I compare dgn list m2b lain

eh eh...
byk pulak update ni
dari raya, cite psl preganncy
ni laa ibu mengandung kan
raya pon dh tak kesah sgt
asik pikir anak je.....
:)

Laundry Time!

2011-08-26T17:05:00.000+08:00

Last night dh siap basuh semua baju baby…
X larat nk handwash, maka dump semua dlm washing machine je
Tp pakai ‘Delicate’ program

Masa dok sidai tu,

Masa tu after buka

I sorang je kt umah

Hubs lom balik lagi

Ye, saya berbuka sorg....dh biasa dh...hehehehe
Dok la tersengih sorg2 kt umah
Geram je tgk baju² kecik tu...
Smbil sidai tu, smbil telek²
Smbil ckp² ngan baby dlm perut
Baby pon galak golek sana sini
Happy agaknye tgk mama dia finally basuh jugak baju² dia

Barang² baby ni kn I dh beli dekat sebulan
Ye la…before puasa aritu…

Every other day hubs dok igtkan I bile nk pack emergency bag

I dok la kata nanti…baju tak basuh lagi

Tup tup, smlm kt ofis, masa nk gi toilet,

I rasa cam susah sgt nk melangkah

Kelengkang ni rasa cam sengal semacam

Badan pon rasa berat semacam
Terus terpikir, dibuatnye i ni ditakdirkan melahirkan awal, naya jeee
Barang tak ready lagi

Sbb I ade baca sorg blogger (x igt siapa), lahirkan baby dia at 33 weeks
Ok ow….
Sabtu ni I dh 32 weeks…maka harus bersedia!
Tu yg balik, terus dgn gigih,
sorg², punggah semua barang kuar dr plastik,
tanggal tag, terbalikkan, and dump into machine
Sempat gak kira²
Cam tak cukup je baju² ni

Dlm pada tu, I baru perasan,
I only bought 1 pair of NB size
Yg lain semua 3 month plus…hohoho
Tp bile I ukur, lebih kurang je size dia
Ah...belasah je lah.....
Nnt kalau rajin, beli 2 pasang lagi

Kalau tak rajin, pakai je ape ade

Hoohohooho...

Ni betol² ikut advice org, jgn beli byk baju size NB

Tup tup, sepasang je yg dibeli….muahahahah

So now, semua baju² tu dh siap dilipat

N yg essential items dh masuk dlm beg hospital

Yg lain masuk storage box

Box tu akan dihantar ke umah mak (MIL)

Cos InsyaAllah, I akan berpantang di sana

My barang pulak,

Ape pon tak pack lagi

Kain batik pon belom kompemkan ngan mak dia dh jahit getah belom

Coz dia ade kata nk jahitkan

So snang i nak pakai nnt

Cm tetau je menantu dia ni tak reti pakai kain batik...hehehehe

mmg bukan rezeki...

2011-08-19T17:11:00.002+08:00

Rasanya mmg bukan rezeki kami utk melihat wajah our little one
Coz it happens that our dear is in breech position yesterday

Well, I took a day leave yesterday
For my regular checkup at KK at 2pm
Nothing much to update on that,
Except that I only gain 0.1 kg for the past 2 weeks
Maybe sbb puasa kan
Padahal, kalau uols tgk the way I eat masa berbuka and sahur
U will be surprise
Coz I ate like no tomorrow especially for sahur
Takut sgt kalau baby lapar…hihihi
Tapi mmg berselera sungguh
Lagi² ade sekali tu, sahur kat umah mak, ade lauk kari ikan,
i mkn 3 pinggan!!!
Org len semua tersengguk² nk telan nasi pepagi, I on the other hand,
Berselera mcm ape je….muahahahhahh

Btw, after the checkup tu,
I decided to try my luck for 4D at Johor Jaya Maternity Center
Its actually a clinic
And it happens to be that Dr Wong at JJMC, is one of the Visiting ObGyn Consultant in Kem.pas. MC (where I worked previously)

I wasn’t aware of this beforehand
Coz I dpt tau psl clinic ni pon from google
until I was standing in front of the clinic
And saw his full name – Dr Wong Chuan Lun
Hah! No wonder the clinic name sounds very familiar….

I felt nervous and excited at the same time
Registered myself and paid RM160 for the 4D scan
Yeah. U have to pay first (I was reluctant at first)

As I waited for Dr Wong to come (he was in KMC for his regular visit when I came)
I started to reminisce the fond memories I had in KMC
10 minutes later, 3 familiar faces walked in
Dr Wong, Mrs Wong and their driver

Mrs Wong is a very nice, friendly lady
Very pemurah too coz back in KMC, she often brought in cakes
And distributed among the staffs
As she was standing in front of me, I told her who I was
And we got clicked immediately
We started to talk about KMC and such
On my ex-GM admission to the hospital due to his cancer spread and such

In no time, its my turn to be consulted
Oh yeah, Mrs Wong did mention that we could expect the best picture if baby is in head down position
So Dr Wong started to scan our dear baby
Starting from the head
And yeah, baby’s not facing us….
And to much despair, our dear baby is in breech position…
He did tried to make our baby move, but she was fast asleep
Hai laahh anak….puas mama pujuk kamu, kamu sleep pulak…..
So he move on with other parts of the body
And everything looks just fine
Our baby now weighs around 1.5kg….

And again, he tried to get the face part
And we managed to catch a glimpse of it
Nampak lah mata dia, hidung yg tak berapa nk mancung, and bibir yg kecik….hihiih
But when Dr Wong tried to get a snapshot of it
It wasn’t very clear
Xpelah….dpt tgk kejap pon jadilah
Kesian hubs tak dpt tgk…..
Ade la 1 printout, but not so clear
Xpe…InsyaAllah by October, tenunglah puas²…hihihihi

And since baby’s position tak sesuai utk 4D,
I dpt some refund
Kiranye, if ur baby betol² in right position and 4D is successful,
Baru dia charge full
So for my case, just ultrasound scan biasa n consultation
N best part, I got discount! And a tin of Mamil milk
Rezeki…..

Semangat Raya!

2011-08-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

Yuhuuuu
Tetibe semangat nk raya dh dtg…
WHY?
Sbb dh beli baju raya!!!!
And satu kuih raya selamat dibuat
Huhuhu

Last wiken balik Kempas as usual
Dgn penuh semangat, otw tu, singgah Tesco Plentong
Konon nk jenguk First Lady
Coz kwn hubs kata baju melayu lelaki kt sana murah

Sekali, hampeh jeeeee
Tak selera I tgk baju yg ronyok seribu tu
Kaler pon tak byk choice
In terms of design lak, hmmmmm…
Bersulam, ade pesen2 sikit
Mmg bukan taste hubs laaaa

So round punye round
Dari satu kedai ke satu kedai
Gi la Tewah (x silap laaa)
Byk jubahhh
Murah2 lak tu…from 60++
Design pon not bad

Nk dijadikan cerita, weols mmg dh plan nk beli baju kaler biru
Sekali harung utk wedding kakak nnt
Theme dia royal blue
Tp i confuse, kitorg yg family ni kene pakai royal blue jugak or any tones of blue
Sbb kain baju melayu ayah tak silap kaler turquoise
So utk mengelakkan kesilapan, I beli 1 jubah yg bukan biru
Amik kaler itam, sulam purple
Ni kire utk 2nd baju raya la

Yela…cuti raya seminggu
badan dh gini, xkan prepare 1 baju je kan
ari yg lain tu nk pakai ape??
Mane muat dh nk pakai baju2 thn lepas…
Masa dok fitting jubah2 tu pon agak depress dgn badan sendiri
Dh mcm penguin dah…-____-
Hubs dok gelakkan jeeeee

Then masuk tesco,
beli bahan² utk wat cookies
then terus balik
otw blk tu boleh pulak jam
smpai umah mama around 11 plus
penat!

Esok nye, after sahur,
Berkelentang kelentung dgn girl kt dapur,
wat chocolate cookies
selalunye kitorg buat bajet 100pcs je
tp thn ni, wat lebih…double kan terus
ye la…utk umah mak and umah I lagi…

Alhamdulillah, menjadi cookies nye
I try pakai resepi yg kononnye mcm Famous Amos tu
Tapi tak sama pon…
Tapi sedap je to us….
Cume a bit too keras for hubs liking
Takpe…biar I je habiskan….hehehehe

Ahad tu, dh plan dgn diorg (mama, akak n girl)
Nk gi shopping
Girl insist gi @mart
Coz mama tak pernah gi

So ke sana la kami
Dlm kol 11 baru gi
Bagus…tak sesak mcm angsana….
In terms of choice, baju kurung, mmg sgt banyak
Macam2 pesen…bling2 bagai
Tp dgn dh 30 weeks ni, kem slm je la nk belek baju kurung

We went separate ways
Mama, akak n girl jln sendiri
Me n hubs, round cari baju melayu dia
Jumpe yg disukai
Cutting and material dia sgt cun!
Harga pon ok laaa
Takdela murah sgt, and tak dela mahal sgt
Tapi mmg berpatutan la dgn bajunye
Org kata, the same baju, at angsana,
Diorg mark up harga sampai extra 50 hinggit!
Humakaihhhhh

Dh setel beli baju dia,
mule la cari baju utk i pulak
memang konon nk sepasang la
tapi takde yg berkenan

sekali receive a call from girl
die mintak gi satu kedai ni coz dia tgh test baju
nk mintak opinion
sekali tgk, design mmg cantik
and kaler yg dia pilih tu, sebijik ngan kaler baju melayu hubs!
Muahahahahha
Tak boleh jadi ni
Terus ckp ngan hubs, by hook or by crook, my baju mesti sebijik jugak
Hahahahahah

Balik dr @mart tu, kitorg pon terus cekout
Otw balik tu, singgah semula Tesco Plentong
Cari jubah I kt kedai yg sama
Alhamdulillah, jumpe kaler yg sebijik,
Design pon cantik, size pon ade
So terus amik
Malas nk pikir panjang

So, itu la saja shopping raya kami
Eh, tp tudung belom beli
Takpe, kalau malas nk cari, pakai je tudung yg ade

Btw, balik tu, kaki ku, membengkak!
Jari tgn pon dh puffy
Maka at 30 weeks, I’m officially mengembang dgn jayanya
Hohohhohoho

Masalahnye, kalau setakat mengembang takpe,
ni jari rasa kebas je
tp i read, its common la kan
I did checked my BP, normal je
So InsyaAllah, bukan pre-eclampsia ke ape
Just parts and parcel of being 7 months+ pregnant
:)

Time flies

2011-08-11T17:13:00.000+08:00

Real Fast!!!!

as today, Aug 11th, marks 8 monthversary for us
8 bulan sudaaaa yoooo
kejap je rase
mcm baru smlm dok plan wedding

our dear little one ni pon,
dh nk masuk 30 weeks by this saturday
oh my my
means by end of next month, dh 36 weeks = 9 months!
suda ade potensi utk dilahirkan
can't wait to see you my dear!!!!

nothing special pon arini
infact, i don't think he remembers today's date
tapi arini rasa cam semangat skit
igt nk masak utk buka nnt
msk simple je
coz buka pon sorg je
he wont be back till after 8

so, celebrate sendiri sudaaaaa
sedey..... -______-

Baby Shopping!

2011-08-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

So yeah
We went to KL last 2 weekends
Purposely to attend the Parenthood Expo in MidValley

Gerak from JB Friday night around 10.30 am
Mak ikut sekali
Sampai KL, umah SIL, around 1.30 am
The traffic is quite buzy I must say
Probably sbb Johor long weekend kan
So ramai yg travel that night

So Saturday morning tu
Dgn tak mandinye, had breakfast at nasi lemak tanglin
That many has been raving about
But to me, I don’t really like it
Sambal dia tu, cair…
For nasi lemak, I prefer sambal yg pekat
Tapi of course la habis je 1 pinggan tu…hihihi

Then balik, mandi and siap²
Time to shop!
We reached MV around 11.15 gitu
Cari parking je dekat setgh jam
Hubs dh mule nk angin
Coz bape kali dia dok tawaf

Nasib baik tgh dok mencari tu,
By then dh 11.45,
Diorang bukak parking area yg season parking tu
So dpt la park

Nk dijadikan cerita,
Masa tgh cari parking,
SIL called hubs
And says that her friend bitau, expo tu tak byk brg baby
Kononnye byk aktiviti toddlers
Makin nk nak naik angin la dear hubs kan
I pon dh mula xde mood tgk dia mcm tu…

Anyhoo, dpt je parking,
We went straight to the exhibition Hall
Dlm hati I dok la berdoa yg the Expo is not THAT bad
Kalau tak, mmg sia² je kitorg travel all the way

Sampai, register, dpt sticker each
Bile kt depan tu, rase frustrated gak
Sbb dr luar tu mmg nampak mcm ade activity space utk budak²
Tak nampak pon booth jual² barang ke ape
Tp bile dh masuk dalam², baru la nampak semua

Memula tu, dok belek² je la
Pegang baju, letak balik
Pegang blanket, letak balik
Seriously, i tak tau mana nak start
Hubs pon bengang je tgk I mcm tu

Then jln lg, stop by kt booth myBBstore tak silap
Nampak good deal on Tommee Tippee feeding bottle
Being first timer, I’m not sure I should get the 5oz or yg 9oz punye
And I need keyakinan yg decision I utk beli TT instead of other brands, is the right decision
I pon dok tanye mommies yg dok tgh belek the bottle
Yea. I tak tanye sales girl, cos they will tend to be bias kan
And 2 ladies there advised me the same thing
So I get the 2 x 9oz tinted TT
Yea. 2 bottles je…cukup ke eh?
Coz I fikir, I planned to InsyaAllah BF our little one
So I don’t see the reason why I need too many bottles
Storage bottles tu, ye la kot perlu byk kan
Ke I silap? Anyone care to share?

With that first ever purchase for our little one,
Yg lain² tu, senang je beli
Nampak, belek, berkenan, bayar
Hoh! Duit pon mcm air

We spent almost 3 hours kt dlm tu
Alhamdulillah, baby tak meragam
I pon takdela exhausted ke suffocated ke ape kn
Cume biase la, dh jln lame² tu, mesti la skt kaki
Hubs pon sakit kaki…hihihi

So decided stop kejap
Coz lgpon our hands are already full mase tu,
Hantar all the purchases to the car,
Naik balik, gi mkn kt Carl’s Jr
Nasib dpt tempat duduk yg best
So dok situ lama skit
Mkn pon pelan2 je

Agak² dh puas duduk,
we went back to the hall
sambung shopping lagi…miaahhhaha
gile ah…

I’m not sure price wise kt situ ok ke tak,
Cos I tak rase kt situ harga dia murah TERAMAT ke ape
Tp murah la jugak berbanding harga kt luar
Tu pon based on the research I did on random items la
So to me, it’s worth it la, especially I yg dok JB ni
Susah nk jumpe kedai yg jual brand yg I prefer

All in all
I’m proud to say that
We managed to strike off 85% of our baby’s checklist
Alhamdulillah
Dpt beli bajus, mittens, booties, hats, blankets, towels, toilettries,
Feeding bottles, segala mak nenek cream, bathtub,
Barut, bedung, detergent, baby wipes, changing mat, beddings,
And ape ntah lagi…dh tak ingat

Basically we only bought items yg kami rase mmg essential for our little one’s arrival
Yg tak bape penting tu, nanti² pon bole beli
Or kt JB pon bole beli or beli je online
Barang yg penting tapi belom dibeli cuma diapers je
I planned to get PetPet…kt expo takde jual pon
Yg ade brand whopper tak silap
Takpe tu boleh beli kt tesco je nnt

Lain² yg perlu dibeli, tapi tak bape penting
Is Stroller, CarSeat, Sterilizer, Warmer,
baju cantik², mainan, and maybe more baju persalinan

For me sendiri pulak,
I sempat capai nursing poncho, breast pads, EBM storage packs and 2 helai nursing wear
Cari jugak great deal for breastpump, tapi tak jumpe
I’m still eyeing on the Breastpump package from OBW
InsyaAllah minggu depan, I’ll order them

Lagi bersemangat bile ptg smlm, mase nk mandi tu
I perasan my right breast dh mule keluar susu
It looks a bit yellowish, which I believe the colostrums
It’s a good sign kan?
InsyaAllah, dgn izin Allah, itulah rezeki our little one nnt
I yg terlampau excited, smpai terfikir nk tadah susu tu semalam
Padahal bukannya menitik² ke ape
Just bile I picit, nmpak ade sikit keluar…happy sgt²….

Ah, lagi satu set bersalin
Yg ni pon not sure nk beli ape or yg mana
Balik² I google, mesti org recommend Nona Roguy
Agak mahal jugak eh…
I thought bende² ni dlm 100 plus je…
Upenye jejak 300 plus la jugak….erk!
So, I haven’t decided yet
Tgklah nnt macam mane

So skrg all the stuff masih lagi dlm plastic kt umah
I haven’t find the time to organize them
Hubs lagi la…dok tanye bile I nak prepare hospital bags
Mentang² barang baby dh almost settle,
Tak sabar betol dia nk jumpe anak dia
Hari² dok kata rindu baby…

Pdhal baru je 7months kan
Tapi ade jugak mommies yg lahirkan baby at 7 months kan
Hurm….dh bersedia ke I???
Tetibe rase cuak!

Hari yg sedih

2011-08-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

Hari ke 4
Saya tidak puasa

Entah mana silap nye,
Sampai ofis awal semalam
Around 7.40am
Sbb the night before, tido umah mak
So pagi tu kuar cam biasa masa bulan tak puasa

Tgh drive tu I mmg dh rase lain mcm
Perut ni mcm sebu ke ape ntah
Smpai ofis, cek email jap
Tetibe rase perut bergelodak
Cam angin tolak²
Cepat² lari ke toilet
Konon nk muntah
Tapi kuar air je (note: pagi tu sahur nasi goreng)

Dok balik kt desk
Tak smpai 5 minit, lari balik ke toilet
Again, air je kuar
3 kali dok ulang alik gitu
I dh tak sedap hati

Kepala pon dh start cenoneng
Dada la berdebar semacam
Tgn pon dh berpeluh²
Terpikir, am I getting dehydrated?

Taknak pikir panjang
Tgk computer pon cam blank je
Decide nk kuar gi klinik
Bitau supervisor, dia ok je

Dlm tgh drive tu smpt terpikir,
Kalau gi wat checkup kt KK pon ok gak nih
Tak payah amik cuti ari lain
So gi KK Masai, amik nombor,
Timbang, cek BP, urine
oh oh! at 7 month, genap 10kg berat I naik!!!
whoooopppppppsssiieeeee!

Then while tunggu turn urk jumpe nurse,
I cabut gi klinik panel utk dpt kan MC

And betol la
BP I agak low
Muka pon pucat doc ckp
Tgk mulut pon cam dh dehydrated
Doc risaukan baby
So scan jap
Alhamdulillah, baby ok
Dia cam slow skit, tp ok

As a precaution, doc advise buka puasa
I pon rasa I mmg tak dpt tahan dh by then
So kuar dr klinik tu,
singgah 7e, beli soya bean
and maka, berbuka lah saya pd pukul 11 lebih tu.... -____-
sedih...tapi tak nak tanggung any bigger risk for myself and our dear baby
takpe lah….
Redha je….

Pas dh minum tu, mkn ubat
Then shoot balik ke KK Masai
Continue checkup

Semua seems ok
Cume ade sikit edema on my ankle
So nurse advice naikkan kaki sikit bile duduk n baring
Lain², xde ape
Masa tu pon I dh mcm letih
Malas nk tanya itu ini

Setel tu, otw balik, terpikir nk makan bubur
Singgah today’s, beli ayam and sayur
Balik, terus masak bubur ayam campur bayam
Alhamdulillah, sedap….. 

Mmg buat lebih sikit,
Petang tu hantar bubur umah mak
Utk diorg rase time buka

Tu je la citer hari TAK puasa ke-4

p/s: dh la semalam hujan je the whole morning kt sini...tu yg rasa sedihhh je.....

1st Ramadhan

2011-08-02T16:06:00.002+08:00

It’s the second day of Ramadhan this year
And so far, it wasn’t really smooth sailing,
But I’m hanging on

Semalam kan cuti 1st Ramadhan for Johor
So Ahad tu, balik dari KL,
we decided to sleepover kt Kempas
kira sahur sana laaa

as usual, 4.30, I bangun, and whip up dishes utk sahur for the whole family
dibantu oleh girl laaa
kesian dia…pas ni dia kene masak sorang² pagi²
takpe..she can do it punye!

Btw, I managed to cooked lemak timun, fried chicken wings, telur dadar and sambal belacan for the first sahur
Simple, tapi sedap amat….
Alhamdulillah

After solat subuh, we decided to make a move
By 6.45, sampai umah,
Set the washing machine to run at 11am
Terus pengsan dua²
Mana taknye, penat travel dr KL tak hilang lagi
Tak cukup tidur pun
I’ll share on the KL trip bits later

Tapi tu pon maybe penat teramat, I tido tak bape lena
Kejap² terjaga
Last², kol 12.30 dua² terjaga
Tapi sambung golek² sampai azan zohor
I know, tak elok tido lama² time puasa, tapi mmg keletihan gile

After mandi and solat,
I sidai baju and did some ironing
Setakat 2 pasang for hubs and me each
Tapi letih dia, mcm org lari marathon 5km
Dada berdebar semacam (infact ni as I type pon I felt the same)
I’m not sure mmg penat, or effect of lapar
Mmg ade rase lapar, tapi I rase mcm boleh tahan

So I terus baring
Sempat terlena dekat sejam,
Bangun solat asar, then siap² nk buka kt umah Mak (MIL) pulak
Sblm tu, sempat singgah Tesco, beli beras
Then singgah PaRam Tmn Rinting
Beli lauk ayam masak merah je
Entah eh, tak bape lalu sgt tgk makanan byk² smlm

Mak pon tak masak sgt
Banyak beli dari PaRam je
Hasilnye, ade ayam percik, asam pedas ikan sembilang, murtabak, sata and air katira
Alhamdulillah
Semua habis

After buka tu, rest jap,
Solat maghrib, then siap² gi terawih
Alhamdulillah, dpt jugak terawih kali ni
Its our first as married couple…rase sgt special…
Walau dapat buat 8 rakaat je
Itu pon, rase cenoneng skit

And pagi tadi, kami sahur di rumah sendiri
Hubs biasanya tak sahur pon
Tapi bak kata mak, kalau ade makanan depan mata, diorang ni mkn je.. ;)
Pagi tadi i buat egg sandwich for myself
And fried some chicken nuggets and milo for him
Nampaknya, sahur ringan sebegitu is not gonna work for me
Cos by 11 am tadi, I dah mula rase lembik

Therefore, lesson learnt la kan
Mmg takde shortcut laaa
I need rice for sahur
So pas ni, harus pastikan merajinkan diri utk masak,
Walau setakat telur gorang and kicap pon
InsyaAllah

p/s: I really prayed hard that I could get through this ramadhan successfully.

Brain Dead

2011-07-29T15:56:00.000+08:00

Can’t work
Can’t think straight
Can’t think of anything else

Sad
So sad
Extremely sad

Cried
Cried and cried
In the office
And pretended I’m having flu

It’s a very ‘remeh’ issue
But when I’ve been having high hopes and dreams on it
And all this has been planned way ahead for the last 7 months
Even though the execution plan might not be as ‘perfect’ as what I’ve imagined
I could settle for this
It might not be anything fancy or over the top, but I’m thankful enough as this is what we could afford

But now, it has all vanished
And I couldn’t see any second chances for this in the future
But he didn’t understand
He never did, and never will
He must think that I’m selfish and not being considerate

I know I won’t win this battle
I know I can’t put my foot down on this
I’ve rest my case but the world definitely doesn’t revolves around me solely
Therefore, I shall accept things as it is

But I can’t help for being sorry for myself
This is not what I’ve wanted
Not what I’ve seen myself
Not what I’ve imagined
But I’ll embrace it.

p/s: still hoping for a miracle.

Weekend....come fast!

2011-07-28T12:30:00.002+08:00

Hey Ho
Jai Ho

Haha
I’m such in a good mood today
Woke up later than usual
Mmg saje nk masuk ofis lmbat skit arini
Siap singgah warung kt Masai and had lontong for breakfast
Sorang² je yo!

Entah eh...sejak kawin ni I don’t mind going anywhere sendiri (of course dgn izin hubs)
Cos dia pon selalu bz, balik lambat and such
So grocery shopping by myself at Tesco/KipMart has become somewhat a normal routine
Tp kalau yg monthly grocery tu, of cos la dgn hubs sekali
Just that kalau yg ad-hoc ke, tetibe brg habis ke, tu baru pandai² cari sendiri
And I’m glad I’m independent like that

Ehem ehem
After much deliberation
And consideration,
We’ll go ahead with the going-to-KL-to-shop plan
YEAYYYYYYYY!!!
Can’t express how happy I am
when hubs suddenly text me on one fine evening while I’m in office
that goes

hubs : Minggu depan gi kl nak?
me: Huhh???biar betul….
Hubs : Btol la ni. Ari sabtu kte tdo hotel 5 star…hehehe
Me : Syg ni…suke je bg frh harapan…kang xjd lg…. :( (siap ade emoticon sedih tu!)
Hubs : Btol lahh..nak ke xnk ni?
Me : Nak!!!

Hahhahah
Menggeletis kan I?
Ye laaa..dh lama tau I pasang impian ni
Sejak I tau I pregnant lg
Teringin sgt nk g warehouse sale or baby expo mcm ni
Coz I heard u can get darn cheap deal there
Tapi kt JB ni, takde pulak I dgr ade such event
So bile dpt tau kt KL nk buat, I started to berangan la kan
Walaupon poket tak sebesar mana, tak kira….keinginan nk gi tu tinggi amat sgt!

M2B lain ngidam makan macam2,
I ngidam gi baby expo/sale
Bole tak?
Eh…ngidam makan pon ade laaaa…hehehhe

Oh oh
I dah siapkan list lagi barang utk dibeli tu
Dh lama I sediakan list ni
From time to time, ade je yg ditambah

hoho
siap ade nama baby lagi tu...
tp di cover laaa...
poyo tak poyo?

Siap wat research on the price lagi
So nnt senang nk compare harga kan
Tgk mana lg berbaloi

Maka dengan itu, saya tidak sabar utk menanti hari esok
I masuk keje petang esok
Pagi nk service baby JMU dulu
Ye la…dh 2 kali kene hentak kan…
And plus dh nk jejak 6000km pon
So alang² tu, gi je la
Dari pape jd tgh jln ke ape kan

We planned to gerak KL tomorrow night
Maybe after maghrib
Sleepover at Kak Anim (SIL)’s house at Pantai Dalam
On Saturday, baru terjah MidValley
Dekat je PD ngan Mid kan

Then ptg skit baru check-in hotel
Babymoon time!!!! (cum honeymoon jugak la kirenye)
Yeayyyyyyyy
Tak dpt gi jauh², KL pon KL laaaaa
Hahahaha..pathetic kan?
Takpee…yg penting dpt berdua denganmu…..hihihihi

Mybe mlm tu bole jln ke Pavilion
Its walking distance je katanya
Tp dh boyot ni, larat ke dik non oiiiii
Tgk la nnt camne

Esoknye, kalau larat, ingat nk singgah sogo
Kak Anim kata ade sale gak kt situ
We’ll see how lah nnt
Ni semua I je plan sendiri
Hubs tak tau pon
hahahahaha

Johor kan cuti Monday tu for Awal Ramadhan
So just nice la kalau blk Ahad tu
Then isnin tu boleh rest sambil berpuasa
InsyaAllah…

Last but not least,

Selamat Berpuasa semuaaa….
and doakan perjalanan kami selamat pergi dan pulang yeaaaaaa
toodles!

3rd Tri, Clogged Ear, Fun Teluk Ramunia, Bruised JMU

2011-07-25T12:17:00.001+08:00

I’m officially in the final Trimester now!
yippppeeeeeeeee

Can’t believe how fast time flies now
Seems like it was yesterday I did the UPT
And now, looking at the ‘cute’ bulge on my tummy, I’m blessed

I didn’t know that 3rd trimester starts at 27 weeks
I thought it should be in 28/30 weeks
Till I read the weekly newsletter I got from BaiBoo in my mail
That goes “Well, the third and final trimester of your pregnancy has started!”
My oh my!!!!

Well
I’ve nothing much to update on my pregnancy so far
Just am anxiously waiting for the fasting month next week
I get very thirsty nowadays (it’s the weather rite?)
I hope it’d get better next month, or else, I’ll try my very best to endure it

One thing though, my right ear is very much clogged for at least one week now
It has been on and off ever since then
But today, it got worst!
Usually, if I shake it up a bit, it will unclog
But this morning, after several attempts, no improvement

So now, I’m waiting for the in-house doctor to come and check
There’s no pain, apart of slight headache
But it got so irritating because I’m totally depending on my left ear to hear
So every time my colleagues talks to me, they have to make sure they are on my left
Or else, I’ll be like “I beg you pardon” over and over again
Malu!!!!

Btw, just got back from a mini-family gathering of MIL’s side at Teluk Ramunia
It’s a 2d1n thing
It was really fun!
I really enjoyed myself over the weekend there

The beach was real nice, soft sands! Love love love!
Of course the water is not as blue as those in redang or tioman
But it’s clear enough that you could see your own feet

Had a fair share of dipping myself in the sea
And of course swam my heart out in the pool
Aha! We have a pool in our apartment
But somehow, I couldn’t find the time to get down there
Plus I felt quite embarrassed to wear a the swimwear while prego in public (1001 alasan)

But in Teluk Ramunia, I went all out
Cause the pool has no proper dress-code! Yeay!!!!
So I just put on my tights and an oversized shirt and there I off I went!

The little one loves it too!
It squirms and kicks when I did the breaststroke
But face a bit of difficulty on the backstroke though
Perhaps due to ‘overweight’ on my belly part…teehee
Felt really good and revitalize after each session
Love!

Oh yeah
Another important note,
Our dear JMU got ‘bruised’ again yesterday at our apartment
Got knocked and scratched by a man in a wira who reversed from the parking lot
Without noticing hubs driving on the road
And scratched the front passenger’s door right to the back door
I wasn’t around when it happened though
Cos it happened when hubs got back from his weekly jog session
While I’m at home, erm…..napping… -____-

Hubs weren’t in a good mood since then
He got better when he’s around his family
But when it’s just me and him,
He turned into someone who’s totally devastated and refused to talk
I totally understand how emotionally wrecked he is
as it’s the second hit in 2 weeks time!

But the way he reacts, it seems like I’m the one who’s at fault
I’m trying my best to be as rational as I could in this kind of situation
I do hope things could get better

Above all that
I’m thankful that he’s ok
What if he got into a (much) worst accident?
What if he gets hurt?
I couldn’t imagine if that ever to happen
Alhamdulillah, Allah still protects us
He just gave us some gentle/friendly “reminder”, to be more careful, and of course, thankful too

3D Scan - A Disappointing Experience

2011-07-21T13:26:00.002+08:00

So, yeah
Went for the 3d scan last Tuesday night at 26w3d
After much consideration, I decided to do it at Hospital Penawar
With Dr Suhaimi
I’ve done checkup with him twice before
And he’s real good…very peramah

Reached there around 10 after 8
We were the 4/5th patient
Each patient took at least 10 minutes of consultation
Very thorough huh!

The wait was not that boring though
Coz we really enjoyed being in the “English” themed waiting room
Very nicely decorated, but too “English” for my liking

As we waited, I couldn’t stop myself from being worried
I kept on shushing my little one to sleep
Coz apparently, as we were on the way, our little one seems to be awake
Supposedly, she’ll only be active after 10
Which I thot going for a scan at the time when I thot she’s sleeping is the best idea
Not! She’s so much awake by 8!

Throughout the waiting period, our little one is very active
She’s punching and kicking mama like nobody’s business
Why I know its both punch and kick?
Because I felt thumping on both right and left side of my belly simultaneously!
Which shows that my baby is probably in melintang position

by 9.15, my name being called
Doc asked this and that
Have look at my pink book,
Check my BP, 120/75 – which he referred as “comel”! hahahaha

He did even warn us on the success rate of the 3d scan
On how it depends on the baby position
I am totally aware of this before hand
So tawakal je la

So came the best part,
Time to say hello to our little one
Start off with her head, then her spine, her heart, her legs
And since there’s “nothing” in between the legs,
Yeah, you figure why I referred our little one as “she”…..
Hihi

Then comes the head
My my
Too bad….she’s not facing us
We can only have the side view of her
And the best thing is, though its just part of her face,
We can definitely see she’s smiling!
She really smiled cos the one end of her lips is upwards
So cute anak mama

But I must say, the image was not very clear though
Luck is not on our side
Baby is not in the best position, so that’s the best that doc could get
So I’m kinda disappointed there

Moreover, doc did not really tried to look for the hands and the feet of our baby
When I asked whether are the hands and feet ok,
He said at the moment, its almost impossible to look at em as baby is moving actively
-___-

I’m not sure why am I so disappointed
Coz I already knew that the result of this scan is totally depends on our baby’s position
But still, I felt kinda cheated,
Coz I still had to pay the full price of RM105
While I did not manage to get the best view of my dear baby
And not a single printout that we get out of it
And I’m still blaming myself for not requesting for it

I have a very high expectation on this session, to be honest
I did a lot of research prior to this 3d scan
So I kinda know, what I should be able to know and see
But when the outcome is not even as par to what I expected,
I got devastated

And unlike most parents who just saw their baby in the screen,
Coming out of the clinic with a gleeful smile,
I don’t.
I kept on thinking how cheated I felt to pay for something that is seems like not worth it

Of course, its not the doctor’s fault
He did warn us anyway
So, there’s basically no one to blame actually
Anak mama la ni, tak nak tgk mama yeaa…..

All in all
We figured that baby is in breech position
Which is real funny coz while waiting,
I’m pretty sure that my baby is in melintang position
Cos of the both right and left side of my belly felt the baby is thumping
Sekejapan dia pusing eh…hihihihi

She now weighed 967g based on the scan
Which I checked in baiboo, at 26 weeks, baby should weigh approx. 800g
Slightly extra, but still ok la kan
Takpe laaa..tgkla mama dia pon…muahahhaah

Oh btw, in terms of cleft lip/palate condition,
We couldn’t be sure just yet
Coz nampak side view je kan
Silently, I prayed that my baby is just fine, InsyaAllah

But yesterday, as I woke up, despite the commotions that I felt that night
I started to think again
And started to….redha….
I’m the one who insisted on the scan
So I shall live with whatever the outcome is

That’s why hubs is not 100% agreed on the idea of any scan
Thus again, vetoed for no more scan session after this..hmmppphhhhh!
-___-

p/s: mengade tak kalau I nk buat scan lagi…maybe a 4D this time….I dh jumpe klinik kt Johor Jaya boleh buat…hurmmmmm

Jul 15th Tragedy

2011-07-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my entire life, I experienced being knocked down in a car a.k.a. got involved in an accident. It was a 5 car bumper-to-bumper accident near Seri Alam’s Shell. We’re in the third car.

It was due to an emergency break by the first car who got alarmed of a massive accident on the other side of the road.

Luckily hubster managed to stop the car on time, without hitting the front car. However, our back bumper was hit by a Kancil, which suffered quite a bad ‘injury’ on its front bumper.

I swear I could still remember and hear the sound of screeching tires and the loud “bam” when we got hit. Which makes me (slightly) traumatized of any such sound throughout the rest of the journey to Kempas.

Our loss? A crack on our dear vehicle’s back registration plat number which cost us RM25 to fix. Minor ‘injury’ I must say. But enough to leave a huge scar in our heart as it’s the first “property” that we bought since we got married and it’s only 3 months old.

And due to this incident, hubster vetoed to cancel our trip to KL next week as he referred it as a sign from above, that we shouldn’t travel when I’m (heavily) prego. : ( : ( : (

p/s: ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian, InsyaAllah...

Yesterday and Today....

2011-07-19T15:19:00.001+08:00

Yesterday,

I was not feeling well, maka telah ‘pengsan’ for the first half of the day. Flu, headache and fever missed me so much. ‘___’

Felt so miserable for being under the weather, decided to drench myself with sweat! I re-organised the third room to prepare for our little one’s stuff. Locked myself in the room, without any fan/aircond on, just the windows wide open. Felt much better after the ‘therapeutic’ session.

Today,

I left my phone at home. Charged it once I got up, and totally forgot about it til I reached office. To go back home just to get it, is so not me. And its 12.30 pm, I still survived. Heehee

Can’t wait to get home coz I need to make an urgent call.

I left my yesterday’s Medical Leave in the car, and did not bother to go back to get it. Takpe. Esok² je lah submit.

I realized I’m getting (even more) forgetful nowadays.

Can’t wait to see have a ‘sneak peek’ to what our little one is doing tonight. Hopefully everything goes well.

Random Shmandom!

2011-07-15T13:02:00.005+08:00

Atok is hospitalized in Pontian. Supposedly this weekend ade kenduri kt kampong..Hope atok dh boleh discharged by then. Rindu atok!
At 25w2d, first time nampak perut ‘bergelombang’. Little one’s kick (or punch) is getting more obvious now. Can’t help to smile each time it happened
Manage to record a video of the ‘gelombang’ last night. Bape kali take baru dpt….each time I felt dia active, I grab my phoneand tried to record…and the little one ni pon cam tau je mama dia nk record, terus senyap….pfffttttt…ape la syg mama ni..
Currently craving for Shepherd’s Pie…teringin nak buat, tapi malangnye we don’t have any oven at home. Mule la mengada pikir nk beli oven. Pakai nye ntah bape kali je kang…Hmmmm
Speaking of food, aritu crave for durian..nasib mmg musim kan...beli kt KipMart, fuuuhhh...mmg terbaik ah...thanks syg!
Work wise lebih tenang at the moment. Tu yang masa kerja asik tgk jam…dok tunggu waktu balik je…muahahha…tak best la pulak bile tak busy ni….ceh ko fana…busy tak suke, tak busy pon kecoh lagi.
Am having second thought on having the trip to KL for the Parenthood Expo. Takut objektif sebenar tak berapa nk berbaloi.Tapi sedapkan hati dgn kata, tak pe laaa….lagipon maybe this is the last time kami dpt travel berdua jauh²…pas ni, InsyaAllah dh bertiga…Plus, rasanya sejak kawin, ini je la kot the only time kitorg pergi somewhere out of JB berdua…selalu mesti dgn family….Honeymoon? Jgn tanya! *sedih*
I sometimes wish that hubster is more sensitive with what I’m going through and take in more initiative to learn/understand more. Not that he’s not. Infact he’s such a great sport and help throughout this journey. Tapi, entahla eh…emo ibu mengandung ni mmg susah nk diagak. I’m not blaming him thou.
Mula rasa cepatnye masa berlalu. I’ll be in my 7th months thru out ramadhan, 8 months throughout syawal, abes raya, bermakna dh 9 months I harus dh bersedia utk pop out.erk!
Lately ni asek terbayang makann yg ber’cheese’….nk naan cheese la, pizza la, lasagna la…hmmm..sedap nye kalau dpt…..
As at 26 weeks ni, I still can wear my watch, wedding and engagement ring! Kirenye tumbesaran lebih bertumpu pd kawasan 3 B sahaja – B*obs, Belly and Butt! Muahahahha
Baju tak payah cerita…tinggal bape je yg muat. Mmg layak pakai maternity wear je skrg. Tu pon ade 3 helai je. Dok rotate itu je la gi keje. Nk beli byk2, mahallllll…eh eh..baju kurung masih ade yg boleh pakai…so ok la…tapi bile nk jln2 tu yg problemo tu.
When I stand straight, I couldn’t see my own feet!

Job stress

2011-07-13T11:43:00.002+08:00

Last 1 month was pretty hectic for me. My colleague decided to take unpaid leave (till dunno when) due to her health condition (high BP). She’s preggo too! Our due dates are 2 weeks apart. Worst still, there’re only 2 of us in the software development team in Johor, so since she’s not around, I’m responsible for (almost) everything.

She took off at a ‘perfect’ timing, I must say. I mean, she has one major application to be deployed, but she’s not around. Of course, I have to take over her project. Having zero knowledge on it, I continued whatever she left. Over 2 weeks, I couldn’t sleep much, even when I did, I kept dreaming of the coding so on and so forth. Then comes the deployment phase, thanks to the SPI team for not testing it thoroughly, there are errors here and there. I went bonkers. I hate it especially when the errors have effect on MESA and worst, the Oracle-MLS and thus, affect the production team for not being able to ship out the products on time. Pfft!

Being committed to my job, I had to come early, went back late (at least later than usual) not to forget attend calls in the middle of the night. I totally hate it when I see 07-259**** numbers on my phone when I’m at home. I immediately got nervous and did hesitate whether to answer or just ignore it. Thinking of the consequences of answering stupid questions the very next day, I hesitantly pick em up.

I’ve joined this company for 4 months plus, to date. And I admit, I still couldn’t find myself totally attached or in love with my job. I mean, I do love programming (I never dreamt I will say this when I was back in UM). But I hate the environment here. EVERYTHING is urgent. I might love this kind of adrenaline rush before. But now, having this little one in me, I find myself having difficulty in coping up and rush in to things. Worst, I still couldn’t totally understand the production flow here.

I never realized, that working in a factory environment, is soooo stressfull. Especially when it NEVER shut down and the productions continues 365 days a year, non-stop. Worst, I still couldn’t get myself hang on the jargons and terms that they frequently blurt to me. What with the different operation codes, the confusing MESA Flow, the overrated binning and whatnot. *sigh*

At times, I do missed working in Kem.pas Medi.cal Cen.tre. At least there, I’m working with….human! Something or rather, someone that I could (personally) relate to. Unlike here, working with machines and such. Oh oh. Did you know, the main reason I decided to call it a quit on my previous 4 years job, is because I couldn’t stand the on-call duty? Yeap! There are quite a number of times that I had to go to the office on non-office hour to settle things. There was once, it was freaking 3am! The server went down because of UPS failure. HATE IT! Moreover, hardware is not my best area. And never will be.

When I look back, as much as I wanted to runaway from being ‘disturbed’ on non-office hour, I can’t. I still have to face the same thing with current job. You see, being a programmer, you have to be responsible with what ever you wrote. When user had a problem, why they couldn’t do this or that, they’ll come straight right to you, while it should be the SPI (System Production Improvement) team they should refer to. Bottom line, only the programmer knows best on that system/application. Therefore, I realized, if I were to remain doing programming, I HAVE to LOVE being ‘disturbed’ at any time of the day, including holidays. Pfftttt!

Deep down inside, SOMETIMES, I do regret that I turned down the offer from SPA on F41 too. cause I’m pretty sure if I were to work in the office as government servant, it won’t be this stressful. but things happened for a reason. If I ever did accept it, maybe, I will have to live away from hubster. And maybe we couldn’t live like the way we are as the pay as F41, is much lower than what Im getting now. But of course, rezeki is Allah’s hand. No matter how much we earn, money will NEVER be enough. That’s a fact. We’re after all, just human. Never satisfied with what we have. ‘__’

As for now, I just have to endure and take in anything that comes by. It’s not the right time to be searching for another job. I’m giving myself till next year. If I still find it hard to hang in here, I shall find myself hitting Jobstreet site every other day. Maybe, no more programming work eyh? Housewife perhaps ? (batting eyelashes to that someone….)

Our Plan

2011-07-11T12:10:00.002+08:00

Fuh fuh
Tarik nafas, hembuuusssss
Difficulty in breathing during pregnancy is common la kan
Am trying to get used to it

I’m 25 weeks pregnant now / at 26th weeks
Dh nak masuk 7 bulan…
Should I be nervous?
Coz according to what I read, there are high possibilities yg baby akan kuar as early as 7 months
So far, I rasa ok ok je
Ala ala yakin yg baby InsyaAllah akan kuar bile full term nanti..kan sayang?
Kita mesti yakin, of cos dgn doa n tawakal

In terms of preparing to welcome our little one to the world,
Belom ade ape lagi
Eh eh…ade 2 rompers bought by girl and hubster each
Tp both are not meant for newborn
Its for 3 and 6 months
So still consider belom ade ape² lagi la kan

Dh lambat sgt ke I ni?
I did feel so
But the thing is, I already had a plan
My plan is try to get almost everything masa Parenthood Expo nanti

Yeap, we planned to naik KL on 29-31st July semata² utk attend that expo kt MidValley
It may not be Mom and Baby Expo, but I suppose I could get barang baby jugak masa tu nnt kan?
Please agree with me…sbb kengkadang tu, I mmg doubt kt situ ade jual brg2 baby
Cos nama dia “Parenthood”…
Tp I dok sedapkan hati je nih

Btw, I planned to pergi on Saturday tu
I’m expecting the expo to be jam-packed la kan
Hopefully, I’ll be just fine
So that dapat bershopping dgn gembira dan jayanya masa tu nnt
Cos exactly that day, I’ll be 28 weeks pregnant @ 7 months ya’ll!

Takut jugak kalau masa tu laa kaki nk bengkak
Or kene water retention ke ape kan
Cos so far, belom ade lagi

And hopefully, baby pon akan bekerjasama dgn mama, ye sayang…

Oh oh

I did mention we already be informed on the baby’s gender on the 18th weeks dulu kan

Since then, tak pernah scan lagi baby ni

Ye la, I pon buat regular check up dgn govt kan

So scan² ni mmg takde laaaa

Therefore, we planned to “teropong” our little one once again, before naik KL nnt

In fact, we’ve decided to have the detailed scan or at least a 3d scan

Tapi masih belom decide nk buat kat mana

Yg I tau, Hospital Penawar confirm ade service tu

Hopefully baby’s condition is baik² saja

However, walau apa sekalipun keadaannya,

Or no matter what the result will turn out to be,

I mohon Allah tabahkan hati and kuatkan kami utk terima segala ketentuanNya

InsyaAllah

Just one thing that bother me…

Patut ke I buat detailed scan / 3d scan tu masa 27 weeks?

Dh cukup besar tak eh our baby by then?

Berbaloi ke tak eh?

Coz I’m expecting to be able to catch a glimpse of how our baby looks like

Mata dia, hidung dia, pipi dia, mulut dia, jari dia and so on

I ade bace, ada yg kata 24 weeks dh boleh….tapi mcm tak clear

Sbb baby belom ade body fat or whatsoever….

some say patut buat after 30 weeks, baby dh fully developed

ade yg kata 30 weeks dh tad a bit too late

cos baby dh ke bawah, so cam susah nk tgk dia

I’m confused….

Anyone?

4th checkup at KKIA

2011-07-08T13:13:00.000+08:00

Went for it last Tuesday
It was supposed to be last week
Siap dh apply cuti khamis tu
But due to workloads commitments (yeah I’m THAT workaholic!),
I cancelled my leave and the appointment

Tapi sbb rase bersalah yg amat pd baby n diri sendiri
Nk tak nak, ngadap jugak lah KKIA tu last Tuesday

I’m due for 2nd MGTT…
So as usual, puasa dr mlm tu,
Smpai KKIA Masai around 7.40
Lambat sikit cos jam kt area Masai
Smpai pon dh ramai dh….

So amek nombor, terus pegi bilik MGTT
Pelik! Last time I did MGTT, the nurse cuma draw blood sample dr hujung jari je
But this time, dia amik kt lengan, to fill up half of the botol kecik tu
Dh la nurse tu cam sengal sikit
The first cucuk, tak jadi
I dh kata, amik kiri, dia degil nk amik tgn kanan
I ade problem stubborn vein, mmg tiap kali pon ade mslh tu
Sbb tu tiap kali nk amik darah, I fobia
Selalu mmg amik kiri dulu, kalau kiri tak de, baru try kanan
Sbb kanan ni lebih teruk skit
Only org yg betol2 pandai je, dpt nmpak my veins..ahakkssss

So in the end, bile tak dpt tu
Siap ckp “errr…sori la kak…nampak nye mmg kene amik kiri”
Aku dh kata dhhh
Nasib la I mmg mood tgh baik
Redha kan je la tgn ni dicucuk berulang kali… ‘____’

Dh tu, op coz la masa utk menelan the glucose drink yg ‘sedap’ tu
Alhamdulillah, I managed to wallop it all without muntah
Ade org kata teruk ke ape kan
But to me, personally, i rase, ok laaa
But of cos, kalau diberi pilihan, I tak nak minum
Tapi redhaaaaaaa

Next, timbang berat
Oh oh..my weight naik 0.4kg je sejak 1month+ ago…
Cam tak caya…
Cos on previous checkup, naik 3kg ok dlm masa less than 1 month!
Siap kene tulis dgn pen kaler merah lagi masa tu
Tp kt KKIA ni mmg takde nurse yg jenis bebel lah!
Semua ok je pada diorg
But of cos such important development, diorg akan highlight
N nasihat pape yg patut
Takde la smpai nk bebel smpai bernanah telinga ke ape kan…bagus!

My BP pon normal
Not within the low range lagi
Cek urine, ok juga…no kencing kotor whatsoever
Cek HB count, ok jugak
Naik sudaaaa 12.0….berkat Obimin kot…
Cos previous checkup, my HB turun

Then jumpe nurse…very brief…
Tapi I complained on tight chest and backpain
So dia refer I jumpe doctor

Jumpe doctor, cek itu ini,
Nothing serious
Maybe its because of my gastritis
Tu yg angin semua naik, I rasa macam suffocated and all
Nothing to worry about la kot

Pas tu, go back to the lab
Cos by then, dah 2 jam after my glucose drink
So nk amik sample darah lagi
Another half bottle
Kali ni, cucuk sekali je
Tapi lama jugak laaa nurse tu dok belek2, tepuk2..
Siap cakap “akak ni putih….tp susah ek nk cari urat”
I sengih je….redhaaaaaa

Dh tu, gi immunization room pulak
Dh masuk 6 bulan kan
So I got my first shot of Tetanus Injection (Kancing Gigi)
Oh oh…seram sejuk jugak laaa nk kene ni
Cos i read, ade yg kata smpai demam kan
Masa inject tu, ok je…biasa la..kene cucuk kan
Balik pon ok lagiiii

Tapi mlm tu, mak aihhh
Sakit sengal gile
Hubs terlanggar pon I dh terjerit
2 hari gak laaa sengal tu

So overall, on that fine Tuesday,
I kene 5 jabs!
3 from blood sample drawing, 1 for HB Count and another for the Tetanus shot
As a result, tangan kiri I kebas/sengal semacam
Drive pon pakai tgn kanan je,
in the end, decided to amik MC
so balik….tido!

tu lah ceritanya
next checkup is on second day of puasa
tak tau laaa nk gi ke tak
maybe nk gi awal sikit
cos cam tak best je melangut kt KKIA on puasa day

First Time Puasa as M2B

2011-07-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

Adalah berpuasa pada hari ini
Gile ah…in less than 1 month nk masuk ramadhan, baru nk mengganti
Ade lagi 2 hari lak tu

Sgt nervous at first
Ye laa…first time puasa preggy
So mcm² pikir
Baby ok ke kalau mama puasa
Sbb dh biasa almost every hour akan makan something

Tapi Alhamdulillah
Allah lebih mengetahui
Dr solat maghrib smlm lagi I dh doa byk²
Minta dipermudahkan I puasa hari ini
Kuatkan semangat
And permudahan urusan kerja so that I tak stress

So far, semua ok sahaja
Takde rasa lapar melampau not even haus sgt
So so shj
Harap² berjayalah hingga ke maghrib nnt

Work wise pon ok je
Ade urgent issue pg td,
But managed to settle it by 10
Since then, nothing much

Oh yea
Pagi tadi bersungguh I bgn sahur
I mmg jenis puasa yg mesti bersahur
So pg td, dh set jam kol 4.30
Biasanya I mesti mkn nasi utk sahur
Tp memandangkan nasi yg I goreng semlm dh habis,
N malas nk masak lain,
I make myself 2 pieces of toasted bread and half boiled egg
And of course, my current fav, NesVita-Honey flavored

Baby pon elok je behave
Cuma kol 1 lebih td, galak sgt dia menendang
Dia expect food agaknye
Pelan² pujuk, ckp mama puasa, lama² dia pon senyap je
Sambung tido kot…. 

Hopefully all izz well lah sampai ke maghrib nnt
Tak plan nak masak pon utk berbuka hari ni
Its Monday, ade pasar mlm kt umah
So beli je la pape kt sana nnt
Mcm nk nasi ambang...tp kalau dpt nasi kerabu best jugak nih
Hihihhihi
Baby nk ape syg????

saya sayang suami saya

2011-06-29T22:33:00.001+08:00

4s!
siapa yg tak syg suami kan????
tapi semenjak ptg tadi, saya sayang suami saya extra 300%

mana taknyaaaa
balik keje, bukak2 pintu,
umah wangiiii semerbakkkk
haruman courtney's bouquet dari kedai 5 ringgit menggamit deria hiduku
detik hati - rajinnya suamiku burn oil petang2 ni

jalan ke depan sikit, tgk karpet sgt bersih!
tidak seperti pagi tadi masa kali terakhir aku tinggalkan rumah
di mana serpihan biskut kering cap ping pong bertaburan sana sini
sah dia telah vacuum satu umah

aku pandang jauh ke balkoni,
terlihat baju siap disidai kemas
baju di ampaian yg aku tinggalkan semalaman semalam, siap dilipat dan disimpan dgn elok
oh oh oh...
seperti tidak percayaaaa!!!!!

terus aku merluru ke arah suami
dan berikan ciuman yg paling hangat!
tetttttttttt
tanda terima kasih
sungguh....aku terharuuuuuuu

aku berjalan ke arah dapur,
barang di kabinet tersusun rapi
air botol di dlm peti sejuk terisi penuh
1 botol air sirap, 1 lagi air masak
sinki, bersih-sebersihnyaaa...tong sampah juga terletak rapi

seperti biasa, sebaik pulang,
aku akan mandi
masuk kamar kami, katil, bantal dan selimut tersusun elok
masuk bilik air,
juga telah disental dia...
oh bertuahnya badan dikurniakan suami sebaik ini

terima kasih sayang!!!
kejutan sekali sekala sebegini, amat membahagiakan
terus mood jadi jiwang
tak pernah2 mengarang dlm bm sepenuhnya.....
kali ni, terkecuali.....

suami,

saya sayang kamu!
sungguh!

p/s: suami bercuti hari ini kerana kilangnya shutdown.

First Kick!

2011-06-15T21:30:00.001+08:00

oh...
at first, t thought it was just gas or im just hungry
u know....rase mcm dlm perut ni ade gelombang2 gitu
i joked to my hubs saying that 'baby kentut'!
that was around 18 weeks

i did know, that at some point of time, its not gas or whatsoever
it's our baby!

as weeks passes by, the 'kicks' became more obvious
kekadang tu mcm tergelak sesorg kt ofis
gelliiiiiiiiiiii.....

and over time, I've started to learn its pattern
our little one is very active around 1.30 - 4 pm and 10pm onwards
time i nk tido tu laaaaa dia dok ber'shuffle'
so cute

so based on those, I couldnt really tell when did i feel my little one's first kick
but hubs sure remembers his first experience to feel his baby's kick!
it was a day after our 6th months anniversary! 12 June 2011

baby was 21w1d
masa tu tgh tgk final AF.....
baby suka dgr lagu kot
tu yg the kick was agak kuat
tapi takde laaa smpai bole nmpak gelombang kt perut ke ape kan
belom tahap tu lagi
dh la i nye perut ni mmg jenis yg tebal...hiks!

so bile i rasa tu, cepat2 i bitau hubs, n he gently press my tummy to get his fair share of his baby's kick
and he got it!!!!
twice in fact
mcm tap tap gitu
he was stunned!!! loves to see his expression at that time
priceless!!!

oh oh....tadi dear hubs brought me to kedai Anakku
nk ambil hati katanya....
owwwwww.....so sweet la syg....
tp tak beli pape pon
just tgk2, belek2, survey harga
n now, he's off for futsal

oh i miss my baby
i did give a detailed scan a thought
but im not sure whether hubs is fine with this idea
but reading from others experiences, i'm eager to have one
if ever anything that i need to 'find out' about our baby, i feel that i should know earlier
so that we, can be prepared
not that i ever asked for it, but we had to be prepared
ape pon, semua ni rezeki Allah...

syg, mama harap syg baik2 je kt dlm perut mama k
mama cuba buat yg terbaik utk baby
walau ape pon yg terjadi, please do know
that mama n abah loves you so much
we had been loving you since the day we found out that you're in me
be safe, be good, be loved!
xoxo!

6 Months!!!

2011-06-10T12:40:00.001+08:00

Hari ni rasa macam nk update

hey hey
esok genap 6 bulan kami diakadkan (and our little one turns 21 weeks/5m1w)
tp takde satu pon cerita majlis kami yg I share kt sini
setiap kali nk wat review, rasa malas
ala...majlis kami pon biasa2 jee
nothing much to talk about
tapi cukup meriah utk meraikan kami
takpela...satu hari nnt, agak2 rajin, I’ll post about it k

6 months along in this courtship,
Seperti pasangan lain, we had our ups and downs
Marriage life ni mmg sgt mencabar
Bukan setiap saat kita akan gembira/tertawa
Ade masa mmg happy…teramat happy
Lagi bila fikir yg orang yg kita dok gurau senda siang mlm, yg buat kita tertawa tu ialah suami
Suami….sebut perkataan tu pon cam meremang je rase
Of course, ade jugak masa2 bila emosi terganggu, jiwa tercalar, kes2 merajuk
Itu biasa la kan…adat berumah tangga
Tapi bila dh kawin ni, nk gaduh lama2 pon tak boleh...
Sebelom tidur, mesti nk berbaik
Orang tu jugak laah yg dicari buat bantal pelok mlm kang 

On another note, Tanggungjawab yg dipikul semenjak the moment kita diijabkabul tu, sgtlah byk
Kalau dulu, nk buat ape2, buat jeeee…tak payah pikir2 pasal org lain
But now, once you’re someone’s wife, suami adalah yg yang terpenting
Nk beli pape, kene pikir, suami suka tak eh?
Nk gi mana, mesti minta izin suami
Nk buat sesuatu, kene pikir maruah suami
Ape pon, suami jugak dlm fikiran

Tak kira lah penat mana masa bekerja, bila balik, mesti dok piker, nk masak ape utk suami mlm ni
To those yg tak tahu memasak, to me, tu semua alasan
Semua orang tahu memasak…infact, lelaki pon tahu memasak
Tapi MALAS jeeee…. (mcm my hubs….heeee)
Girls…..it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to be able to cook
Tapi it takes a lot of experience to be a good cook
Nampak tak beza kt situ….tahu masak VS pandai masak
Cari je lah resepi kt google tu
My fav spot utk cari resepi is at Myresipi.com
Cube je laaa mana2 yg agak menarik dan berkenan di hati

Percayalah, kebanyakan suami (especially yg baru kawin) tak kesah pon ape yg isteri nya masak
Yg penting, dia dpt rase sendiri masakan home cook isterinya
Tak kesah lah kalau hanya nasi berlaukkan telur goreng dan kicap
Itu dh sgt sedap berbanding hari2 dok mkn kt kedai mamak

And so far, Alhamdulillah, I’m able to cook for my husband
And yg paling buat makin bersemangat, bila dia memuji (kalau sedap) or even blurted a simple ‘thank you’ for the dish
I mengaku, not everyday I dapat masak, lagi2 dgn keadaan yg berbadan dua ni
But I did try to every other day….
at least seminggu tu ade la air tangan I yg mengenyangkan my hubs…

Speaking of berbadan dua ni, kami teramat bersyukur Ya Allah di atas kurniaanNYA ni
I have a confession…. I did plan to plan (faham tak?)
I pernah tell myself to be ‘kosong’ for at least sebulan
I never mentioned this to my hubs (sorry syg)
Cause he will never agree on this..he loves kids too much…
so do I…but I have some valid reason for feeling so
Therefore, no formal protection or prevention procedure that we follow/used

Bukan I nak menidakkan rezeki Allah
Tapi, bile I fikirkan yg masa awal2 kahwin tu, kami belom dpt betul2 settle down, I jadi risau
Sebulan kami masih tinggal di rumah in law
Hubs already start rented our current apartment, a week before our wedding
Tapi keadaan rumah yg belom lengkap isinya
And financial constrain yg melengahkan kami utk ‘mengisi’ rumah, buat kami makin lambat settle down
So I fikir, if I ever get pregnant too early, nnt mcm mana nk pindah kan?
Nk kemas2 rumah and so on
Sure renyah gile and worst if I mabuk teruk
Kesian pulak hubs kene buat semua sorg2 kan

Alhamdulillah, Allah knows best
I merancang, and Allah menentukan
Niat I dimakbulkan Allah

Tak dinafikan, masa kali kedua ‘my bestfriend’ dtg sejak kahwin on 15 Jan
which happened to be on a day after hubs birthday
masa tu I fikir, kalau I betol pregnant, dpt la I bagi rezeki Allah ni as the best ever birthday gift to hubs kan…of course tu hanya khayalan…. ‘___’
so bila mmg miss P dtg, I risau...I started to doubt myself
Mule terpikir, will I be able to conceive ever? Is there anything wrong with me?
Tp masa tu baru sebulan lebih kawin kot…
Tp gelabah mcm ape jeeee

Kiranya betol2 genap sebulan, I mmg ’kosong’
Cos approximately a month ++ later, bila kami dh hamper sebulan settle down di rumah kami, I disahkan 5 weeks pregnant
Syukur sgt2 masa tu
It was such a perfect timing 

Tapi tu lah, orang baru kawin ni kan
Financially belom berapa stable
Mana nk beli brg umah
Mana nk uruskan hidup
Rase mcm baru semalam ikat perut utk simpan duit nk kawin
Ni dh kene save up utk the little one pulak
Takpe lah, Allah pon dh janji, setiap anak yg lahir, ade rezekinya nnt.. InsyaAllah

Tapi kannnn….dulu, sebelum kawin, sebelum betol2 berniat nk kawin,
I selalu ade mslh duit ni
I mean, i dok laa risau, mana laaa aku nk cekau duit nk buat kawin ni
Mana laaaa nk dpt duit utk hidup after kawin lagi
Byk betol nk pakai duit
Mama siap ckp I ni mcm paranoid..mcm org gila duit… ‘___’

Tapi Alhamdulillah, bila niat kita tu baik, Allah permudahkan
Smpai sekarang, I mcm tak percaya, we managed to get through it
Ye laaa..kami berdua bukan dr keluarga berada
Keje pon biasa2 je….
Nk kata hidup mewah tu, mmg jauh sekali
Tapi belom pernah lah sesak sampai tak makan ke ape kan...syukur

Oh…dh byk melalut
All im saying here,
Im blessed with my life
With this marriage
With a lovely-sometimes annoying-patient-kind-sometimes ignorant-caring life partner

Syg…I know I may not be a perfect wife,
but thank you for accepting me, correcting me, layan kerenah farah yg kadang2 tah pape tu, and most importantly for loving me….
I loff you mucuk! ;p
Happy 6 months!

p/s: I’m not sure if he remember about the 6 months thing…let’s see……
p/p/s: he’s down with fever + flu + cough + asthma for 2 days now…get well soon dear….

Still here

2011-06-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

dan bagai di pam-pam
huh

20 weeks along now
the little one is half baked, so they say

byk nk cerita
byk yg berlaku for the past few weeks
what with the braxton hicks,
the UTI or commonly known as 'kencing kotor'
and the best part, pasal our little one
we've got to know the gender masa week 17 dulu!!!
hihihi
tapi taknak la kecoh...
nnt kang keluar lain, udaaahhhh....
kami tak kesah...yg penting, baby sihat!
k sayang???!!!

tap tu la... tiap kali ade access to the web world, malas gile nk login blogger
dok bace blog momsies je
suke baca experiences org lain
what they bought and so on
nk citer hal sendiri, bapak malas..

eh eh
20 weeks, means dh 5 months kan???
humakaih...cepatnye masa berlalu
and so far doc kata, still stick to the initial due date
which is 22nd Oct 2011
baby's progress is sejajar dgn the estimation day
so ok laaaa

tapi, deep down inside, i do hope i could deliver at least 1 or 2 weeks earlier
sebab???
tak nak la terlalu 'lemau' on my sister's big day!

muahahahaha
I never mention kan?
my kakak is getting married a week after my due date!!!!
29 October 2011

on my solemnization day last 11 dec 2010, she got engaged
InsyaAllah, if everything goes well,
my family planned to have the first cucu's aqiqah on her solemnization day pulak
ironic isn't it??
we both love to 'menyibuk' on each other's BIG day!
hihihihi
but none of us mind that though

thats y la i hope our little one kuar slightly earlier
so that i takde laaa 'lembik' sgt ke ape time org tgh sibuk2 kan
tapi if baby deceide to pop on time, mama don't mind sayang...
as long as you're ok...

btw, Im now at Kempas
I cuti hari ni, replacement Public Holiday for Agong's day
but dear hubs is working
mlm ni tunggu dia pick me up
and will be heading tu felda Tenggaroh (tak silap)
for his cousin's wedding this wiken

oh tak sabar nk mkn nasi minyak!!!
i loveeeee nasi org kawin
tp i uke mkn nasi gitu jeee
hihihih
apaape je la ibu mengandung ni kan??
k laaaa
till then,

p/s: igt nk upload latest gambar...tapi tak jumpe cable...len kali lah k tayang ke'penguin'an tuan blog..... '___'

of being 4 months!

2011-05-10T12:44:00.002+08:00

been quite some time since i last wrote in
i just couldn't find the time nor vibe to do so
I have limited internet connections in current office
limited as in only 1 hour of blog-walking per day
they are strict like that
dont ever get me started on FB
they totally blocked it

however, i did utilize the 1 hour freedom as much as i could
by reading other blogs
especially those who are mommy-to-be
just to read their experiences and such

oh oh
our little one is almost half-baked now
4 months through, and Im enjoying every moment of it
it wasn't really a stroll at the beach though

its true, the morning sickness has subsides by now
it did happen occasionally, but very minimal i must say
but something else decided to pay me a visit
my migraine!!!
gosh!

at first i thought it was just one of the things you have to endure while being pregnant
but when it comes quite too often and only at one side of my head
i knew by then, this is not normal
waking up in the morning, trying to stand straight was quite a struggle
often I felt lightheaded, throbbing and spinning all at once
trying to walk normally to the toilet is another story
thus so far, within a month, I have taken 3 days of MC due to migraines
what a bad record of a 2 months old new employee
*sigh*

my appetite? dont get me started on this
i eat almost anything!!!
muahahahaa
so far I only rejected curry
other than that, oh yeah...come to mama!!!
no major craving just yet
only some serawa durian, naan cheese, nasi lemak, big mac are some that makes into the list
common foods right?
my hubs is a lucky man! :)

as i read through infos on being pregnant,
second trimester should be the 'honeymoon' trimester
where we, m2b, should feel more energetic and livelier
and those constant urge on emptying the full- bladder shud decrease by now
but not in my case
it remains!
i need to go to the toilet at least twice every night
making me feel groggy in the morning
hence the multiple snooze of the alarms '__'

eh eh
I should be able to know the gender of my baby by now right?
as excited i can be to see the lil one, and know the gender,
dear hubs is not in the same page as mine
he does not really fancy me going through too many rounds of ultrasounds
so we decided to wait
till whenever he said its ok to do so
'___________'

baby stuff?
none yet!
but I'm very eager on breastfeed our lil one
so, I'm enjoying making some research on which breastpump is suitable for me and our 'pocket'
nad....ko pakai ape huh??? advice skit

on another note,
our crib is still in quite a mess
i have a room half full of unorganized stuff
still couldnt find time to rearrange them
need to do so before i hit third trimester
i need to make room for our lil one's stuff
keep that in mind missy!

ok tu je!

p/s: panas gile mlm td kan?

cuti Cuti CUTI!!!!!

2011-04-29T14:34:00.000+08:00

oh oh
Its gonna be a long weekend holiday...
yipppeeeee!!!
whats ur plan huh?

as for us,
we'll be heading to melaka for the next 3 days
Jasin on saturday for my dear cousin Sofia's wedding
and Tg Bidara on the next till monday
for our 'mini' family gathering

yeah
its gonna be jammed packed
what makes me more nervous,
is to meet up the relatives
at Jasin, there will be bunch of relatives from dad's side
and at Tg Bidara will be mom's side
whom some of them, I've never met since my wedding day

and what makes me nervous???
my freaking weight that just keep on adding up!

they'll sure be surprised with how 'well' I've been taking care of myself
and how 'happy' I am with our marriage, that I 'ballooned' up!
ngeeheeeheeeee
u know la all this myth says
"org dah kawin, hati pon senang...tu yang makin gomokkkk"
muahahahahha

but at least, I have a concrete reason for all this extra pounds
ahhhhh
nevertheless, I'm excited for this trip
moreover, its my first kinda long journey since preggo
hope it went well
jgn la nk termuntah ke pening ke ape ke
Pray for the best!

Happy holiday everyone!!!

:)

First appointment at Klinik Ibu dan Anak

2011-04-13T21:54:00.004+08:00

after much deliberation and penangguhan
and heard lots of version
of when we're suppose to buka buku at KK,
some say only after u are at 12th weeks
and some say, once the UPT says +ve, u may go,
I've decided to do so a couple of days before i finish of my first trimester
i was at my 11th week, coming to 12 then

this is not the first time we went for checkups though
the first 2 was of course, done at 2 different pvt clinics
together with an ultrasound scan

as we have expected, it'll definitely be a long day for us
but no matter how mentally and physically prepared we are for the long hours,
little did we know, it'll take a toll on us
its not just about the long hours,
but its the numerous waiting for your name/number to be called

i'm not sure about other branches/state,
but the one i went in Klinik Ibu dan Anak in Masai,
for those first timers,
you were sent to numerous rooms for different stages of checkups

your first stage should be registering, of course
by 7.30, we're already at the half-packed KK
i straight went to the the registration counter,
hand them my I/C, and been told to wait for my name to be called

after 15 minutes, my name was called upon
the clerk passed me a number
and were asked to sit and wait

10 minutes passed by
my name were called again
they asked on where I'm staying
just to verify that I went to the right KK based on your residential area
they also asked when did we got married,
handed me 2 copies of 'buku merah' and were asked to hand the books to nurse in bilik 6
so i did

this is the most torturing part of the whole visit
they took almost 15 minutes for each patient
and there were at least 4 new cases patients before me

the thing is, the seats in front of Bilik 6 were very limited
what annoys me is there are some selfish individuals who just missed Civic lessons in their school days
the seats there are all occupied
which 2 of it were occupied by 2 men, which i believe were husbands of 2 of the ladies there

the thing is, im so ok with it as probably at that time, the place were no so jammed pack yet
but when you see 2 ladies, 1 heavily preggo, and another with a baby in her arms,
came in and had to stand as there's no seats available
these 2 men were being so arrogant and ignorant, did nothing!
oh come on!
those 2 ladies need those seats man!
so sick of it, despite of me being lightheaded and nauseous, i gave up my seat
bodoh lah mamat 2 ekor tu!
-___-"

after an hour seems like a year, my name were called
that's when the 'interview' took place
i was asked on husband's and my particulars,
oh yeah, they also requested to have a look on our sijil nikah
to verify that we're legally married
family and self history of illnesses and surgeries
any twins in the family traits
and what not

it wasn't that much right?
but what took most of that 15 minutes is,
they have to write the whole same essay, in both books!
just imagine, 2 copy of each details for each patient
no wonder it took forever!

being a programmer for the last 4+ almost 5 years now,
i felt like offering them a software to key in those details,
and let them print it 2 copies
so that they wouldnt have to waste their (drained) energy, writing those for each patient every freaking single day!

i wasn't mad at the nurses, as they were just carrying out their job, with much efficiency they could
but come on govt! you guys gotta speed up!
they ought to know by now that such procedure is such a waste on time and energy
update your system and procedures, pretty please?!

enuf on that
i was sent to bilik 9
to get my weight and height measured
and of course, my blood pressure
and all that took at least 15 minutes to be settled!

my next step was to get my urine and blood tested
so i were asked to head to the mini lab
waited for my turn to have the limited urine test bottle
which i were adviced to bring my own on the next visits
urine tested, an adequate amount of blood drawed,
it was quite a jiffy i must say
within 10 minutes, i'm out of there

were asked to send my blood sample to the lab
which is located at the next door building

by then, its already 11++
off we went to the lab
which to much relief, air-conditioned!
felt like i just entered heaven!
it was kinda stuffy back at the KK
waited about 10 minutes for the result,
and asked to send the results to bilik 7

which happened to be the longest wait. ever!
my husband found a comfy couch
and dozed beside another man
after what seems to be forever, my name were finally be called upon
only to be told to send my books to Bilik 1

by then, my blood went upstairs!
trying to chill, i walked slowly to Bilik 1, and passed the nurse my books
after 15 minutes, i was called in
its the dentist!
erkkk!!!!
i wasn't aware of this actually
but it went pretty well
no scary equipments used
they just simply check our mouth hygiene
make sure we brush our teeth properly and such
i was even adviced to see the gum specialist for my gum abnormalities
-___-"

once done, i were asked to head back to bilik 7, and waited again
sigh sigh sigh
another never ending waiting session
by then, i started to pace around
its 12.15 and we both are due to clock in at our office by 12.40
which by then, i know is impossible to be punctual
dear hubs has started to give me 'funny' stares as a sign of "I'll be late!"
what am i suppose to do?
it wasn't me who makes us both late!
neither do i blame the nurses
but its the system im mad at!

by 12.25, finally, my name were called in
and to my surprise, it was the best part of the whole visit!
this is when an experienced nurse checked your breasts,
part of your hair, checked for any glands at your neck
checked your stomach/womb
and measure them!
the lady was very gentle and so professional
there wasn't a single time i felt awkward or uneasy
and give you advices on being pregnant
the foods you should/shouldnt take, exercises you could do
importance of breastfeeding, post-natal care and such

by then, its already 12.45
we both are already late for work
hubs were mad, and i were stressed out
he decided to call it a day, but i on the other hand, felt is impossible for me to do so
i just started at my new workplace
i can't take leave just like that
so he dropped me off to work,
and he heads home

the prescription that i were handed earlier, i have to keep it aside
plan to get it some other time

and that, wraps our first visit for our antenatal appointment with KK
i was emotionally drained
too tired and too hungry to work
once i hit my desk, i took a breather
and head to the ladies, took off my scarves,
and showered my face with ice cold water
i felt much better, and continue my work

all in all, we had quite a bad experience for our first antenatal visit
dont get me wrong
this wasn't my first visit/appoinment at govt clinics
i've accompanied my mom to numerous specialists appointments at HSA
so I'm quite familiar with the waitings and all
but this time around, it felt different
me being pregnant, makes it all even worse!
i felt queasy all the way

i'm not sure if i could go through any more rounds of this
but looking at our financial constraints,
we couldnt afford to splurge on private hospitals deliveries
those once a month visit at private clinics for second opinion and scans are acceptable
but thousands on deliveries, i dont think so

therefore, i'm left with no choice, but to toughen up,
and bear with it!
May Allah be with us!

on a brighter note, all the waiting is totally worthwhile
i mean, no private clinics did such a thorough checkups right
plus, its free!

p/s: sayang, i hope u're happy with this entry. thanks for reminding me to update my blog! love ya!

The Best Gift on our 2nd Monthversary

2011-04-08T13:07:00.000+08:00

and the best part, its specially 'delivered' by Him

Syukur, Alhamdulillah
We're expecting
in another word, we're pregnant
:)

infact, we're hitting the second trimester now
Alhamdulillah
not that i did not want to share the news much earlier,
but first trimester was the toughest and most fragile period in pregnancy
so I'm afraid it would all just be a false alarm or such
but praise to Allah, it went pretty well

here, I'm about to share the moment we received the great news

well, we got to know this a couple of days before our 2nd monthversary
one fine evening, i saw some spotting on my pantiliners
earlier that day, i was busy carrying computers
that time, i'm still with my previous company
little that I knew, that I might be pregnant
hence, the working so hard

but once i saw the spots, it hit me!
maybe I AM pregnant!
did some research, and the possibilities are there
the tender breast
the cramps
the lightheaded and nauseous
yadda yadda
however, at that moment, my period is not due yet!
'____'

nevertheless, as soon as i got home from office that evening,
i did home UPT (Urine Pregnancy Test)
i just couldn't wait till the first pee on the next morning!
geeeeeeeeeeee
and a faint purple line appeared

I did read, if you could see 2 lines,
no matter its a solid or faint line,
it's considered positive.
at that moment, I was so overjoyed, couldn't do anything
kept myself cool n calm,
whipped up a mihun goreng for our dinner
and waited impatiently for my husband's return from office

as he entered the house
I let him settle down
but I just couldn't keep it to myself any longer
and I shoved him the UPT kit
all he could say was "ni ape maksudnye?"
guys....will be guys.... *sigh*
without a word, I showed him the manual
instantly, he screamed!

he just couldn't believe it
however, i did remind him not to get over-excited
as we need to get a practitioner to confirm it
hence, as much as he wanted to ring his mom,
I told him to keep composed
being overjoyed him,
it took him half an hour to actually bring himself to the bathroom for a bath
for the half an hour,
all he did was in and out of our room,
he said he just couldnt think straight
he knew he need to take a bath
but he couldnt remember that the reason he went out is to get his towel
and it took him quite a while to get it!

the next day,
first thing in the morning,
again, I did another UPT
this time, using clearblue
which is more exciting
as it shows the period since you conceived
;)

and with that,
I head to the nearest clinic to confirm
and the rest, is history

blunt

2011-03-25T07:50:00.000+08:00

my heart just sank the moment i heard those words
no words to describe how disappointed i am
if that person really means it, i shall swallow it with all the pride that i have left
and if that person doesn't, it still will left a mark in my heart
a terrible mark
and it'll remain there, as long as i could breath

the worst part, she had to witnessed it all
she's the last person on earth that I'd tell
I love her, but life does not revolves around me solely
letting her see all the tears that I had,
made me shed more tears
I'm sorry

18 feb 2011

2011-02-18T12:48:00.001+08:00

Its mama's 56th birthday
selamat ulang tahun mama!!!

we had a small celebration last nite
sleepover at anggerik

coincidently, nizam (our WP) just passed me our (long awaited) wedding DVD
however kt umah mama, takde dvd player
yeah! we're that old-fashioned!!!
bahahahha

so, me n sis decided to buy it then and there as mama's birthday gift
mlm tu, we watched it sambil makan birthday cake mama

it's really funny to watch urself on the screen
and hearing ur voice and listening to your 'lame' speeches
rase cam nk sorok muke bawah meja!
bahhahahh

its a good thing though that we got the dvd 2 months after the wedding
so that, when we almost forget about it,
watching the recording, makes it even more vivid
rase cam nk jdi pengantin lagi!!!!
and of course to the same groom! lol
i really missed those moments
rindu sgt2!!!!

oh, on another note,
today marks my last day here in Kem.pas Me.di.cal.Cen.tre
it has been a wonderful 4 years
and I'm ready to move on

bid farewell to most of the staffs,
and its not easy.
they're my first group of colleagues
gonna miss them

to nora,
I'm sorry that I have to leave
but I did this, only when I believe, u can cope
u will!
all the best! :)

p/s: i have 1 freaking week to experience a role of full-time housewife! will it be great??? lets see..... ;)

1 more week

2011-02-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

and I'll be gone!
yeayyyy
can't wait to quit the curent job

1 week jadi suri rumah tangga
then by march, new adventure awaits
hope everything will went well
InsyaAllah

oh. btw, I'm on 2 days medical leave
'____'
on a brighter note, longer weekend for me!
yeay!

Bila Hujan

2011-02-01T14:15:00.003+08:00

as ramai yg tau...
last weekend, hujan lebat di johor
we were literally stucked at home for the weekend
hujan tanpa henti sejak sabtu tghari

so by sunday tghari tu, air mula naik
banjir sana sini

so hari ahad tu, we spent the day at mak's
dh ujan memnjang tu, kejenye kt umah mak, makan jeeeeee
bfast dh pekena lontong
while waiting lunch time, mkn coklat, grapes, kerepek ubi pedas
for lunch lak, mkn nasi, singgang kerapu, bayam tumis, berulam tahu and tempe goreng
fuuuhhhhh...mmg sedap! muahahaha
gile buruk lantak kan?

hey bukan i sorg tau
seisi umah mkn bende yg sama ok!
hihihihi
sambil menguyah, kami tgk cuti² cinta, melodi and magika back to back
marathon la konon
eiceh

by 4 pm, we decided to make a move
nasib la our house and mak's tak jauh
and tak perlu redah banjir

dh dekat maghrib tu rase lapa la pulak
adoiyaiii
decided to whip something up
and came up with this

jemput² @ cokodok kentang

dgn teh o panas

dh sejuk² tu, kene la makan benda panas²

sambil tgk Chong Wei dikalahkan Lin Dan
'_________'

Reconcile

2011-01-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

rentetan dari hal semalam

my boss did reply my mail a while after
and he did clarify on things

and now, just to clear the air,
yeah....we're good
not that we weren't
but we did speak heart to heart this morning
and no heart feelings
Alhamdulillah

and to make it even better,
I just got icing on the cake

syukur Alhamdulillah

may we have a Tea-rific year too!!!!
:-)

Letter of Disappointment

2011-01-27T10:14:00.003+08:00

I just wrote one to the director

Call me mengada,
but I just couldn't keep it up inside
I could do it face to face, he just went off
I could do it via phone, I knew he's in a middle of an errand
so, I wrote him a 'love' email
just to let if out of my system!

dont worry
no harsh words
just my 2 cents, in polite words

I am disappointed
I knew, I had resigned
but I did agreed to prolonged my service here
even for a month
it should be a deal

and do correct me if I'm wrong
a deal is not a deal unless 2 party did get something beneficial out of the terms
in which for this case, I didn't get any

I'm disappointed. totally
I've never had major issues with the company or management for the past 4 years
they had treated me good
and I had to say this, I did enjoyed working here

but now, as I'm ending my service here,
I felt...urm....unappreciated
out of sudden, they neglected me.
and how fair is that?

p/s: ikutkan aku, ade yg aku cabut je ni kang. masuk keje baru 1st feb ni....lagi bagus kan?

Over the weekend!

2011-01-24T08:30:00.012+08:00

syukur alhamdulillah
my fever subsides by friday evening
but am still in progress of finishing up the antibiotics

so wiken aritu
ok. for the next few weeks
sampai end of feb,
my wiken actually refers to saturday
ONLY saturday

coz im working on sunday, remember?
but InsyaAllah, by March,
I'll start off my new job
nearer to our home
and its 5 days working
woooohhhoooooo!!!!
seems like ages since i had my sundays by myself
am totally looking forward to enjoy my 'real' weekends! :)

in the meantime, i'll suck it up :(

so last saturday,
ingat dpt la nk bangun lambat kannnn
oh mmg tak dpt laaaa
myPerson is a morning person
pas subuh, tido blk
then kol 8 dia dh bangun, and put on Step Up dvd
mcm mane laaa i nk terus tdo ble dgr lagu beat² gitu kan
Step Up with a toast of butter and strawberry jam
best! :)

right after, kemas² umah
mcm biasa, those weekly routines lah kan
salin cadar, mop, vacuum and such
then prepare lunch

what we had for lunch?

clock wise : sambal belacan, kari ikan bawal, pedal goreng, kobis + tahu telur

this kinda meal, hanya boleh available seminggu sekali je di rumah kami

I had to agree with his deal of once a week rice menu

so hari lain, mmg tak de la lauk pauk bagai

ptg tu, smbl tgk Dil Se (can u believe that its him who insisted on watching that?!),
dia terigt yg dia dh mkn byk tadi,
ajak i gi jogging
after asar, around 5.15 gitu,
bersiap lah kami

kami beriadah dkat je ngan umah
kt Seri Alam
ade tasik, jog track, playground
angin lak sepoi2 bahasa...
syiokkkkk

tapiiiiiiiiiiii, actually,

my sneakers tertinggal kt umah mama
lupe nak bawak ke umah
with this, camne lah i nk jog kan?????

dia je yg jog,
me? as u can see, i jln², amik gamba itu ini
jadi his ~~papa~~mamarazi

hihihihihi
so here are some of it

melayan photographer suruh JUMP!

style gak laki aku ni..hihihi

he blabs, i snap!

no sweat, man!

a glimpse of light!

takde sape nk amikkan gamba i....booo hooooo :(

my man!

oh yeah. since i didnt have my sneakers, he rang his BFF to join him. meet hadi!

nampak je i nak snap, terus lari cam poyo! pfffttttt

ade gaya cam auw auw auuuuwwwwwwwwwww... erk!

the one who stole my heart <3

percubaan utk lompat. i just had to put this up, cos they looked real funny!

my man on his hands, while his bff, in the air....tinggi kot mamat tu lompat!

eh eh...tu ape kepit handbag tu?!

kasi chan laa weiiiiiiii...org baru baik demam ni! '_________'

not well

2011-01-21T13:34:00.001+08:00

at the clinic!
'________'

I'm down with fever last night
I was well all along
sempat mkn nasi lemak by mak (MIL)
oh yeah. we had a sleepover at mak's place last night
as dear myPerson went off for futsal with his friends,
I stay at home, watching Kayangan

habis je Kayangan, I rasa mcm seram sejuk
satu badan tetiba mcm sakit2
sengal2.....
rasa nk kene demam urat...

sempat text myPerson, and doze off
sedar2 ade org kiss dahi, with a glass of water on a hand and a pill on the other

pastu, I had trouble sleeping
pusing sini tak kena, pusing sana tak kena
myPerson being such a sweetheart, urut sana sini
kesian dia...tak pepasal dia pon tak dpt nk tdo
kejap2, i terjaga, tgk dia pon terjaga
he'll usap2, tepuk2 i mcm bobok kan baby :)
love u syg!

and pagi ni, he initially took half day off
konon nk hantar i g klinik
tp mak offered to bring me
so instead of following us, he stayed home
tau2, dia amik cuti terus! :)

so td g klinik, ngan mak
nothing serious
just demam biasa
but with ulcers all over my mouth,
it makes it slightly worse la

and yeah
I've been introduced to folic acid
one of the much needed vitamins for those yg trying to conceive
nk tau kebaikan dia, google sendiri la k

k lah
pening dah
nk tidoooooooo

hopefully, by the time myPerson got back from solat,
I'll be ok
nak balikkkkkkkk
eh nk g tesco dulu
nk beli groceries sikit

n kalau dh betol ok,
untung2, dpt tgk khurafat tonight!
;)

rilek la!

2011-01-18T17:35:00.003+08:00

baru sebulan kawin kot?
lek laaaa

i yg rilek ni tak pepasal stress sbb org keliling
we're definitely enjoying each other's companion
adjusting to the new environment and responsibilities are sure not an easy task

but we're coping ok

xmo la bagi komen yg bukan²
bottom line, kami tak plan!
ade rezeki, ade laaaa

jgn la buat andaian sendiri
jgn la ckp bende yg menyakitkan hati
jgn la luah ape yg tak patut
apetah lagi yg berbau sindiran yg menyentuh privasi kami
'_____'

sekadar hiasan

p/s: sedih! :-(

Resepi 2 - Nasi Ayam

2011-01-17T08:00:00.001+08:00

ari sabtu aritu,
tinggal sesorg kt umah
terasa mcm suri rumah pulak
plus, its our first weekend yg dok umah
sblm ni ade je program ke sana sini

so ni ade peluang dok umah,
i ambil kesempatan utk feel suri rumah
dr pagi, dok kemas satu umah
mop and vacuum bagai
cuci baju, cadar, telekung, towel etc
fuuuuuhhh...mmg pnat
siapa kata suri rumah ni goyang kaki huh huh huh????

setel semua, terasa cam nk masak
nk masak nasi
tu yg terhasil Nasi Ayam tu
:)

here's how i did it k
ni utk dikongsi n as my reference in the future jugak!

Sup Ayam

Bahan-bahan
1/4 bhgn ayam
1/2 biji bawang besar *
3 ulas bwg putih *
1/2 inci halia *
1 kiub Maggi Chicken Stock
Air
Garam
daun sup
daun bawang

Cara-cara
1. Blend kering bahan *
2. Lebur semua bahan dalam periuk, and renih dgn api kecil. tambah garam secukup rasa
3. hiris daun sup n daun bawang sblm hidang

Note: air tu biar lebih. akan diguna utk nasi pula

Sambal Nasi Ayam

Bahan-bahan
5 ulas bawang putih *
4 tangkai lada merah *
sebiji jus limau kasturi / cuka
garam
gula

Cara-cara
1. Blend basah bahan * dan tuang dlm mangkuk
2. campur jus limau. tambah garam dan gula secukup rasa.
3. tambah air kalau terlalu pekat

Nasi Ayam

Bahan-bahan
1 pot beras basmathi (biasa pon boleh cuma basmathi, berasnye panjang²)
1/2 biji bawang besar *
3 ulas bwg putih *
1/2 inci halia *
1 btg halia dititik
Air rebusan ayam
1 sudu butter (kalau ada)
sedikit minyak

Cara-cara
1. Cuci beras, and rendam beras at least 10 minit. (tips yg mmg i amalkan utk nasi berperisa eg: nasi lemak, beriani, minyak etc) Tos selepas 10 minit
2. Blend bahan *
3. Tumis bahan yg di blend dan serai dgn sedikit minyak n butter smpai kekuningan...kalau tak perlu minyak, tak payah..kang oily sgt.
4. masukkan beras. goreng perlahan smpai sekata, n beras jd kekuningan sikit. (jgn kacau sgt. takut beras pecah)
5. sukat air rebusan dalam rice cooker's pot (utk basmathi, 1 pot nasi = 2 pot air) rase air rebusan tu. make sure air tu masin mcm air laut (memang nk kasi masin sikit). on kan rice cooker, biar air rebusan terus mendidih dlm cooker.
6. bila air dlm cooker dh menggelegak and beras dh kekuningan, masuk beras dlm cooker. and biar masak.

Ayam Goreng / Bakar

Bahan-bahan
Ayam yg dh direbus utk sup tadi
1/2 biji bawang besar *
3 ulas bwg putih *
1/2 inci halia *
Serbuk lada hitam kasar
Oyster Sos
serbuk kunyit
garam
honey

Cara-cara
1. blend bahan *
2. lumur bahan * dan bahan yg lain kecuali honey
3. last sekali baru lumur honey
4. perap selama yg mungkin
5. bakar atau goreng! tak perlu lama sgt. sbb ayam kan dh masak masa direbus utk sup tadi. ni goreng hanya utk kasi bahan perapan tu makin resap je. honey tu buat ayam nmpak berkilat @ glazy!

Happy Birthday Hubster!

2011-01-16T08:15:00.002+08:00

ok.
ni lambat update
almaklum, rumah blom ade line tenet
ni pon tumpang kt umah MIL
haru betul dpt menantu mcm ni
dh la jenguk umah mak seminggu bape kali je
asal balik, dok tenung laptop je...
hik hik

btw, last fri, 14 Jan, was myPerson's birthday
for the first time, for the last almost 5 years,
i tak plan ahead

mentang² dh kawin, kalau tak beli hadiah pon takpe
lagi pon dh bape kali i tanye dia nk hadiah ape
dia akan ckp "xpe...x pyh hadiah dah...ni kt depan ni lah hadiah paling 'besar'..."
haih...mcm mane lah saya tak jatuh cinta dgn awak??!!!
suke tau wat ayat2 manis gitu... ''___''

anyhoo, takkan la i wat dunno je on his bday kan
dh la first bday as my dear husband kan

so i buat la something 'surprise sikit' utk dia...

jumaat tu, diam², i amik half day
cuak betol masa tu
ye la...dh la tak mintak izin nk cuti dr suami
pastu boleh lagi legar² beli brg kt tesco
masa tu tawakal je byk²
betol takut sbb keluar tanpa izin suami.. :(
tp sbb btol² nekad nk wat surprise utk dia.....

takmolah citer detail sgt
fast forward ke masa dia blk

supposedly dia abis keje 5.30
so kalau betol on time, 5.45-5.50, dia akan smpai umah
so by that time, i dh ready dh kt umah
selang 30 saat, i tiptoed ke pintu umah
ngendap kt pintu tgk dia dh smpai belom

sekali kol 6 dia call, tanye i dh kt umah belom
cos dia baru nk kua opis... '__'
haih...pnat je i excited sesorg

dgr dia kate gitu
i lepak² jap tgk tv suria..ade tom tom bak masa tu

tunggu punye tunggu...
tepat pukul 6.23, org yg dinanti smpai

i dgr dia dh smpai dpn pintu

tp i lek je dulu
kasi dia tenung ni dulu

dh lama i impikan saat ni
i mean the moment that i could by a card
that says "My Husband"

tapi rupenye, tak byk kad utk birthday suami eh
i searched high and low for such card
kebykan is for anniversary...
yg ade ni pon cam tak bape cantik
tapi i rembat je coz its the only card yg i jumpe
ade perkataan "birthday" and "husband".. :)

bile dia ketuk pintu, baru i bukak
sengih² member smbil pegang kad tu
hihihih

masuk² umah, he was welcomed with this

he was....surprised!
truly surprised cos he said he'd never thought i'd do all this for him
;)

later while he got changed
i hidangkan our special dinner
which are all his favourite!
the menu?

jemput-jemput @ cekodok as starter

pic: googled (lupe nk snap)

roti jala and kari ayam for the main dish

excuse the messiness...dh separuh jln mkn baru teringat nk snap... '__'

and of course, a slice of chocolate and blueberry cheese cake each for dessert

there's nothing more serene than
a sight of your dear birthday husband
enjoying a meal,
specially prepared by you
~~pulak tu tak habis² puji kata sedap~~

and that, makes him a happy man!

i love you so much syg
many happy days and years to come
:-)

p/s: my phone's camera menunjukkan tanda² negatif lately ni...gamba makin blur. tak mcm 8MP langsung! tak kuasa lak nk kuarkan slr semata²...haih

Resipi 1 - Kentang goreng kicap

2011-01-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

ciqot!
bah...di atas suggestion ko kt fb
buat julung-julung kalinye (eicewah)
aku share resepi pertama kt sini
hehehhe

as I've mentioned before,
my dear hubster kalau boleh, xnk mkn nasi for dinner
so its definitely a (fun) adventure for me to fikir what to serve for dinner

and last night,
i made kentang goreng kicap
senang je nk buat ni
bahan yg nk guna pon simple² je
takde yg pelik

ni i bg resipi utk 2 org makan la eh
nk buat lbih, pepandai korg la gandakan k

2 biji kentang
3 batang cili padi *
3 ulas bwg putih *
ikan bilis 2 cubit (agak²) *
1 biji bawang besar (yg kecik je) dihiris
sebiji telur
kicap
garam

cara dia:
1. kupas kentang, potong kecik (mcm bite size gitu), goreng hingga perang. jgn hangus! and tos kan la yea
2. sementara tunggu kentang digoreng, blend kan bahan² *
3. tumis bahan yg dh blender hingga garing sikit. jgn pakai minyak byk sgt tau...minyak kt kentang pon dh byk...so, kurang² kan la ape yg patut dikurang k...
4. tambah garam secukup rasa
5. masuk bawang yg dihiris. i tak suke layu sgt. so tak payah tunggu lama
6. masuk kentang yg dh digoreng. kacau serba sikit. jgn smpai kentang hancur/benyek lak
7. tambah kicap. kuantiti ikut suka la eh...kalau bole, kasi hitam sikit...
8. finally, masukkan telur yg dh dikacau dulu. then kacau sebati. biar telur masak sikit, then siap!

smlm weols mkn ni dgn roti
wat mcm sandwich gitu
tp tak payah la toast roti tu dulu
nk mkn ngan nasi pon bole la kot

sorry la...smlm masa masak tak terpikir lak nk share kt blog
so takde la amik gambar bagai kan
btw, ni gambar yg i jumpe, ikhsan google
that looked ALMOST mcm yg i masak smlm

yg ni ikan bilis nye tak di blend...good idea jugak kan...goreng dulu ikan bilis tu, mesti krap krup... style ni mkn ngan nasi, mcm best! :)

yg ni ade tambah tempe...tp kalau mkn ngan roti, muak kot. with nasi, sesuai! tambah kacang panjang, lg best kot...

btw, it is myPerson's first time mkn bende ni smlm
and he loved it!
dia suke mkn gitu je
berebut² kitorg smlm

mcm dh tak cukup
tp bile berdua ni
lebih baik tak cukup dari terlebih
kang membazir lak
heheheheh

so kalau korang rajin,
try la eh resipi yg tak seberapa ni...
hehehhehe

and kalau sesape yg ade idea
any dish yg simple
yg tak bukan base dgn nasi, share la eh
kalau malas nk share resepi,
just drop the name/brief description of the dish
kalau rajin, pandai2 la i cari or experiment sendiri.. ;)

Finally

2011-01-12T13:15:00.003+08:00

I can come out clean
no more beating around the bush

this shall explain those status 'tergantung' that i left on my fb
a couple of times for the past week
which I've deleted
as I'm afraid that someone might sense the 'something-is-not-right' thingie
I did invi it from them
but still, masih rase insecure, so i deleted it

well, if I could still remember those
it went something like this

1. its my second time doing this. am i ready?

2. rezeki oh rezeki

3. I'm nervous. its my first time. ever!
4. berdebar gile rase....dup dap dup dap. can't wait to vent it out! '__'

ok!
something like that lah
and those status, triggered a 'commotion'
only to one issue

kononnye I'm preggo!
as much as I wish that's the news that I want to blurt out,
its NOT!
at least, not yet laaa
its hard to tell now la kan
as my 'bestfriend' just paid me a visit, exactly on our bertandang reception
so, plus minus, though kami dh kawin sebulan,
its impossible for us to 'bunting pelamin'
so, dream on guys! '___'

ok ok
if I'm not prego, then what?

actually, I've resigned from my current company!
dh 4 tahun ok i keje kt tmpat skg
4 years on my first ever job
with my one and only employer to date!
tu la dia

as status no. 1
it refers to the interviews that i went to
in searching for a new job!

its my second time attending interviews
first was for SPA for the post Pegawai IT
which i got accepted, but then, I turned down the offer
with some reasons, that only I understand
others (read: family) knows, but just couldn't understand

at that moment, I've been with the current company for 3 years to date
oh yeah. keje skrg ni, i tak interview pon
i came here for my internship
and they offered me a job during my final exams
which i instantly accepted! :)

and so, this time around,
I went for three interviews
which I carefully and personally shortlist myself
one in Pasir Gudang, another in Permas Jaya and the other in Kempas
if u're a JBians, u can see the locations that i've picked
one near to in-law, another near to my parents and the one in PJ is somewhere in between
very strategically planned ;)

and, syukur Alhamdulillah
I succeeded on all 3 interviews
all 3 companies offered me the position
which, explains the status no.2
rezeki baru berkahwin :)

and as for status no. 3,
it is my first time ever to resign!
without having decided which company I shall move on to,
I resigned! gile kan?
it just shows how bad I want to move on to another company

nevertheless, to write a resignation letter to a company
that has thought me, and brought me to who i am today,
is definitely not easy!
as much as i love working here,
its time to move on. '__'

all this process, I did it silently,
behind my colleague's back
I did not blurt out any single clue to her
that i'm in the middle of looking for a new job
or attending interviews
or even writing a resignation letter
mind you, this whole process, started a couple of weeks before I got married

and thus, last monday
referring to status no. 4
I decided to come out clean
and tell her everything
it didn't went quite well
lots of drama and tears involved
I totally understand her feeling as I've went the whole same situation before
when my previous leader resigned

and as for now,
she'd accepted the fact that I'm leaving (I guess)
and now, for this 2 months, I'll be even more busy
hope this transition period will go smoothly
and end soon!

to my new company,
please be good to me
and I definitely hope for the best
for my future
and of course, my dear family! :)

11.1.11 - It marks our 1st month ya'll!

2011-01-11T13:15:00.009+08:00

Ana Rafali menang Juara Lagu?
rezeki dia... :)
redha je laaaa
watched smpai Hujan perform je
tup tup terus terlelap

sedar² je tgk dh gelap and sunyi
siap kejut hubster, bebel² nape tak tgk ajl
muahahahaha
upenye dh kol 2 kot masa tu
org tu tgh tido, i paksa bgn, nk tau result
adoiyaiiii...nasib u lah dear, dpt isteri gini....

yo yo yo!!!
arini 11.1.11

dh 1 bulan yo kami hidup sbg suami isteri
dats quite a number of '1' there. lol!

syukur Alhamdulillah
so far, so good
pertelingkah kecil, merajuk, memujuk tu masih terjadi
yeah, it still happens '__'

biasa la tu kan
angin kus² tu susah betol nk berpisah dgn i...
tp of cos la bile dh kawin ni, bile dipujuk tu, best!
ngehehhee...tettttttttt!!!!

muahahahahha
sorry sayang.... <3

btw, on another note, kami sudah officially moved in to our new crib
dh 3 mlm dh, since saturday, 8 Jan
Alhamdulillah,
though its not completely complete yet, kami bersyukur
dpt jugak kami berdikari

though mase tu dh nk hampir sebulan kami bergelar suami isteri yg sah
tak pe la....its never too late to start a new life kan
yg penting, kami dh usaha... :)

and since then, I dh berjaya masak maggi,
mihun goreng singapore and jemput² ikan bilis for tea break
nuggets, hotdogs and omelette for breakfast

i'm starting real slow here
belom berkesempatan utk masak nasi n lauk pauk yet
hubs is on no-rice diet
tu yg masak simple² je dulu
tp bile pegi umah org, hidang nasi, dia belasah je... T__T

nevertheless, I'm so looking forward to present more variety foods on our dining ~~table~~ box/stool
yeap...kami masih makan di atas kotak
its fun...really!!! u should try it! '__'
ngeh!!!

Update on Our 'so-called-Casa'

2011-01-06T13:10:00.005+08:00

this was last week

kami berpiknik di rumah sendiri
ye lah...umah kosong lagi masa tu...
maka nye, makan atas lantai je laaa
beralaskan kadbod
kalau ayah tgk ni, kompem dia terus belikan dining table. as if!!!!
pffffftttttttt..hihihi

masa tu ari isnin
kt tmn rinting ade pasar malam,
so tapau tahu bakar, kuih bakar and drinks
singgah umah sewa jap, nk kemas serba sikit

keje i, ni

pasang langsir
sliding door sebesar alam
bende ni la yg paling penting sebelom kite 'isi' kan umah
kang org sekodeng, mana kite tau kan kan kan

and him, dh name lelaki kan...
tang ni la yg paling dia pentingkan...

ni pon dh menggeletis, takde astro
it just happens that masa ni laaa astro konon nk update system
so though dh register, we have to wait myb for another 1-2 months for the installation
lambat gils...takpe...
dok jb ni, cenel spore pon dh cukup best!

btw, the main purpose of this entry
is nk post yg fridge and washing machine dh sampai!!!!

woottt wooottttt
pegh...tu pon nk kecoh kan?
mcm laaa dpt TV LED 80"...(eh..ade ke? ;p)

berhempas pulas kami memasang berdua smlm
we bought em in JJ
the thing is, diorg hanya deliver, tak tolong pasang
tu la masalahnye
i mmg dh tau benda ni
tp rezeki kami, someone gave us JJ voucher as wedding gift
so we decided to use it for bende besar mcm ni
snang nk igt... :)

advice to others,
personally, i rase, benda sebesar and mahal mcm ni,
elakkan la beli kt pasaraya besar
better beli kt kedai2 lektrik biasa je
sebab dpt tawar harge
plus, untung², dpt free gift
bukan takat downy and dynamo, silap², rice cooker pon bole dpt tau...
nnt kalau ade prob pon, snang nk deal kalao dgn kedai biasa
kalau dh pasaraya gitu, asek berpassing² je la nanti
'___'

plus, korg mungkin tak akan kene drama
"esok baru kami hantar, driver balik awal lah kak"
bile dh esok, "esok baru dpt hantar, driver tak nak hantar mlm"
stresssss haku!!!!
len kali, ckp je "tahun depan baru kami hantar kak".. "__"

and after dekat sejam,
berpeluh ketiak berdua,
terhasillah ini

my favourite space in the house
biasa la...perempuan kannn
bak kata org² tua,
perempuan, blaja tinggi mana pon, akhirnye, ke dapur jua.... '__'

tp masih belom beli cabinet/meja
tgk laaa...rice cooker and thermos pot, masih atas lantai

nampak kan dapur gas kt tepi kanan tu....
tu bukan hiasan je tauuuu
sbb kan kitorg ni jakun gile,
dan dan tu gak try machine
basuh 1 set of bedsheet

so sementara nk tunggu siap basuh,
kite panaskan la ~~enjin~~ stove
presenting, our first home-cooked meal

maggie mamee Xtra pedas letak telur and hotdog
Ya Allah...its the best meal we've ever had....
sumpah sedap gileeeee
hihihhihhihi.... ;)

ciqot...ko igt tak periuk tu...
maybe sbb periuk tu kot, yg maggi aku sedap...
hehehehehe

Hantaran utk Perempuan

2011-01-05T13:15:00.003+08:00

Alkisahnya, hiasan hantaran dr lelaki utk perempuan
juga disetel oleh abg planner ku yg sgt berdedikasi

but since this is an additional thing,
tak pakai fresh flower
and the theme is Red & Silver/White

straight to the point je lah k
so here goes

1. Sirih Junjung (ade story sikit. bace smpai bwh)

2. Cincin, Rantai and Mas Kahwin

3. Kek

4. Chocolates

5. Telekung, Set Al-Quran & Tasbih

6. Camera & Jam Tangan

7. Perfume Set

nk dijadikan cerita,
this sirih junjung (pic bawah ni), is suppose to be as part of the hantaran

However, biasalah kan...
dlm setiap majlis, ade je yg tetibe nk sponsor itu ini
and insisted to be used as the main hantaran
and kes sirih junjung ni is one of it

ade makcik/kawan my MIL dh offer nk buat
and my MIL tak sampai hati nk tolak
sbb kononnye dia dh beli brg² utk wat sirih junjung tu

and on the other hand, Abg Nizam pon dh order the fresh flowers
unfortunately, those order tak boleh cancel

so, we decided to use the sirih junjung by Abg Nizam for kakak's engagement
initially, mmg dh ade org nk buatkan akak
luckily, that person belom beli brg and tak kesah if we cancel it
so, that explain why sirih junjung tu, out of theme
'__'

Hantaran utk Lelaki

2011-01-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

mari update blog dgn kisah perkahwinan
so that I'll have a note on my wedding
which i can show to my kids yadda yadda

first of, kite citer pasal hantaran utk lelaki
since we hired a planner
makanye, hantaran pon dibuat oleh planner
the theme is Purple/Yellow
all using fresh flowers

total hantaran is 7 berbalas 9
mmg dh fix dr awal lagi
walaupon barang lebih, we decided to combine them

so here goes the gifts from bride to groom

1. Sirih Junjung

2. Cincin & Potpourri

3. Kek

4. Buah-buahan

5. Chocolates

6. Perfumes

7. Shirt

8. Wallet & Belt

9. Sneakers

******************************************************************

and this is the overview of all 9 gifts

excuse my mom yg dok tenung hantaran tu
she kept on complaining dia tak dpt tgk (read: tenung and belek) hantaran tu lama²

Al-kisahnya, hantaran² tu selamat sampai my house pukul 2 pagi 11 Dec tu
ye la..kan pakai fresh flowers...
makanya, mlm 10 dec tu baru diorg buat
and i mmg ckp hantar kt i bile dh siap je
i taknak diorg buat kt my house
kabut jadi nye kang

so masa abg nizam hantar tu, org lain semua dh tido
i sorg je terjaga (of coz la abg nizam col dulu kan)
dgn tgh berinai nye i bukak gate sesorg
nasib ade my aunt pon tgh tdo² ayam masa tu,
so dia tolong susunkan sekali

then pagi tu kan dah kelam kabut bersiap semua
so masing² tak sempat nk dok telek n belek hantaran tu
tup tup dh selamat ke tgn pihak lelaki

but after all, kami berpuas hati dgn gubahan tu
:-)

Nervous

2010-12-27T14:50:00.000+08:00

It's my first time ya'll
Its a major decision
It's a huge step
to embark to a new journey

what makes me nervous?
things will change
my routine will change
the way we manage things will be different

yg paling membuatkan i takut,
is my family
I've told them
so far, I've received nothing but positive feedbacks

tp itu sekarang...
masa things are A OK
what if something happened, and they come to realise,
I couldn't be 'on-call' to them anymore?
will they regret?
will they 'ungkit'?
will they question back my decision?
idk

for now, sgt nervous.
tapi excited.
can't wait to get over with it

p/s: couldn't reveal it here, just yet. ade hati yg perlu di jaga. once it's final, and the truth is out, baru i reveal it here.

kelam kabut

2010-12-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

diam tak diam, esok genap 2 minggu kami sah sbg suami isteri
mcm tak percaya!
so far, semua nya ok
Alhamdulillah

cuma hidup kami masih agak kelam kabut sedikit
since majlis bertandang, kami stay di rinting
bile lunch hour, i akan balik anggerik
jenguk mama n ayah

diorg mmg pesan, rajin² la jenguk diorg time tghari.. '__'
sedih hati ni bile mama ckp mcm tu....
so i berusaha utk balik tghari
n tolong kemas pape yg patut
walau mata ngantok gile, badan penat gile
takpe lah...selagi mampu, i buat...

kami masih belum berpindah ke rumah sewa
hanya masukkan brg je
syukur hadiah kahwin haritu, byk dpt household appliances
I thought akan dpt byk bedsheet
tp malangnye, hanye 1 yg kami dpt...
nampak nye, kene beli sendiri...hihihi

antara hadiah lain yg kami dpt,
rice cooker, blender, toaster, kipas, iron, sandwich maker, coffee maker, boiler,
dapur gas, segala jenis periuk, canister, mangkuk, pelbagai jenis gelas/cawan, jam dinding,
and byk lagi
semuanya amat kami hargai, as we can use it for our home nnt
Thank You semua!!
brg² tu semua sudah selamat di rumah sewa kami

hari tu, set bilik tidur pon dh smpai
tv and home theatre set pon kami dh setup

skrg cuma tinggal nk beli washing machine and fridge je
siap hantar rumah, baru kami rasa yakin nk duduk situ
eh eh...kene tunggu si suami khatam surah al-Baqarah di rumah tu dulu...
meanwhile, mama ingatkan utk isi rumah dgn beras, gula dan garam dulu
InsyaAllah

tp semua tu terpaksa ditangguh buat masa skrg
mama sakit!
demam panas sangat...smpai cecah 40degrees
tp masih belum mahu serah diri ke hospital
so smlm kami bermalam di anggerik
sedih sgt tgk mama
mama pon setiap kali i lap bdn dia, dia akan nangis
mana laaaa i tak nangis sekali...

kesian si suami terpaksa redah jln yg jauh utk gi kerja
hari masih gelap, dia dh keluar rumah
terharu sangat......love u syg!

up to now, mama masih demam
bile ingat dh nk kebah, suhu naik balik
tak menentu
by ptg ni, kalau masih lebih 38, i akan call ambulance
tak nak tanye dia lagi!
sorry mama. i have to do it.
tapi harap², tak perlu
pray for her k!

atok pon masok hospital di pontian
semput...tak tau bile kami dpt melawat
maybe wiken ni

ayah chik at Tan Tock Seng, Spore
Selasa mlm aritu, kami pergi melawat
kol 1 pagi, kami smpai umah..
penat and ngantok gile!
esoknye kerja seperti biasa....sigh.....
2 of my loved ones are already warded
harap² mama tidak menyusul
betol² berharap ni....

see how tak terurus nye kami?
rutin hidup i belom jadi rutin lagi
hari², rutinnya berubah²
so, to me, kami masih belom settle down
as much as we wanted to, keadaan tak mengizinkan

wiken ni majlis tunang my cousin brother
harap² semuanya berjalan lancar
harap² mereka yg sakit ni, akan sembuh
InsyaAllah

p/s: deep down inside, I do hope by 1st Jan, we managed to settle down in our home sweet home....kinda tired of living out of backpack now.... '__'

Today

2010-12-16T16:55:00.001+08:00

smlm kene ujan
and today demam + flu + cough
pakej terbaik ah!

suppose to keje arini
but 11.30 dh tak tahan,
gi klinik, dpt MC
from klinik terus blk anggerik
sempat tido for a couple of hours
then my dearest abg planner kejut
mintak I fitting baju

went to his bridal,
alhamdulillah, the dress fits me well
tetibe tak sabar nk sanding lagi!
gedik kan? bahahhaha

then, shoot to rinting
my husband's family place
igt nk tolong pape yg patut
tp cam takde kerja sgt
ni yg sempat online ni

kt luar, org tgh sibuk pasang khemah
nizam n team, pasang pelamin
hopefully nizam will do a great job mcm dia buat at my place
I'll do a review on him n team nnt k
its a promise

as for now, for JB brides
yg masih tercari2 bridal or even a wedding planner
do drop by Nizam Zary Wedding Artistic k
kedai dia kt Setia Tropika
opposite ZZ Sup Tulang

i sgt2 recommend them!
wait for my review k?
especially on my Arabian Wedding

k lah
nk gi tgk ape progress kt luar
till then, toodles!

Alhamdulillah

2010-12-15T11:31:00.000+08:00

selamat bertukar title pd 11 Dis tepat jam 11.42am
syukur semuanya berjalan lancar

as for now, I'm still living from luggage
kejap sana, kejap sini
smpai agak lost track baju tinggal kat mana
pffftttt

perasaan? of course HAPPY!
byk kali ckp kt hubster, "cam tak caya kite dh sah"
serius!
tgk inai di jari baru yakin diri ini dh bernikah
lol!

hari ni dh masuk keje
cepat kan?
nnt i'll update the details
here's me on my reception

Kluang & Spore over the weekend

2010-12-09T08:30:00.000+08:00

ok.makin lama, makin tak berupdate
adat la tu kan

makin nk dekat ni, makin byk bende remeh yg perlu dibuat
and of course, DIBELI!!!!
duit mcm air!!! *sigh*

last wiken, ari sabtu, we went to Kluang

to attend majlis Ceq Rose
sesat barat jugak lah kami!
anyone nk hadiahkan GPS?
muahahhaha

long story short,
gamba je la k

blk dari tu, supposedly, nk ajak mama, ayah n akak
tgk our house
tp, cancel last minute

so we went for furniture hunting
Yippeeeeeee

memula igt nk survey je
sekali terbeli terus sbb we get great deal from the uncle
yg penting, free delivery! muahahahha

kami beli kedai biasa² je
survey cavenzi, tapi dia charge 60 utk delivery,
plus, stock kene tunggu 2 minggu
no good!

btw, we managed to grab bedroom set and kitchen cabinet
itu je yg kami beli dulu
next in line is fridge and washing machine
these should come first!
tp tak jumpe yg berkenan
tu yg proceed ke furniture tu
takpe..pelan²

then on sunday, its my cousin, Farhan's birthday and engagement day!

so off we shoot to spore by 9 am
Alhamulillah...traffic adelah sgt smooth
stakat queue kt custom je

smpat jln2 kt AMK Hub
rambang mata woooo tgk Xmas Sale diorg

deco tak yah cite laaa
ni baru stakat AMK Hub
belom lagi orchard road sana...

makan adelah sedap2 belaka di sana
i ni mcm bukan org yg nak kawin
i eat like there's no tomorrow
makcik la ni...masak sedap sgt!
I'll blame her if I cant fit in my dresses!
nizam marah i, i marah dia!
muahahahah

blk dr spore ptg tu, dh kol 630
tp i paksa jugak diorg g tgk umah kami
kalau tak bile lagi kan?

Alhamdulillah, they loved it too
ntah eh
I takut sgt kalau diorg tak berkenan ke ape
cuma ayah pesan, kalau ade budak dtg,
jaga2 la kat corridor tu sbb palang nye mcm jarak2 and agak rendah
lain² ok!
suke suke suke!!!!

as for now, lagi 2 hari ni,
I'm trying hard to get adequate sleep
try real hard not to get stressed out
cos takut kene ulcer! pfffttttt!!!
byk kali myPerson igtkan jgn stress...heeeee

on another note,
masih mcm tak percaya I'm getting married
bgn pagi, tgk barang2 bersepah kt umah,
cam terkejut jap
lama sikit, baru terfikir, eh, aku nak kawin la!!!
gedik kan?
bahahahhaha

Single Ladies vs One in a Million

2010-12-06T10:24:00.002+08:00

earlier this year,
we've been watching a number of grand entrance
with Beyonce's Single Ladies blasting the hall
of course, its by the ladies

well, guys, watch out!
I bet this One in a Million by Ne-Yo
gonna get us sweeeeeeeeping yall!!!!
LOVE it!

anyway, enjoy!

I'd prefer this than the original video clip
sbb yg ori tu ade pompuan sexy mexy
yg ni, this girl is just so normal, but cute!
siap ade move sikit at the end part! :)

p/s:dear, ade berani tak nk kumpul ur guys to do this?oh crap. no more time la!

in 5 days!

2010-12-06T08:56:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah
so far so good
but of course, towards last minute ni la
mcm² benda nk kene buat
nk kene touch up

last weekend was a hectic one

will update on that later one I've transferred the pics

5 days...
tak sabar!
:)

sudah satu digit yaw!

2010-12-01T13:15:00.006+08:00

fuh fuh fuuuhhhhhhh
9 days to go
susah nk percaya...tapi...PERCAYALAH!!!

tak dinafikan, up to now,
selisih faham, pertengkaran kecil, masih berlaku
stress is in the air yaw!

tapi biasanya it is related to wedding issues la
and Alhamdulillah, we reconcile soon after
takde dh nk merajuk or gaduh panjang² ke ape
no more time for that!

ok progress time!

1. smlm pegi dentist dgn mama n ayah. all 3 did scalliing. ngade kan? hahahaha...suppose to go esok. tp ade 1 ulcer di gigi bongsu, and another 2 dlm tekak. so sgt risau. takut jadi mcm tragedi hari tunang. Alhamdulillah. nothing to worry about. they say its due to stress. stress ke haku? psl wedding, x sgt...psl keje, maybe! so i need to go slow on my work. for these 2 weeks laaa...taknak laa kang ari kawin, dok gumam mulut je....skt takleh cakap.

2. baju nikah dh fitting smlm. Alhamdulillah. I love it to bits. the cutting and size, ngam²! tp, tgn tu extra panjang. am contemplating nk pendekkan ke tak....tang kain, as I've always wanted. love. love. love! skrg tgh anta beadings. hopefully I'll love it even more with the beadings later on. InsyaAllah.

3. baju sanding suppose to siap by today. so maybe tonight or tomorrow night akan fitting. together with dear Fiance. tak sabar plus nervous!

4. meet the caterer session tonight. nk finalize on the menu, settings and whatnot. not to forget, to discuss on the dos and don't s

5. wedding signage, half way done....igtkan dh ok...tapi ayah kate tak cukup....tu yg dr siap, terus kene consider separuh siap. I'll try to make it done by tomorrow. patutnye bende ni dh boleh settle dr last month lagi. gedik betol. semua nk last minute!!! haih la fana.....

6. aritu ade beli Lulur Scrub Putri Binari....waduhhhh...wangiiii gileeee!!!! rase mcm nk cium kulit sendiri the whole night...for now, every other day, pakai lulur tu before mandi....suke sgt2!!!! next week, baru gi wat spa...duit dh sgt tight.so amik yg simple² je..tak payah lah amik yg pakej pengantin tu... :(

7. I'm trying my best to jage kesihatan, have enuff sleep, and maintain an optimum energy level. harap², we both are fit for that day. eh. bukan kami je, tp the whole family. InsyaAllah. tp ni skrg tgh menternak ulcers. tp harap² by this week, semua surut la k?

8. yes. I hired a planner. i didn't tell anyone in the office. somehow, someone, blurted it out to someone, and that someone tell someone else, and now it seems like everyone knows. and yg jadi masalah, they kinda have high expectations on the wedding. and THAT, makes my stress level went upstairs!

9. I know many of my friends are not able to make it on our wedding. sedih, mmg sedih....but I faham. dh la majlis on Sunday, yg jauh² tu, mesti susah nk dtg kan? on another note, a week before me, which is this wiken, a good friend of mine, is getting married too, in Kluang...so nk tak nak, they have to choose one of these 2 weddings to attend la kan...and sadly, the bride herself, pon tak dpt dtg my wedding. cos dia dh nk ikut husband, a couple of days before my reception... :( btw, siape yg g majlis ceqros???hopefully kite dpt jumpe kt sane k sayangs?

cukup la 9
mewakili 9 hari lagi!
excited!

I don't need to justify myself

2010-11-25T16:59:00.001+08:00

lama tak update
tup tup
dh tinggal 15 hari till we tie the knot
esok, dh tinggal 2 weeks
oh gosh!

things seem to fell into place now
no more time to plan new things now
so I'll just go with the flow

and yeah...there are changes here and there prior to the wedding
which i couldnt careless anymore
seriously, redha je
and things getting more and more like "Our marriage, THEIR wedding"
biaaaarr laaaaaaaa

and I promised myself to just smile on it
tak kesah la whatever turned up on that day,
I'll just smile
yg penting, semoga akad kami berjalan lancar
yg lain, belakang kire

smlm, dah start distribute card among colleagues and bosses
and as expected, I've been getting some 'funny' reactions upon knowing I'm getting married
as from most of the chinese, it would be "Whoaaa..U're getting married liao ah???"
I'm 25, for malays, its a common age to get hitched
but not for (some) chinese
infact, to them, 30 pon kire masih awal... ngeeeeeeee

yg melayu lak
sibuk tanye bape lame cuti
dh tu diikuti lak ngan soklan kepoh berbau honeymoon kt mane
ah ah ah
tak suke soklan ni
sebab sebab sebab....erm...sentap sikit bab ni
sebab sebab sebab...we have no plans for this

we're in such a tight budget
mane dgn majlis
daily expenses lagi
and of course, our crib
which demands a (hell) lot of moolah
so, honeymoon or hornymoon or whatever u name it, is not in our list
at least not for now la

mmg dulu ade la berangan nk gi sana, gi sini
berangan kan best
so bile berangan tu, mmg nk up up je...
siap dh survey² kt mane yg best
the price, the attractions and what not
pfffttttt

tapi, reality check, we're not that 'senang' to spend for that
how i wish money is not an issue for us.... "_"
nk spend on anything, spend je...
tak payah nk pikir, kang ujung bulan aku nk makan ape????
*sigh* *sigh*

however, deep down inside, i do hope we could have a couple of nights getaway
just the two of us, like most newlyweds do
tak dpt legend water chalet kt PD, M-Suite pon jadi laaa
ade sesape nk hadiahkan x? hahaha
coz namenye kami nk spend duit utk tu, mmg tak kot
"_"

nevertheless, knowing that we'll be staying on our own after the wedding,
keeps me sane

ahhhhhhhh...tak dpt honeymoon tempat grand² pon takpe
honeymoon je kt tingkat 8 tu hari² sampai muntah
swimming pool pon ade je kt bawah nun
(someone joked and says, "that's not honeymoon. thats honeystars!" lol)

at the end of the day, tak kesah la mane pon
yg penting, is the companion
kan kan kan?
:-)

our final 20

2010-11-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

ade double meaning

first of, its 20th!
our 4th years and 6th months monthversary or whatever u call it
yeah. we I am that cheesy to wish him every freaking month
he, on the other hand, couldn't be bothered with dates
*sigh*

hence its the last time we'll celebrate the 20th
lepas ni, concentrate on the 11th pulak... :)

and coincidently, it marked 20 days to 11th dec
20.freaking.days.
mcm tak percaya.

p/s: girl dh blk puncak alam.. only He knows how i felt. been crying the whole night. :'(

how time flies

2010-11-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

I was browsing through some not-so-old pictures

was going through pictures
back when i was still in UM onwards

coz only from UM onwards, I have a digital camera
for those years before that, semua pakai print outs
so takde softcopy la

btw, as i went through the pictures
those amazing 3 years in UM
the lepaks at setabak
the late suppers at abg zul
the gamba bodoh2 in our small rooms in 8th College
the many birthday celebrations
the MEM, the 8thplorace, the FesKina, the Choir, the Piala Nazrin
the entah ape lagi aktiviti yg aku dok menyelit

the camwhoring in DK1 or while waiting for tutorials
even those camwhoring in labs
the once in a while lunch at 12th
the Angklung class
the Cybernite

the (countless) trip to midvalley
the many latenight movies
the trip to Ulu Yam
the trip to Sekinchan
the annual dinners

then dah start keje,
i went back to jb
but took time once a year for mini trips with some friends
to tioman
to a famosa
to redang

and it stopped there
as we moved on with our lives
some has settled down
some has buns in the oven
some in the midst of preps of settling down
not to forget, some having their time of their life

i missed them
i missed those moments

how time flies...
and all this, left me a teary eye.
"_"

22 Days to go

2010-11-18T13:08:00.001+08:00

and I'm nervous

1 sec, I felt like.. "cepatla 11 dec"
tak sabar nk mulekan hidup berdua

and the next second,
terus "eh eh..tinggal ** hari je???byk nye tak settle lagi!!!! HELPPPP"

but most of the time
when i got caught in the later thought
I just brushed it off

I 'd prefer to think of our life after wedding (read: marriage life)
gatal? no la
tak payah la nk fikir only on the sexual side
i lebih kpd excited nk hidup bersama
to share everything together
materially, emotionally and spiritually

ni dh ade rumah, lg best berangan
dh fikir, bgn pagi, solat sama2, keluar gi keje sama2
then balik, jumpe kt rumah mak dia dulu
then balik rumah sama2

nnt kalau tak penat, i'll fix us some dinner
tang dinner ni i excited plus nervous sikit
he'd prefer non-rice for dinner
so i kene pandai pelbagai kan menu
meehun sup/goreng, sandwiches, hotdogs, chicken roasts
yong taufu, lempeng, roti jala, cekodok dan mcm2 lagi
oh tak sabar nk masak utk suami... :)

eh eh...tp itu pon, provided that the kitchen utensils cukup laaa
kang dapur gas pon takde, nk masak atas lighter kah?
duh?!

pengorbanan

2010-11-17T12:08:00.001+08:00

I'm not a perfect muslim
i admit that
and please do know that everyday is a journey for me to become a better muslim

but please, don't judge me
i did not judge others
i did not put on high hopes on others
i did not expect people to look up on me
as im no perfect
not at all

but you have no right to judge me
only He can
only He has all the right to do so
only He knows what i feel deep down inside

saya malu
betul2 malu
rasa mcm 'ditelanjangkan' di depan org ramai
saya tahu masih byk perkara yg saya jahil
tp itu bukan caranya
bukan.
bukan.
bukan.

saya faham.

of banner and bunting

2010-11-12T14:00:00.001+08:00

Oh My Crap!!!!
in less than a month, baru i terhegeh² nk cari gamba for it

remember that i did mention weols dpt free 2 banners
masa beli wedding cards tu?
i ade mention ke?
ntah...tak igt dah

well, caron ade ckp jgn lambat sgt bg gamba
ni dh lg 28 hari
lambat ke tak eh?

smlm, beria godeh laptop
cari gamba
try to edit here and there

fyi, instead of 2 banners
we requested for a banner and bunting each,
so the banner is for my side
the bunting for his side
sbb his reception kn wat kt umah
rase cam tak sesuai lak letak banner kt rumah
that's my opinion laaa

as for my side,
we'll put on my parent's pics
mmg menjadi impian mama and ayah... hiks!
takpe...kasi can!

his side lak, our pics la
i short list a few,
share kt fb with myPerson
and asked him to pick which one he love
and the one he chose, I loved it too!

no.not this pic. kedudukan kaki ku sungguh tak sopan

so td ni mase lunch time,
smpat mengarang email to caron
smbil type, smbil tawakal hope all this is not too late
panjang email i
siap bg details, nk ayat mcm mane
kaler ape, taknak sarat and all
gile demanding aku nih! (baru tau?)

after i'd sent the email,
i gave caron a call
surprisingly, she still remembers far.ha.na
ahaks! tak sure igt yg baik or yg tak bape best
ye laa...throughout process buat kad, mmg i byk call and mail her
betolkan itu ini...hahahaha
tu yg dia igt kot! hiks!

so for now, kite tunggu dan tawakal
supaya hasilnye memberansangkan
InsyaAllah

p/s: dh dpt kad jemputan ceq rose...anyone going? I sure am. InsyaAllah

DoorGift for kids

2010-11-12T09:00:00.008+08:00

suda setel
berkat kegigihan n kesabaran my dear sister and i
sanggup berpanasan di kedai borong makanan ringan

utk DoorGift for kids,
we did thought of having the 30g swirly lollies
dlm 1.20 each
price wise, mmg ok sgt

tp, to me, its too big for kids below 7 to consume it
kompem diorg makan halfway, then taknak dh
terus buang
i yg tgk ni yg skt hati lak kang
nk beli yg kecik, mcm kecik sgt pulak
so tak jadi lollies

then terpikir nk bagi cotton candy
suke sgt
tp malangnye, i tak jumpe vendor from jb
and masa pon dh suntuk utk teruskan pencarian

at the end, wat goodies pack sudah
memula mama yg tak berkenan
katanye nnt byk sampah
ala...buat kt dewan kn...
bukan kite yg kemas
takpe laaaa...
at least ade variety...

so smlm, pegi kedai borong makanan kt tampoi
near angsana
dia deret kedai borong bahan kek c. siang
tp depan lagi

mmg buruk kedainye
nama kedai pon takde
tapi pilihan mmg byk
puas hati laaaa

my wonderful assistant

sibuk kira2

pilih punye pilih
siap bawak calculator
supaya tak over budget

dh kat cashier pon masih kira2..takut sgt over budget!

alhamdulillah
we got everything we wanted
and masih bwh bajet

balik, terus packing sambil tgk Chinta
9 lebih baru siap
skt pinggang ni
nasib 200 packs je...

hasilnye,

comel kan
mama kate mcm birthday party packs.

:-)

gelabah!

2010-11-11T12:12:00.001+08:00

tak tipu punye!

as at 30!

2010-11-10T13:15:00.002+08:00

woot woot!
lg 30 hari yaw!
equivalent to 4 saturdays

daymn! cepat gile masa berlalu
and i started to get nervous
like seriously nervous!

lets see, ape perkembangan so far k

semalam berjaya siapkan doorgift utk dewasa. telur akan di masukkan 1/2 hari sblm. so for now, consider siap je la
am taking half day off today. nk g cari doorgift utk kids. harap2 jumpe yg berkenan, and terus beli
baju? jgn tanye. tak start ape pon lagi. mmg gile.i tak gile. nizam yg gile. kalau tak siap, i'll make sure dia jadi betol2 gile! tapi, baju nikah lelaki dh siap... we loved it! Sabree Tailor. sgt disarankan ok!
guestbook cards dah siap. deconye, i kene susun, amik gamba, and print, so that senang diorg nk atur nnt. i'll be the queen of the day, remember? taknak wat keje! main tunjuk je (gile bossy! erk!)
invitation cards, dh tulis2, tp alamat belom print. kwn2, sile tinggalkan alamat ye kalau nk kad...ade byk lg ni..as for family punye, dh bg by hand dh last week.

tu je la kot
lg pon i pakai planner kan
thats y i takde la nk update byk on the food ke
bunga telur ke
bunga manggar ke
hall layout ke, event flow ke
tu semua, i biar nizam settle, i tinggal endorse je nnt. ehem!
speaking of which, i should expect the samples by next week
can't wait!

as for now, kepale mmg serabut sikit
mana nk pikir pasal rumah (this really caught my attention at the mo)
suke sgt pikir psl rumah
dah malas nk fikir details of the majlis
ngade betol!

nak pikir pasal kerja lg
makin hujung thn, makin byk keje
ni smlm baru dpt tau, service tax akan naik from 5 to 6% effective 1 jan 2011
so i kene prepare to update our system on that
kerja yg pending, tak yah citer la, byk!
nk present quarterly stewardship meeting lagi
adoiyai....nk cari keje lain la mcm ni
soul! tempat ko ade keje kosong tak?

oh oh
yg paling men'distract' i is this one special event
coming up this saturday!
i'll be a runner on that day
pagi, kene g singapore, petang, bz bz bz...
i'll update on that later
hint: the effect of that particular day, will give a huge twist on my BIG day :)
tak sabar!