Friday, September 30, 2011

my first VE experience

wah.....sudah kene VE!
dh berasalin ke????
mmg tak laaaaa... -____-
 
eh jap jap
what is VE, u asked?
its Vaginal Examination
pendek kata, kene seluk kt va jay jay untuk cek bukaan serviks
ade paham?
 
well, this happened last night
gini ceritanya
dh 3 hari (since tuesday yg rasa sakit tu) I perasan, baby mcm kurang gerak
usually, by 3 or 4pm, fetal movement chart tu boleh setel
tp ni nk dekat maghrib, baru dlm 5 or 6 jeee
 
plus rasa mengeras and tightening kt area abdomen tu
comes and go
I couldn't really be bothered to time it laa
sbb mmg tak regular pon
so I just assume its Braxton Hicks
 
tp bila dh 3 hari berturut, I jadi risau la jugakkan
lagi pulak bile I google up,
ade kes yg baby kurang gerak sbb tali pusat dh terbelit
so kene emergency c-sect sbb takut baby lemas
oh risau nyeeeeee
 
so I raised my concern tu hubs,
dia lagi la risau
asik la tanya, anak kite ade gerak takkk
last², we decided to go to the hospital je
 
so smlm, after maghrib, kami terus ke HSI
first time ni, agak kompius tak tau nk gi Emergency Room or Dewan Bersalin
hubs rang his friend and asked, dia kata gi Dewan Bersalin terus
so ke sana la kami
he dropped me, and parked the car
 
naik tingkat 4
went to PAC (Patient Assessment Center)
terang serba sikit my concern to the nurse,
then disuruh buka panties and lie on bed no. 3
 
as expected, a houseman yg attend I
as the nurse's said, 'kt sini, dato' mmg letak houseman je kak'
houseman pon houseman laaa
diorang pon nak blaja gak kan
tapi, tapi....saya malu laaaaaa
sbb tau² diorang ni around my age
ahhh..belasah je lah
 
so he asked me this and that
sakit mcm mane, sejak bile, so on and so forth,
checked my blood pressure - 145/93! erk?!
tp dia senyap, I pon senyap je
 
next, wat CTG, to check baby's heart rate
dekat 20 minit jugak ah terlentang gitu
boring! dh la pinggang i ni mmg sedia ade skt
so tgh² tu, I gerak² la kan
nk selesakan pinggang ni
 
tapi..tiap kali i gerak, CTG device yg kt perut i ni pon cam teralih
so kekejap kang, sayup je dgr heart beat
kang tetibe kuat pulak
saspen je diorg...huhuhuhu
 
and based on the CTG result,
semua nmpak OK shj
nothing to worry about
baby's doing just fine
takde tanda² yg pelik ke ape
 
setel tu, tetibe the doc said nk wat VE!
oh nooooo....I selalu disogok dgn org kata VE tu sakit!
siap tanya doc, perlu ke VE?
he said yes, since I've been having pains for 3 days
takut mmg dh in labour
 
mak redhaaaa
dh la doc muda...malu laaa saya!!!!
but syukur, he never made it awkward at all
 
dgn ditemani nurse,
he sat by the bed
dia selak kain pink tu,
tgk part tu kejap to make sure of where to probe,
toleh ke tepi, and......seluk!
sakit? Alhamdulillah, to me, tak sakit pon....
cuma rasa cam tak selesa je laaa
sbb dia pakai glove and ade lubricant kan
so cam licin je laaa
takdela rase pedih kene geser ke ape
 
bile dh masuk tu, dia gerak² jari sikit
nk cari bukaan kot
tak lama pon
dlm 10-15 seconds gitu
that's it
 
and the result?
masih tertutup ye kawan².... -______-
 
terus dia kata dh boleh salin baju
and tunggu kt luar
means dh boleh balik
 
while I was waiting outside
I dah siap boleh ulang alik gi toilet and jumpe my hubs
tetibe i dipanggil semula
coz nk check BP again
sbb reading awal tadi quite high
 
so baring semula kt bed 3,
nurse suruh relax jap, sbb katanya maybe td reading tinggi sbb i risau... -____-
10 minutes later, doc came,
and checked my BP
I swear he pumped that thing 3 kali ok! (dia pakai yg manual tu...sbb lebih accurate kan)
bersungguh gile mcm tak caya my BP rate
as expected, BP masih di tahap tinggi dr biasa
 
berulang kali dia tanye i ade pening tak
ade mual tak, ade sesak nafas tak
i gelak² ckp mmg takde
dlm hati dh berkata, ni kalau betol i have the symptoms, kompem kene masuk wad
tp mmg takde...I felt totally fine
cume skt² kt area perut and pinggang tu je
 
so, again, I was asked to wait outside,
while he prepared the report
10 minutes later, report siap,
gi ER, bayar 5 ringgit
dan balik...
 
Alhamdulillah
nothing to worry about
semuanya ok je
cuma dipesan,kalau sakit makin teruk or baby masih kurg gerak,
dtg semula
 
itu lah ceritanya
part of me agak kecewa sbb dh sakit² manja tp masih belum ade tanda nk bersalin
tp part of me juga relieved, sbb semuanya masih OK
at least, dh ade experience la pergi spital
so nnt kalau dh sakit betol² nk bersalin,
takdela hubs or I gelabah tak tau nk gi mana kn
sbb dh tau area tu...
 
I really hoped I will get to experience a smooth sailing labor
tp rezeki masing² kan
suke bace experience mommies lain
pastu sebak sendiri smpai menjejes air mata bile diorg minta maaf ngan their moms and husband
sumpah sayu gile bile baca part tu
I kept on reminding myself to spare some time for that moment bile my time comes nnt
pastu happy sendiri mcm diri sendiri yg dh beranak
mcm sendiri yg dh dpt anak....
 
oh tak sabar nk cium bau baby....
wangi........
 
hai lah anak....
bila kah kamu mahu keluar?
 
 
 
 

Thursday, September 29, 2011

3am

dah 3 malam berturut² I terjaga at exactly 3am
sumpah tak tipu
bile terjaga, tgk jam kt hp, 3am
 
bukan terjaga sbb mimpi
or sbb nk terkench
or sbb sakit
or sbb baby tendang
or sbb hujan ke ape
 
tp mmg automatically,
terjaga.tgk jam. 3.00am
weird kan?
 
adekah my biology clock sedang mengajar myself utk berjaga di tgh mlm
demi anak kami nnt?
 
lak tu, bile dh terjaga, bukan nye boleh lelap balik
maka i terus bangun
gi bilik air,
lepaskan hajat kecil yg mmg sentiasa je ade
dlm pd tu, terlintas di hati
nk solat hajat
terus angkat wuduk, lalu menyembah diri padaNya
begitulah rutin ku 3 malam yg lalu
 
hajat ku buat masa ini, hanyalah satu
dipermudahkan, diselamatkan dan diberkati tatkala melahirkan benih kami nnt
bersungguh² aku berdoa, sehingga tersedu²
 
dgn suasana mlm yg hening,
buat aku byk reflect balik segala dosa aku masa lalu
 
malu rasanya hendak meminta bermacam² dariNya
sedangkan aku sering lalai dgn perintahNya
bila dh susah, baru mahu mencari
Astaghfirullah
 
ampunkanlah dosa hambaMu yg hina ini, ya Allah
 
 

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Of terminating Astro account while in confinement

seperti yg sedia maklum,
I akan berpantang di rumah MIL
so plus minus, sebulan la kami tak jejak umah sendiri kan
 
therefore, I igt nk terminate la akaun Astro kami
yela...sebulan I byr nk dekat 100 for it
so konon nk save, tu yg terpikir nk terminate sementara
 
I tried to google hal ni
tp mcm takde org yg pernah query on this issue
so I sent an email to astro prior to this
 
I must say customer sevice diorg mmg sgt cekap
tghari tadi, after lunch, I received a call from them
 
Unfortunately, for us yg pakai Astro B.yond
and we first subscribe mase 17 Jan 2011 (tak sampai sethn lg)
we are not allowed to terminate atau disconnect (or ape² yg sewaktu dgnnya) within 1 year
its in the contract (katanye laaa...tp i tak perasan pon...sbb mmg tak baca.lol)
 
so what they suggested is
selama mana we're out of town tu, (I takdela btau diorg yg I'm away psl confinement. I just say I'm out of town. lol)
dia cadangkan amik pakej yg paling basic shj
which means takde sports and entertainment tu
yg tu should cost us RM37.95 (incl tax would be dlm RM41 gitu)
ok la kan
 
at least ade jugak kurang
so I decided to do that laaa
but not now
sbb dia pon kata, bile I dh ready, just give them a call
and they'll reduce the package immediately
so no hassle there
 
maka terjawab sudah persoalan itu...
 
 
 
p/s: nampaknye skt semalam tu hanyalah false alarm...tp mlm semalm I mimpi I melahirkan and siap peluk cium baby lagi...bile sedar, boleh pulak I menggagau cari mana my baby..felt so real la mimpi itu.... ;)
 
 

test

does this work?
I wonder...
hurmmm

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Apekah????

am updating
smbil nonton sofiyya on TV3
benci gile dgn bapak yaya tu
pffttt!!!!

btw, just nk update
perut kerasssss....
and ni dh start sakit2 ni
kt area bwh sikit dr pusat
tp takdela skt amat sgt
cam tarik2 manja gitu
nk timing...tp cam takut....
plus not sure
erk...betol ke ni contractions eh?
konpius.....

Major Purchase #2 - Car Seat

Perlukah car seat?
Personally, if u were to ask me,
Compared to stroller, car seat is much more important than a stroller

Why?
Well, the main reason is of course, for safety purpose la kan
FYI, all this while,
Even though hubs’ and my workplace is just merely 3 minutes drive away,
We went to work separately.
I drove, while he rides his bike

Reason is, he can’t afford to be late to work (read: Japan company)
While mine, is more flexible…u came in late, u left later laaaa
knowing the traffic in Pasir Gudang,
One day, u can reach ur workplace in 15 minutes,
and on some odd days, it might take u up 30-45 minutes

moreover, he often needs to stay late for work or did OT
while as for moi, I never left work later than 5.45pm (unless there are urgent cases)
therefore, due to the time constrain, its much more convenient for us to go to work separately,
rather than stressing each other out on the time

so u can see that, since I’m the one who’s driving to work
of course, it will be my job to send and fetch our dear baby
to and fro the babysitter’s, once I hit back to work
It’s impossible to do so without the car seat

At first, I decided to get a cheap one
U know laaa, asal ade gitu…
But hubs on the other hand,
Vetoed, since this is for safety purpose, no compromise!
Since I get to choose on the breastpump, he should get the say on car seat. Period.

He searched high and low for the best car seat for our baby
Which is almost impossible
His criteria ade 1 je
Which is it should be able to carry a newborn, up to 3-4 years old
Therefore, the seat should be able to (almost) fully recline,
yg selesa utk newborn yg fragile
Tang ni la paling susah nk cari
coz most car seat yg boleh recline habis is the one yg carseat cum carrier cum rocker
macam ni


which can carry a newborn up to 9-11 months only
bile dh besar, kene beli yg lain cos the baby will surely outgrown the car seat/carrier

tp yg jenis ni, mmg la mcm best
sbb kalau baby tidur, we don’t have to get her out of the seat
we can just carry her along with the seat,
masuk rumah or attached to the dedicated stroller
tp tu lah, the downside, it can cater babies up to 10kg je
dh besar, sile beli lain

byk jenis carseat yg kitorg dok belek
from Graco to Halford, Combi, Ferrari to First years
tp tak byk model la yg available for each brand ni
u know laaa, kt JB ni, the choices are pretty limited
nk betol byk, sweetcherry la
mana² JJ ade jual…full range.

Kalau nk brand yg pelik² skit especially the imported ones, mmg jarang jumpe laa
setakat ape yg ade kt kedai je
infact, ade tu, diorg tak simpan stock pon....ape yg ade on the display rack je
btw, we did this survey mainly in JJ Tebrau
ade 5 kedai we checked out
3 dekat area surau, toys r us and dlm JJ itself

So after much deliberation
Only 1 particular model yg fits our criteria
And tidak terlalu menyesakkan our pocket
Moreover, it’s made in Malaysia
Harus la support brg buatan Malaysia kan… -_____-


Safe N Sound Chiara

• Convertible car seat. Rear-facing from newborn to 10kg, forward facing from 1 year+ and 10kg, to 18kg
• Conforms to European Safety Standards ECE R44/04
• 5 point harness with harness pads
• 4 position recline
• Comes with newborn cushion insert and airflow head support

We found this at the shop yg berdekatan dengan surau
Its in between surau and Voir tu
Tak ingat nama kedainyaaa
Tp kalau yg dh biasa ngan JJ Tebrau, kompem tau kedai ni
Sbb dia mmg jual brg² baby yg comel²
Especially tang accessories
Price wise, if u were to ask me, taklah murah sgt brg² dia
Byk yg lebih baik beli online...;p

Mmg la walaupon dh fully recline, dia tak 180 degrees flat
Tp sbb as mentioned on the last point,
Dia ada sediakan extra cushion utk bhgn pinggang/punggung baby
So bile kite letak baby dlm tu,
Our baby akan dpt dibaringkn, instead of ade angle mcm position terduduk tu
Faham tak? Ugh..I’m not good at explaining lah
Tp, lebih kurang camtu lah

In terms of design pon nampak sturdy
Tapi tak boleh lagi nk ckp lelebih kan
Sbb belom test lg
Nnt bile our baby dh pakai the seat,
I’ll review more k

Hopefully she loves it
More importantly, she’ll feel comfortable la

p/s: did u know, in some countries (especially in the west), Doctor’s/Nurse’s will not discharge a newborn, unless they are sure that the transportation of the baby is securely installed with a carseat! They will never discharge the baby without one. It’s a good practice eyh?


Monday, September 26, 2011

Major Purchase #1-Breastpump

As I've mentioned before
I've been planning to (InsyaAllah) exclusively breastfeed my dear baby

Therefore, I sure need a breastpump as I foresee myself as a working mom after confinement
without one, its almost impossible la utk breastfeed kan
mmg boleh, guna kaedah marmet
but sampai bila la kan?

so I decided to get myself a (good) breastpump
after much research and reading reviews here and there,
of course, many recommended Medela FreeStyle
reality check, it's totally out of my budget

so I settled with the next best thing
Medela Swing that is



An electric breastpump which perfectly adapts to the daily routine of a dynamic mother. Ideal for frequent pumping – handy, trendy and quiet. It can be used on a tabletop, belt clip or shoulder/neck strap, so you can always take it with you. For fast, gentle pumping, where it suits you best. Swing is discreet and stylish - it makes breastfeeding fun! It is the only single electric personal use pump with breakthrough 2-Phase Expression Technology for maximum milk flow. First researched and developed for hospital breastpumps, 2-Phase Expression is an advanced pumping pattern that mimics a baby's natural nursing rhythm by pumping in two distinct modes.


Stimulation mode: To simulate your baby's initial rapid sucking to start your milk flowing


Expression mode: To simulate your baby's slower deeper sucks to express your milk gently and efficiently.


More features:


One touch let down button designed for faster milk flow
Convenient, easily fits into a purse or briefcase
Efficient, adjustable speed and vacuum
Comfortable, comes with SoftFit Breastshield
Mobile, use on a tabletop, belt clip or shoulder/neck strap.



Main reason I pilih ni
Is first of, its not bulky
So senang I nk bwk gi office or bile travelling
Second, it can be battery operated or direct current
Tak byk breastpump yg bole pakai bateri
So senang la I nak pump kt mana², even dlm kereta ke pon kan
Plus, the suction tu kite boleh control
Nk kuat ke nk pelan
Tang ni cannot elaborate sgt, sbb belom experience lagi kan
Dh pakai baru tau la ok ke tak kan

Downside yg I boleh nampak skrg ni,
Is that it is single pump
Kalau double pump, sure dpt pump lg cepat kan
Tapi, takpe laaaa
Dgn bajet yg ade, I believe, this is the best that I could get

Once I've decided on which breastpump to buy,
next is to search for the best deal in town

I searched high and low for the best deal
and OneBabyWorld is the right place to get the best deal of (almost) everything pertaining baby stuff
go check em out k?

Oh....btw, I just realised they've increased the price a bit now
luckily i placed my order just before that

I decided to get the back to work package

which includes Medela Swing BreastPump, Cooler Bag, Ice Pack, Milk Storage Bottles, Nursing Bra, Drying Rack and a swaddling blanket
and I add in another Nursing Bra, Washcloth and a  thermometer

I placed the order and paid them via Maybank2u on Saturday,

and my dad received them on Tuesday
not much hassle
pretty smooth

oh yeah
I received a voucher from OBW worth RM10
am thinking of purchasing more stuff from them later on


Friday, September 23, 2011

9 bulan!

We’re now full term ya’ll
Syukur Alhamdulillah
We managed to come this far
Macam tak percaya!
So lepas ni bile org Tanya, dh boleh kata “tgh tunggu hari la ni….” -____-

InsyaAllah, if ever baby decided to pops out even belom reached EDD,
she should be able to survive
coz based on what I read, all her organs are fully-formed and should be able to function on its own now
So sayang, kalau syg dh rasa kuat, and bersedia to meet us, U are most welcome dear
We are more than happy to have you as part of us in this world
But please, don’t force yourself k syg

So far, all preps to welcome our little one pon dh siap
Especially the emergency bags (1 for mom and the other for the baby)
Dh siap masuk kereta pon
Kali ni punye, mmg betul² dh siap
Tu pon I packed based on checklist org lain and ape yg i rasa perlu n tak perlu la
So I guess, ok la kan
Hopefully I tak termiss anything yg essential… ;)

Dr segi barang keperluan baby
Alhamdulillah, we managed to strike of all the items in my NB Checklist
Except for the Warmer and Stroller
Stroller tu, InsyaAllah akan beli esok
There’s a Mom & Baby Expo kt Danga City Mall (Sep 23-25)
Will definitely pay a visit there esok or ahad (kalau belom in labor laaa)
Hopefully ade la booth stroller kt sana


Hari tu dh survey kt JJ tebrau
Masa beli carseat haritu
Dh ade yg berkenan
Tp ni nk tgk mana tau kt expo tu ade offer ke kan
Dpt murah brg seratus dua…hehehe
Ceh…Harapan je laaaa…dpt kurg 10 hinggit pon dh cukup syukur….

I know, I know
Mmg stroller ni tak penting pon buat masa skrg
Sbb baby bukan nk gi jln² ke ape pon lagi kan
But mama insist on getting it earlier
Sbb, we’ll need it masa majlis kawin kakak I end of oct nnt
Ye la, takkan nk expect I ngendong je kan
So kalau ade stroller tu, boleh letak dlm stroller, and sesape pon bole tolong jagakan
But of cos, takleh la sepanjang hari dok dlm tu
Harus la sediakan tmpt dia baring
Tapi kalau stroller tu boleh fully recline, should be no problem la kan?
Hurmmm…tgk camne nnt
Tapi namanya nk suruh beli moses basket ke hape ntah tu, mmg tak laaa
Pakai kejap je….bazir….so mmg no no la

Yg warmer tu pulak,
Bole beli bile I dh nk dekat² naik kerja la kan
Coz I don’t think I’ll need it masa confinement period ni
Sbb direct feed kan?
Unless, kalau baby ade complications yg perlu tinggal kt hospital
Or under any other circumstances la
Harap² tak laaaa…

Tapi ade satu lagi task yg belum dpt disetelkan
Which is my our confinement period needs
I did mention that I akan berpantang di umah mak kan
So opkos la dlm masa 30-40 hari tu I takkan jejak our home
So I need to pack segala baju bajan I n hubs laaaa
Tu baru baju, belom toiletries, and other needs
Bantal lagi….sbb I suke my bantal kt umah tu…tp bukan bantal busuk ok!
Ade yg angkut 1 umah kang… -____-

And barang baby yg lain² tu pon
Harus di transport ke umah MIL
We planned to do it by next week
Tp yg ni mmg dh siap
Tinggal nk angkut je…should be no problem

One more thing, I’m thinking of temporarily terminating our Astro susbscription utk sebulan nnt laa
Any such thing tak eh?
Ye laaa…membazir je bayar 100++ utk benda yg kite tau tak pakai
Tapi temporary je…nnt dh balik umah sendiri, subscribe blk
Boleh ke gitu eh? Anyone?

Speaking of astro, I’m thinking of a way to pujuk hubs utk subscribe Star World/E! kt MIL’s laaaa
1 bulan tak dpt tekan tekan 711 and 712, mau gigil gak kang….huhuhu
Poyo betol
Tp serius, I mmg tiap kali on TV, i terus tekan 711
Hubs pulak, opkos la 811 kan


Ape lagi eh?
Hmmm…as for myself pulak,
Skrg I’m at the phase of memperkukuhkan pengetahuan on labor, breastfeeding and baby care laaa
Lately, I spent most of my nights on youtube
Dr delivery process, to how to get you baby to latch, and understanding different baby needs

In terms of my health,
Syukur lah kan, so far, I’ve no major complications along this pregnancy
Setakat nausea, morning sickness (mild), foods craving (yg common² je) tu biasa la kan
Cuma ye la, dh makin sarat ni
Mula sakit pinggang, tulang punggung, tulang kt va jay jay and tulang peha
which I believe is due to kepala baby dh kt bawah kan
so segala beban tu terkumpul kt area tu
and sakit itu adelah menjadi makin sakit
bila nk pusing² masa tidur, n bile nak bangun dari duduk
sakit sgt²….smpai terpejam² mata nk get hold of it
but of cos, masih bearable laaa
yg penting, minded tu kene positive…

oh yeah….Semalam, I went for my 9 months checkup
Alhamdulillah, baby is in cephalic but posterior (head down and face facing my belly) position
Tp doc takde mention lak dh engaged ke belom
And regarding posterior position, doc kata, InsyaAllah, baby boleh move herself to anterior position towards delivery
So tak perlu risau sgt, and bykkan berdoa….
Lain², amniotic fluid sufficient
Placenta pon kt atas
Kirenye so far so good laaa

Cume yg I risau is baby is quite small…2.4kg
Kalau ikut baiboo/baby centre, its normal
Tp entah eh, I was expecting her to be erm…..chubbier
But according to doc, tgk perut I, dia pon mmg tak expect baby to be besar ke ape
Yeah…..for a 9 month pregnant lady, my belly is ain’t that big!
Badan je besar….berat pon naik dh total up 16kg!
Sbb tu la I expect my baby to be besar sikit
Konon nk sedapkan hati yg I gained weight ni pon sbb baby….hehhehe

Tp hubs kata, takpe laaa..yg penting mama n baby sihat…..
Thank you syg!
Tp farah tau, bile syg ckp mama sihat, its more to mama ‘sihat’ (read: demok!)
I Love U! ;p

Monday, September 19, 2011

Antenatal Class

Last Saturday, we (finally) attended an antenatal class
Unfortunately, there aren’t much hospital organized such classes here in JB
Whichever did, it was only held once a month
Some of them are Kempas Med Centre, Hospital Penawar and Johor Specialist

We attended at the later one
Coz it was advertised it Baiboo
Therefore I knew exactly when and how much it cost
JSH organized antenatal class on every third Saturday of the month
For RM30 per couple from 2-6pm

With so much topic to covered in such a nick of time
I must say, the class is very brief
Frankly, there’s not much new info that I gained through the class
As most of the info they shared, are very general and brief
Something that I’ve already known from the research I did via the net all this while
Except for the explanation on how to bath our newborn (we managed to record the whole procedure) and the labor room visit

The class started off with a talk given by a representative from StemLife
On the Cord Blood Banking
Google for more info on this yeah…
Its good to know on this….

Followed by 3 sessions with Dr Mohan (one of the ObGyn in JSH)
On Preparation of Delivery, Types of Delivery and Pain relief in Labor
Generally, he informed us on the signs that shows u r ready for labor,
Brief infos on Vaginal/Instrumental and C-Sect Deliveries
And the laughing gas (etonox)/epidural for the pain management during labor
It was pretty interesting though
Coz he’s good at explaining and giving us examples an such

Unfortunately, my 100% attention to the class got taken away
Once the (chinese) midwife started her session
On the required Nutrition during Pregnancy and Antenatal Exercise
Its B.O.R.I.N.G!
She’s not good at captivating our attention
The so-called nutrition talk, was just something you’ve known all while long
She even skipped a few slides! Pffftttttt!
And the exercise she thought, is just merely different techniques of breathing
Of which, I expected more!

Then, the floor was then passed to another midwive (malay)
Who carried on the class on baby bath demo, care for newborn, breastfeeding benefits and technique and Immunization during Infancy
I must say, she has to improve her public speaking skill
You see, she’s a nurse in a private hospital
And were trusted to give a talk to the public
However, her English was, soooo pathetic!
I got so stressed out when when repetitively mispronounce some words
It’s annoying, I tell you!
She might just as well carry out the talk in Malay so that she won’t keep having this
‘emm’, ‘aahh’ while finding the right word at the back of her head.

And what frustrates me the most,
She did not emphasize much on the benefits of breastfeeding
Neither on how a newborn DO NOT NEED any extra fluid (read:water) other than mother’s milk
Cause I need hubs to understand this fact,
as this, I believe, is the most difficult part to convince Mak on
FYI, she insisted me on preparing at least 2 bottles for my baby
1 for the milk, and the other, for ‘air masak’…. -_____-
I’m afraid that my intention to EXCLUSIVELY breastfeed my dear baby
Will be going down the drain, by ‘air masak’…… -____-

Nevertheless, despite all my frustration towards the class,
dear hubs did learned a lot from it
Man, they prefer to be told, than read
For that good 4 hours, it definitely turned him into a man,
who’s very excited and eager to become a dad
Why so?

Cause since then, he’s totally at the full gear on preparing to welcome our dear little one
First, he started to do some research on the hospital that we planned to deliver in
On where to go when I’m in labor and keep pestering me on my hospital bag preps

Next, he bought the car seat yesterday
I thought we’re just surveying
I did sense he’s ‘different’
Usually, when we shop, he’ll be just like look at the thing, the price, and that’s it
But yesterday, he touched it, maneuvers it, checked and rechecked the specs
Disclaim on how it should be instead of that and what not
And finally, we agreed on one, and purchased it then and there

Another important note,
He googled on video on how to use a breastpump!
Btw, yeah, I’ve bought mine online and received last week
I addressed them to my parent’s house, so I just got my hands on it last Sunday
(Will update on this bit later)
So as we reached home, while I’m inspecting and unpacking my valuable purchase,
He silently googled it, and we watched it as we learned together

I have to say, all this while, when I told him that I wanted to breastfeed our baby
And I would need a breastpump, and told him how much it cost (which apparently cost me a fortune!),
He said it’s totally ridiculous to spend so much on one item,
And left it to me to decide on should I proceed to buy it or not
And of course, I have to pay for it myself cause I insisted on this particular model… -_____-
Who knew, after the class, he got so interested in it
That he even tested it, just to hear the mimics sound of baby sucking…
And had the most glorify expression on his face once he heard it…
Such a beautiful moment I must say

Haih
Really can’t wait to meet our little one
Sakit pinggang wooooo!!!!!
Nk gomol dia lama²

Thursday, September 15, 2011

A special note for the unborn....

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum anak mama
How are you in there, my precious dear?
Sempit ye….as I type this, u’re frantically kicking (or punching) on the right upper side of my tummy….
senak mama tau!

Syg…Mama minta maaf yea sbb smlm termarah baby….
Ye laaa...mama penat, tapi mama tak dpt nk sleep well,
cos syg asek main kt area rusuk mama…
Susah mama nk jumpe position yg comfortable utk sleep
Mama asik rasa susah je nk nafas
Lepas mama pujuk and zikir², baru syg bergerak dr situ
Then baru mama dpt sleep
Thank u syg…baik anak mama ni…
Mama syg baby tau!

Bile anak mama ni nak masuk ke position yg btol?
Kalau syg rasa kuat, and ade ruang, syg pusing lah parking kepala kt bawah yea…
Mama harap sgt mama dpt lahirkan baby dgn cara normal…
Tapi, kalau tak dpt, its ok…
Mama tetap syg baby
Yg penting, mama selamat lahirkan anak mama ni nnt
Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya…kan syg?

Sekarang anak mama ni dh 34 Weeks ++….
Lusa genap 35 Weeks
Means lagi seminggu, anak mama ni dh cukup 9 bulan
Tapi ramai yg komen muka mama sembab
Mcm org yg tunggu hari

Tapi xmolah keluar dulu ye syg
Tunggu lah atleast dh cukup 9 bulan
Then bila baby rasa dh kuat, baby bg hint kt mama dulu eh

Deep down inside, mama pon rasa mcm mama ni tgh tunggu hari
Sbb dh sarat sgt rasanya bwk anak mama ni ke hulu hilir
Nk jln pon susah…
Abah kata mama dh mcm ‘gergasi’ bile berjalan
Sbb mama tends tu terhuyung-hayang...jahatkan abah?
Hihihih

Speaking of abah,
Abah masih lagi terkejut kalau terasa syg kick perut mama
Tak tau napa, dia kata dia rasa geli -____-
Patut mama yg rasa geli kan? Pape je abah ni
Tapi dia syg baby sgt ² tauu…
Dia selalu tanya, bila baby nk kuar nk jumpa dia...
Dia tak sabar nk manjakan baby…nk gomol² baby
Mama kata, sabarlah...kasi la baby ni dok dlm perut mama at least smpai 9 bulan

Lately ni pon abah caring sgt²
Dia rajen ‘bobok’kan mama before sleep
Ye laa…mama kan dh susah nk tdo…
So dia selalu gosokkan blkg mama smpai mama sleep
Even kalau dia nk tgk wrestling kol 10,
dia akan tmankan mama sleep dulu
baru dia gi tgk tv....

Cuma tang urut kaki tu, abah selalu je bg excuse
Selalu dia kata, esok lah....bile dh esok, esok lagiiii...hihihhihh
Dulu dia rajin....tapi ni, dgn minyak panas pon dh misplace tah kt mane,
Mmg dh tak merasa la kaki mama ni diurut
Nnt syg igtkan mama beli minyak panas baru k?
Kita buli abah....hihihihi

Tapi nasib baik lah, dh nk dekat 9 bulan ni, mama tak pernah lg kene cramp kt kaki
Cuma ade sekali, tgh masak, hampir terkena simpul biawak
Tp cpat² mama straightkan kaki, then ok dah...
Kesian mommy² to be yg lain yg selalu kene cramp kan?
Mama tak tau sakit dia cmne sbb tak pernah kena
Tapi sure skt amatkan?

Barang baby utk kt hospital nnt, dh lama mama preparekan
Sejak jln² raya aritu lagi, mama dh bwk bag emergency baby ke mana²
Ye laaa…mana tau, kot², baby tetibe nk jadi anak Pontian / Muar / Spore?
Hihihihihihih

Syukur sepanjang 2 minggu raya ni, baby ok je
Baby rasa tak mama makan dgn byknye?
Mama naik 2 kilo ok sejak raya 2 minggu ni
Mmg mok² teramat dh sekarang ni
Total weight gain mama pon dh jejak 12kg!!!
Hikhikhik
Takpelah…yg penting, baby sihat….

Mama harap baby gets all the nutritions u need, syg
Mama try to balance ape yg mama makan
Tp dh nama raya kan, lebih byk yg tak elok dr yg elok
Oh oh…mama jugak minta maaf sbb dh lama tak minum susu
Mama janji, mlm ni mama minum k?
Sbb tiap pagi, bila mama gosok gigi, kompem gusi berdarah
It must be lack of calcium...
Anak mama ni tgh nk membesar…so byk amik calcium dr mama ehhhhh
Baby pujuk lah abah, minta dia buatkan mama susu....
Mama ni, kalau kene buat sendiri, dan dan tak jumpa mana susu tu…hihihhi

Baby,
kalau ditakdirkan satu hari nnt,
mama tak dpt nk bersama baby lagi,
mama harap sgt yg baby tau, mama syg baby sgt²
baby ialah anugerah terhebat and terindah dariNya pada mama and abah
sepanjang hampir 9 bulan baby dgn mama,
mama rasa bahagia sgt

From the moment we know that we’re expecting you,
I’ve loved you with all my heart
Everyone did…Mama, Abah, Tok Mama, Atok and Maktok
Semua happy sgt bile dpt tau u will be part of us in matter of months…

Syg, tak pernah sedetik pon mama rasa kesal dgn kehadiran syg dlm perut mama
Mungkin sesekali mama ade merungut on how tak selesa I felt
Or how irritating it is to have to go to the loo every 15 minutes,
Tapi, tak pernah mama slhkan baby
Mama tau, its just parts and parcels of being pregnant
And InsyaAllah, there’s d greatest reward waiting for me at the end of the tunnel
And I just can’t wait for that moment to come

TQ syg sentiasa jadi peneman mama,
especially bila mama merajuk dgn abah….
U’re always there to ‘comfort’ me bile mama mengadu pape
Bile mama nangis, baby akan give some reaction kt dlm
Either kick or golek²….and mama anggap tu as syg trying to pujuk mama
TQ so much syg

Anak mama, jadilah anak yg sentiasa membahagiakan keluarga
yg taat dan patuh pada Allah, hormati org tua, dan disenangi semua
syg jaga abah yea...
xmo selalu susahkan abah tau
abah tu cepat panik kalau benda yg kurang diingini berlaku
tapi he’s a good problem solver...Cuma first² je dia akan panic
nnt dh lama sikit, dia dpt digest keadaan tu, then dia dpt think straight…
tu lah abah syg…
mama syg dia sgt²...dunia akhirat, InsyaAllah

k lah...
dh panjang sgt note utk baby....
hopefully satu hari nnt, baby dpt baca ni
nnt bila², kalau ade kelapangan lagi,
mama tulis lagi utk anak mama ni k?

Till then,
I love u, my precious little angel....

mama and abah while u're 8 months in mama's womb


p/s : Kirim kan salam syg mama pd abah ye...U both means the world to me… xoxo!






Monday, September 12, 2011

The Ups and Downs of Living in an Apartment

Frankly speaking, it wasn’t our first ultimate choice
I mean, we never thought of living ‘atas langit’ when we first scouting for a place to rent
We preferred a landed house
Kebaikan dia, tak payah lah nk elaborate kan
Semua pon tau
Dpt parking dpn umah, buang sampah dpn umah
Tak payah tunggu lift, yadda yadda

Tapi Allah Maha Mengetahui
We searched high and low for a landed house
Tapi sentiasa tiada ‘jodoh’
Malas nk citer panjang

Dipendekkan cerita, we finally settled with a unit on the 8th floor at P**** R** Apartment
If u were to ask me, I anggap ia sebagai takdir and ‘jodoh’
Sbb we never knew/heard of this place,
tp masa survey area A, someone told us about the apartment
Terus gi tgk, terus suka (I did till now, but not hubs) and terus setuju sewa

And dh 9 bulan duduk sini,
I must say, it wasn’t a perfect place
Mmg byk kekurangan dok atas langit ni
Tapi I boleh terima tu semua
Sbb to me, walau mana pon kita duduk, ade shj cabarannye
Takde tempat yg takde masalah
Lagi2 menyewa kan
Mana ade rumah yg betol2 perfect yg fits our criteria kan

Nak buang sampah, kene bawak turun and buang kt tempat disediakan
Nak parking, kene berebut
Mmg each unit disediakan 1 dedicated parking berbumbung
Tapi our owner pakai lot tu, so we can’t use it
Kalau balik lewat mlm jgn harap dpt parking yg dekat dgn blok
Nak gi kerja, kene tunggu lift
And nak dijadikan cerita juga, the lift that is much nearer to our unit selalu sgt rosak
Selalu as in sebulan, at least ade 7 hari kami tak dpt guna lift tu

So far I rasa 3 points itu shj yg I kurang berkenan
Tapi I still can tolerate laaaa
Sbb masih ade option lain kan
Cuma kalau those 3 points dpt dibaiki, it’d be much better laaaa

Hubs on the other hand
Tak berapa dpt terima keadaan2 ni
To him, it’s all so troublesome
Walau dh lama dok sini, he still complains and blurts how much he hates this place

Lebih² lagi on last wiken
Kan dia jemput his friends and family to come over….
And nk dijadikan cerita, there are few unnecessary incidents happened

1. Guests have to register at the guard house and leave their driving license
Dah nama duduk apartment kan, and its guarded, of course la security harus mantap. Takkan la sesenang je ntah sape2 boleh keluar masuk kan…residence sendiri mesti pakai their access card utk masuk. Takkan guests boleh masuk macam gitu je kan. Kalau mcm tu, baik residence semua ngaku guests je…tak payah nk beria scan card bagai. And that, to me, is the biggest difference between umah flat and apartment. Security!
And because of this jugak, I’m happy with this place. I rase safe and secured. Infact, I don’t mind kalau hubs tinggalkan I sorang bile dia pegi futsal, and blk lewat mlm. Tp bila dia tinggalkan I sorg at umah mak (landed house), hah, yg tu I mmg sumpah takut! Ade sekali tu, umah mak dimasuki orang masa mak tgh terlelap waktu lepas asar. Habis barang kemas dia, and no one noticed! Of course la I takut kan. Siang pon sesenang org masuk, ape lagi mlm…..

So I mmg sgt suka dok sini…sbb I tau, I can trust their security system. lagi2 skrg dlm lift pon diorg dh pasang CCTV…. But of course, harusla masih berhati2 kan…malang kan tidak berbau….

And yeah, as u guessed, hubs felt so disappointed sbb telah menyusahkan kwn2 and his family sbb kene register and tinggalkan license at the guard post. Lagi2 bile the guests sendiri dok complain and said, susah nak masuk umah kitorg…lagi la hubs rasa stressed. I totally understand how he felt. He’s afraid that the guests will feel menyesal dtg sbb leceh. But to me, they should (already) know, living in an apartment, ade security, maka ade lah penapisan orang. But they just couldn’t accept this fact. -_____-

And deep down inside, I felt so disappointed dgn minded mereka. Sbb this is the main point why I love staying here, but on the other hand, others hate it so much. Sedih!

2. Lift yg berhampiran our unit, not working
Of all days, perlu kah lift tu rosak pada hari we’re expecting guests???? Arghhhhh…I pon geram…tapi pasrah je laaa..nk buat camne kan? Dh takdir…tp tu laaa…kesian kt mereka yg dtg..ade tu, dia igt itu satu2 nye lift di blok kami, and he found out its rosak, dia naik tangga sampai tingkat 8!!! Kesian! Silap kami jugak sbb tak inform awal2 yg there’s another lift on the other side, cume kene jln ke depan sikit. Tang ni, mmg I kesal sgt…kesian kt dia…nasib orang lain jumpa lift yg lagi satu tu…. -_____-

3. Kereta kena clamp
As I mentioned earlier, each unit disediakan 1 dedicated parking berbumbung kan. So its understood that guests, harus lah parked di kawasan yg tidak berbumbung. Atas sebab² miscommunication, hubs dh bilang, park di lot TIDAK berbumbung. Unfortunately, his friend did not hear the word ‘TIDAK’, thus parked in one. Makanye, bila dia nk balik, of course, kereta kena clamp!

And it became a serious issue bile, even kami dh settlekan the summon, his friends telah memanjangkan cerita dgn mengugut the guards! Siapa yg tinggal di apartment tu???? Siapa yg harus mengadap and menanggung malu di atas sikap insensitive mereka tu? The guards are just doing their job. Kalau I jadi pemilik parking lot tu pon, I akan marah. Ye laa..that’s my lot, tapi ade ntah siapa parked at mine. Siapa yg tak marah kan. Of course la owner tu gi ngadu at the guards and they clamped the car. So to me, the guards tidak ade pape salah pon. Haih…. sedih…-______-


Therefore now, no matter how much I love to stay here
How secured I feel to stay here
Lagi² bile nnt dh ade anak, I yakin I selamat ditinggalkan sendirian dgn anak kami
Especially bile hubs OT or blk lewat utk futsal or lepak session with his friends
I have to give in

Dh too many times I have to listen to hubs, blurting how he hates this place
How troublesome it is staying here
And how annoying the guards are
For the unconditional love I have to my hubs, I dgn rela hati, give in

For now, kami tunggu rumah tu dipasang grill,
And we’ll move in ASAP

It’s kawasan umah baru,
Security, I’m not convinced
Mmg ade guard post, tapi they just let anyone in and out of the area
Without scrutinizing them
So, mmg I tak akan rasa secured

Plus, it’s a corner lot,
Lagi la bertambah takut
Tapi I’ll embrace it
Cause I believe, setiap rumah, ade rezekinye
And of course ade cabarannye
Hanya bergantung pd kita utk mengolah and harunginye sebaik mungkin
Mengikut cara hidup masing²
And I’ll always berdoa and tawakal kepada Allah
Agar Dia sentiasa lindungi kami dari sebarang bencana
InsyaAllah



p/s: I am not complaining, but just sharing my experience. Life is definitely a never-ending learning journey. Dugaan and cabaran tu ada di mana²...Its up to us to decide how to overcome it. ;)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Open-ing the house

it has been almost 9 months we stayed here
and we barely have any guest around
accept for both side of the family, mak teh, and maklang's family

itu pon they came mase awal2 kitorg pindah dulu
mak came on end of January,
saja nk ziarah kami yg at that time belom ade anything at the hall
it happened that masa dia dtg, sofa, tv and kitchen cabinet pon baru smpai
so she witnessed all the messiness
tp dptla I hidangkan mihun sup and ayam bakar for them
simple jeeeeee...sbb diorg btau nk dtg pon dh last minit

mama and others pulak dtg on cuti apentah masa tu
raya haji ke raya cina,...ntah x igt dh....
masa tu mmg tau ade dlm 12 org nk dtg
n mama pon dh btau awal
so I dgn semangatnye masak nasi ayam
woohhhooooooo
and sukses ya'll!!!
hubs pon kata sedap.....hihiihihh
since then, I mmg rasa yakin utk masak nasi ayam secara byk utk org
oh oh...masa tu i blom pregnant lg
so mmg mengadela kan kalau dh tau org nk dtg, tp tak prepare pape...

eh panjangnye intro
btw, the point of this entry is
just nk btau yg we're expecting guests tonight
nervous i!!!!!
hubs is inviting some of his school frens to come over for raya tonight
and he, being nice, xnk isteri dia penat, dia order je the foods
x silap dia order mihun goreng n ayam
yeah...simple je....

tp i as a wife, am x sedap hati la pulak kan x buat pape
so i decided to prepare some dessert
and I made fruit cocktail trifle


its my first attempt
hopefully jadi laaa
ni tgh set dlm fridge
harap2 ok jeee...
kalau x, malu wooooooooo
hihihhihi

and aritu dh beli apples
so igt nnt diorg nk dtg,
I nk wat fruit salad skit
tgkla camne

as for now, jap gi ni
nk kene mop skit
smlm hubs dh vacuum and arrange semua

eh eh
lagi satu nk btau
esok, mak, maklong, makngah, mokteh and moksu's family is coming over
ade lebih kurang 20 org tu....
ramaiiiiii...tp i dgn semngat dan rela hatinye offer diri utk masak
opkos nasi aym......ahahhahahha
hubs doubt that i could manage
susah jugak nk pujuk dia

ikut dia, dia nk order jeee
tapi i tak setuju
i rasa i mampu
lagi pon, yg dtg ni family kot.....first time lak tu
dh la mmg selama ni kt umah mak, i jarang masak
setakat tolong je...
so i nak jugak diorg rasa air tangan i....
walau tak sedap mana....
but it means a lot to me....

hopefully everything went well tonight n tomorrow
hrp2 ank mama ni pon behave ye syg

k lah...
nk sidai baju n mop
i'll update on the house 'opening' nnt yeah!
toodles!

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