Tuesday, March 16, 2010

abnormal

I just asked someone out for dinner
something yang i tak pernah buat
i mean, i tak pernah ask someone out for dinner
adoi.ape aku merapik nih

anyway, org tu belom reply lagi
i'm waiting anxiously
nervous pon ade
dah kecut2 perut dah ni
naya gak kalo dia decline my invitation kn
xmo laaa
please agree....please
it really means a lot to me...
please....
please say..... YES!

Monday, March 15, 2010

is it me, or celcom, or RedHOT?

hmmm
I recently know that ade text yg i tak receive
baru2 ni, accidentally make calls
tak tau la i yang tertekan
tak mungkin laa
sbb time tu hp elok je atas meja
tapi..memang ade kertas2 or my notebook yg tindih
tapi tak kan laaa kan
or hp ni dah mule nak buat hal
or celcom yg nk cekik darah?
kalau diorang tak bitau,
i pon tak tau
ntah bape la bil bulan ni
sbb ade couple of calls yg unintended


p/s: saya syg RedHOT saya. walau ape pon yg terjadi. tetap SAYANG!

I wonder

nak block ke tak nak eh?
i tak nak la appear to be childish ke ape kan
cam tak matang jeeee kalau block

bende dah lepas kn
watpe nk ungkit2 lagi kan
ape pon kite buat
bende dah jadi pon
takleh wat ape pon dah

words were spoken
hearts has been hurt
the wounds are there
so tak payah laa nk tambah lagi

anyway
i dah chop of my not-so-goldi-locks
ngeh
dah pendek! yeay!
tapi tak sependek yg i inginkan! not so yeay!
tapi i puas hati laaaa
mmg....erm...different!
dia TAK AKAN suke!
takpe.

keje lately adelah sgt teruk
byk sgt bende nak dibuat
baru nak start 1, dtg lagi 2
pening pening

k laaa
off to makan gaji!
daaa


p/s: tertinggal hp arini...let's see bole tak hidup tanpa hp...hurmmmm

Sunday, March 14, 2010

chop chop it off

been contemplating
on chopping off my locks
bukan just trim2 ke hape
ni nak buat bizarre change

my current hair lebih kurang camni

the length and the curl
wavy2 gituuuu
tapi of coz la tak seCUN model ni kan
i ni bertudung...takdelaaa nk jage sgt kan


tapi kan...lame gak i simpan rambut ni...
about a year....dr maulud (before gi redang), ke maulud
tak potong2, trim ckit2 jeee
konon nak panjang cam fazura laaaa
eicewaaahhhhh
poyo!

anyway

kinda got sick of the long hair
asik gugur jeeeeee
bosan

plus, i guess NOW is the right time
for me to change
completely change
dah tak nak pikir bende2 lepas

soo...
mama suruh potong camni
not too short, not too long....
memang cantik...
but i nak shorterrrrrrr!!!!


maybe something like this

ok.hands down.
muka saya tak se'cute' keira...
saya lagiiiii COMEL (read:chubby)


tapiiiiiiii...still tak cukup pendek!
nak lagi pendek!
macam ni keeee


ade fringe...
cute gak eh
tapi my hair is not THAT straight!
fringe2 ni hanye akan menjadi SEMAK!


so this is the best option
simple!
patut kahhhhh????



susah2 sangat...
ade yang jadi camni terus!
habis cerita!


p/s: memang sayang.....tapi kene fikir utk diri sendiri.


Saturday, March 13, 2010

G.i.r.l.

Xmo g plkn...
Nnt akak rindu
Sape nk layan akak kepek2(merapik) nnt?
Ala..xmo.
Jgn pegi..
Lmbtkn masa pleeaase...



Friday, March 12, 2010

takde pape

hari ni belom update kan?
tak tau nk update ape
hari ni keje macam tak keje


kepale pening belah kanan
sbb mata kanan ade tembel. (again)
then rase loya jek
nk makan pon takde selera
tgk nasi pon cammm....euwwwwww
dah bape are i x mkn nasi
smlm gi mkn sushi pon i x bape mkn sgt
ard 5 sushis je...pelik!

sejak hari tu, i asik mkn roti je
so tak payah la nk kate boleh kurus tak mkn nasi
ni asik bantai roti je...mmg tak la kannnnn

tapi dlm kepale ni
asek terbayang roti naan yg sedap tu
and tom yam yang sedap itu jugak
entah bile laaa dapat kan
takkan nk gi sana sorg2 kan
cam pathetic je...

dh lah fana...lupekan jelaaaaa
kt mana2 pon same
yeke sama?
xkire!nk yang kat situ jugak!
grrrrrrr...emo dah ni!
dh jgn layan
merapik dh ni
bye!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

small CELEBRATION

ok. lets leave all the sedih-medih-sappy-melancholy ramblings behind k
after all, I jugak yg laluinye semua sendiri
so rasenye cukup la sampai sini kite bersesi luahan rasa ye
kita tak boleh paksa orang terima kita kan?


baik
mari lah kita bergembira
gumbira gumbira
lupakan lara
amende aku merapik nih?


ok
so as I mentioned on previous post,
my little sist, mairah@myra@girl, aced in her SPM
she got 9As, alhamdulillah

girl yang gigil!

mase dpt tau tu, ayah call umah
mama agkt, mama lek je mase tu
cam cool gile, cam tak surprise, cam expected or watsoever
tapi bile letak tepon, terus kebushhhhhhh...BANJIRRRRR!!!!
i pon, lari masuk bilik, kebushhhhhh jugak....
nasib laaaaa
hahahhaha
then call girl, jerit2 kat dia, konon marah laaaaa
nasib awak la girl, dpt akak camnih!

btw, yeap, I took half day off
sbb kononnye pagi tu, nk gi somewhere with someone
tapi, ntah la,I waited, tp pepaham je laaa
kalo dh senyap je tuh, cancel la tu...
dah tak interested la tu kot
takpe, hidup mesti diteruskan

so pas dah sesi 'kebushhhh', n dpt berfikir cara normal semula,
mama decided kengkonon nak wat surprise
ape barang balik umah, surprise kan dgn asam pedas ikan duri kn?
so pikir punye pikir
last2 mama ajak makan sushi

so siap2, gigih gile i sorang tolong siapkan mama and myself
tau je laaa mama kan, dari mandi, ke pakai baju, stokin, tudung, naik kerete
semua perlukan 'dayang' ok!
mama kata kene practice
yela...tak lama lagi girl mesti dh ke mana2 blaja kan
hmmmmm...lambat kan masa pleaseeeeeee

smpai JJ Tebrau around the same time
ayah, girl, aida n hanis straight dr skolah
kakak tak join...keje kan


girl.hanis(her bff).aida(our cusin)

so, sampai sana, kecoh gile girl
I am so happy for her
the day before (semalam), dia ade ckp
kalau dia tak dpt at least 7A, dia akan jd bisu for 7 hari
tak tau lak kalo dpt 9A, terus tak reti senyap.
duuuhhhhhh
takpe, I still love u girl....


the damage?

so after makan2,
we go separate ways
diorang terus balik
i singgah post office


renew my driving license
then terus masuk office
lambat 15 minit
takpe. balik laa lambat 15 minit!

akhir kata, dear Nur Humairah
u know I am proud of u
n u know I love u
n u know I am happy for u
n please do know, I am POKAI
sile jangan mintak yg bukan2
akak bagi kasih sayang n doa k?
xoxo


p/s: tak cakap, tak bermakna tak rasa........


Alhamdulillah

as u all knows
arini result SPM kuar
and my little sis amek SPM this year....

Alhamdulillah
She made it
She nailed it
9As with 3A+

Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah

She really is a special and gifted GIRL for us
Alhamdulillah

p/s: this is what I call a GREAT distraction. Syukur....every cloud has a silver lining kan?

p/p/s: kechek....thank you...aku seriously terharu.....jgn risau....k....thanx so much for being so thoughtful...I'm touched!

There's still life after 'death'

yeap
it may feel like someone throw a bomb right on my face
but at least I still have some piece of me
that is still reliable
it may be not in perfect condition
but it is still worthwhile

I won't give up
I promise
If that person decided to leave, I'll move on
If that person decided to throw me out of their life, I'll carry on
If that person decided to enjoy seeing me tumbling down, I'll held my head up high

cause I know
deep inside, I am not mad
I am just........disappointed
what happen to through thick and thins?
Its all a b***s**t and f**kings**t


for now, I am NOT OK
I've lost a VERY IMPORTANT part of me
I will NEVER be OK
NEVER!

but yes, there is still life after death
and I shall start planning on it
for now, just don't shove me any babies....


p/s: I am no more perfect. for anyone.

p/p/s: Will there be anyone who's willing to accept ME? entah lah.tgk la jap gi, kalau dia dtg, kita pergi same2............saya tunggu.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

10.03.10

@ approximate 11.15 am
I received a 'death sentence'
to make things worst
I have to face it alone

I don't know how to face the world anymore
how to carry on a 'normal' life

i don't know
eversince, i can't stop crying
suppose to rest for a week
but i refuse

dok kt umah lagi la buat i fikir mcm2
so lebih baik gi je office
walaupon tak buat keje sgt
but at least, i can still try to distract myself

p/s: pandai buat, pandai la tanggung kan?


ouch!

haih
sakit giler
pedih sgt2
tapi terpaksa tahan

tak bitau sesape pon
sbb takut
tp td terrrrbitau someone
nyesal pon ade
sbb no point
tapi tak tau la nape boleh terlepas jugak
3 hari bole tahan sendiri
nape arini leh terlepas eh?
dh la dgn cara yg tak sepatutnye
haih
bende dh jadik kan
nk wat camne?
so skrg, ape patut saya buat?
nk gi doc?
kalo rahsia pecah, macam mane?
damn!
tapi dah tak tahan sgt ni....
 
p/s: google doesn't help much.


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

PMS

yea
saya mengaku
PMS kali ni tak mcm selama ni
datang pon pada wrong timing
sgt wrong timing
especially bile musim 'mengawan' mcm skrg ni
mmg WRONG TIMING!

sakit dia, extra sakit
emo dia, extra emo
bende yg kecik pon saya akan emo
tapi kalau kene gayanye, takkan berpanjangan
tapi, ni.....memang dh melarat
macam2 yg dah terpikir dah ni

saya tau mesti dia pikir saya ni mengada
dia selalu pikir pompuan ni kalo period je, mengade
bukan mengade ok!
bende ni bukan nye dibuat2
it comes naturally ok!
N.A.T.U.R.A.L!

sakit tahu tak??????
tak tipu!

sia-sia II

kenape yea
kenape kite sanggup tolong org
yg tgh susah walau pon diri kite sendiri pon tgh susah?


kenape kite masih sanggup go through the pain
sedangkan kite tau semua tu sia-sia je
takkan dihargai

ape itu hargai?
bukan harap dibalas
tapi just a simple gesture
mcm say THANKS or an honest smile will do

ni tak
blah macam tu je
macam kite ni terhegeh2
sivik tahu tak?

Monday, March 8, 2010

sia-sia

semua nya sia-sia
SEMUANYA!

I am so frustrated
langsung tak dihargai

saya tau la saya ni bukan siapa2
takde pangkat, ape lagi harta
itu je yg saya mampu berikan
memang tak seberape, tapi amat bermakna pada saya
tapi malangnye, langsung tak dihargai!
memang sia-sia

terima kasih
saya betol2 kecewa
tak tipu.


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