Friday, January 29, 2010

Fatigue

U get the drift
yeap. I am a hell of an exhausted chap

mama's condition masih macam tu jugak
no progress. yet.
I prefer to believe the 'YET' part
cause I believe that she will get well
she MUST get well

being on leave for 1 and a half day doesn't help at all
in fact, it was the longest, dreadest 1 and a half day for me
ke sana ke mari
attending mama's needs and all

its not that I am complaining
but, haih....idk

things weren't going well this week
but alhamdulillah, I've toughen up
smpai skrg I tak menitis kan satu air mata pon pasal tu
my time is filled with melayan mama

tipu kalau I tak fikir langsung
of course, I do
hati ni rase...kosong sgt
takde sape nk dijadikan tempat mengadu
selalunye, kalau time mcm ni, I'll talk to someone
mengadu, and just rants about my day
how I'm worried about mama's condition and all

but now, thing's weren't the same anymore
I kene belajar suck it in, and thats it
simpan je. tak payah mimpi nak luah2 kan ke ape

I'm a big girl (and i mean physically too! ;p)
dah nak 25 pon (suku abad tuuuuuu!)
haruslah tabah
takleh cengeng lagi
takleh nak harapkan org lagi
harus berdikari
harus!
mesti!

go go Farhana
I believe you can do it!
Aja aja Fighting!
harus mengharap semangat Han Ji En merasuki diri ini
ngeh

for now, I leave you with this verse
from a song yg wat I tersengih je skrg

Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak
Siapa yang punya anak
Bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

Pengumuman-pengumuman
Siapa yang mau bantu
Tolong aku kasihani aku
Tolong carikan diriku kekasih hatiku
Siapa yang mau


p/s: to you, thank you for praying for mama too. I appreciate that. a lot.




Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Lost

Im in office, but hati n fikiran ni dok ke lain

just got off the phone with mama
she could barely talk
bergenang air mata bile dgr suara dia


yeap. as u all can guess,
mama sakit. again.
since semalam

this morning, as I hugged her, I rasa sayu sgt
sbb dia masih boleh hug I blk
though tak kuat, but I can feel the love
siap belai2 rambut I lagi



Mama
please get well soon
adek sayang mama


I'm worried.
I'm scared
I've officially lost someone this morning
I can't afford to lost another, anytime soon


Ya Allah, lindungilah kami....



p/s: maybe I should take leave. It's better to be safe than sorry.



Courage

I won't sweep my problems under the rug!
I would love to settle it then and there


hey you!
jgn buat mcam ni lagi k
it is just not right
jage la hati dia buat kali terakhir
dia masih ade maruah dan harga diri
toodles!




Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Whisper it to Me...I'll be waiting....

Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me and I'll be there
I'll be there waitin'...

I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one else who loves You like I do
Come to me now

I will never leave you, I will stay here with You
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in Love with You...




p/s: kt telinga ni dok terngiang2 this wonderful piece by Jacky Cheung and Regine Velasquez..especially those verse mentioned above....really means a lot to me, each and every single line...really!

p/p/s: I'm waiting....

rumours!

taken from NST

Sultan displeased with rumours

2010/01/26

JOHOR BARU: The newly-proclaimed Sultan of Johor, Sultan Ibrahim ibni Almarhum Sultan Iskandar, has expressed displeasure over rumours that people had been reprimanded for not wearing proper attire of mourning for his late father.
Johor Council of Royal Court secretary Datuk Abdul Rahim Ramli said Sultan Ibrahim Ismail had related his concern over the rumours.

"His Royal Highness relayed (his concern) to me this morning. He has heard the rumours and is not pleased. He is very concerned.

"Never has Johor issued a directive to force people to wear (clothes for mourning). There is not an iota of truth in the rumours," he said in his office at Istana Besar here.

Rahim also denied rumours of policemen or personnel from the Johor Military Force detaining people who were not wearing the mourning attire.

By tradition, the people are required to mourn the death of rulers for seven days.
Johor adopts a standard mourning attire of songkok with a white band for Muslim men, white veil for Muslim women and black armband on the left arm for non-Muslims. Those wearing uniforms are required to wear the black armband.

Rahim described the nasty rumours as "nonsense" and said those who wished to mourn the late Sultan Iskandar should do it sincerely.

"If Johoreans want to mourn his majesty's death, they should do so out of sincerity, loyalty and love for Almarhum Sultan Iskandar.

"If one does not wish to wear it, one needn't do so. There is no force to do so," he said.

Rahim also announced the proper way to address the current sultan of Johor's consort and eldest son.

He said the sultan's consort would be officially referred to as "Yang Maha Mulia Raja Zarith Sofiah binti Almarhum Sultan Idris Shah", while the sultan's eldest son, who is Raja Muda Johor is referred to as "Duli Yang Amat Mulia Tunku Ismail Ibni Sultan Ibrahim".

Rahim said both their titles would be used until further notice.



p/s: semalam beria gi angsana, mencari tudung putih..konon takut kene saman 300 freaking bucks. so since dh beli, saya, dgn hati yg ikhlas, sbg rakyat johor, will mourn too...

Monday, January 25, 2010

Penantian adelah satu Penyeksaan

do u agree?
me? YES!!!
sgt terseksa ok

I jenis yang tak bole nak tunggu lame2
lagi tunggu, lagi sakit hati
kalau bole, dan dan tu abeskan cerita
tak yah tunggu
menyeksa jeeee
it is all purely because, I hate waiting

masa itu emas
yes, ade bende yang mmg kite kene tunggu
takleh la nk wat keputusan dan dan tu gak
it all depends on the situation and of course, the circumstances la kan

in conclusion,
I tak suke tunggu.
period.



Saturday, January 23, 2010

White

mane pulak laaa nak cekau tudung putih ni???
let me see
when was the last time i wore a white tudung?
that was ages ago
zaman matriks kot

skrg mmg takde tudung putih
cream ade laaaaa
mama kata mesti ikut perintah
kalau tak, bole kene denda/lempang
hurrrgggghhh

takpe..nasib ade tudung hitam
dh laa ade satu je
for one whole week pakai the same tudung hitam?
bedal je la labu....


p/s: update kt office sbb bosan dok umah...hurmmmmm


Friday, January 22, 2010

It takes 2 to tango

things won't work if we do it alone
tepuk sebelah tgn takkan berbunyi
get it?


haih
its raining this morning as i drove to work
kinda fits the mood I'm having
it turns melancholy

i fix the rule
and I have to face it
with dignity

You can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no
Know that I must pass this test
so just pull the trigger



if only I could turn back time.........


p/s: ape laaaa yang aku dok merapik pepagi ni?????*sigh*


Thursday, January 14, 2010

Sayangku

Happy 25th Birthday!



I love u so much
enough said


 

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

My Pact

WE IGNORE THE ONE'S WHO ADORE US 
ADORE THE ONE'S WHO IGNORE US 
LOVE THE ONE'S WHO HURT US 
AND HURT THE ONE'S WHO LOVE US


sgt ironic kan?

well, walau macam mane kite try to live in denial
we did tend to hurt org yg kite syg
reality check, bende ni, most of the times, bukan nye sengaje ke ape
ia berlaku tanpa kita sedari
tau tau je, kite TERsakit kan hati org tu
dh terhantuk, baru tergadah...paham?
tak paham takpe

anyways, i pon same
dh byk kali terjadi
n setiap kali tu jugak i promise not to repeat the same mistake
buuuuttttttttt, still jugak terjadi
again and again annnndddd again

sampai at one point of time
i rase i don't deserve to be loved
sbb tak dpt jd anak/sister/friend/gf/employee yg terbaik
tak payah nk kater terbaik
yg baik tu pon cam samar2 je
cam baik aku ni mati je
tak payah org lain sakit hati kerana aku
tak payah nk susah kan org lain

but this time around
I did a pact
a promise
a promise yg kalau i langgar, i sendiri akan merana
kirenye makan diri sendiri laaa
but wutdaheck
utk org yg saya sayangi, saya sanggup
asalkan i can be a better person

maka dgn ini
saya, Nur. Far.ha.na Zai.dun berjanji
kalau betol ia terjadi sekali lagi,
I'm dead
I promise.




Monday, January 11, 2010

tak suka!

benci FB!!!!
x pepasal rase down gile pagi ni
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

bukan salah sesiapa pon
but stillllll, hati ni....
hurmmmm
-.-


Thursday, January 7, 2010

Lump Sum

I know, i knowww
sudah lama saya tidak mengupdate 'baby' saya ini
bukannye takde bende nak update...
banyak bende nk update!!!!
tapi, cam takde mood plus buzy gile ngan stewardship meeting and what not

nevertheless,
since byk gamba yg telah diambil
better i update dr biar terperuk jek
so ini adalah update secara malas
update sekali gus!

i wont do it in any specific order
just randomly ok

  • 28 Dec 09 - turun spore, to collect wedding favors at city plaza, geylang...not mine, which i wish it was...its a very good friend of mine yang akan menamatkan zaman bujang early march ini punyeee...tak percaya!!!!btw, kedai tu, sgt sweet and very english style...mcm kedai lovely lace gitu...terpaksa susahkan ayah, girl and an...thanks sume sudi membantu!!!!of coz la ade reward utk diorg kn....muacks!



  • 1 Jan 2010 - bride and groom-to-be turun jb!!!of cos laaa utk mengcollect favors yg i dh amik tu kannn...unfortunately, hari tu, i keje...so tak dpt entertain diorang sgt..sgt kagum kerana mereka pandai membawa diri di bumi jb yg asing pd mereka ini...ngeh...i pon pelik awat laa diorg takde call2 pon, kot sesat ke hape...sgt berdikari...after my office hour, baru dtg ofis i, then i heret diorang balik umah...dpt laaa bg diorang mam mee hun goreng...thanx kakak! btw, sharon, ko makin cantik!!!terserlah seri nk nek pelamin....and yeap. ko memang makin matang! tak percaya! again.




  • 2 Jan 10 - buat pertama kalinya, telah membeli kain pasang utk diri sendiri...believe it or not, seumur hidup i, i tak pernah tempah baju....selalu beli siap jek...so ini kali pertama nak rase tempah baju utk diri sendiri...dh hantar tailor pon...around 18th baru siap kot...cant wait to see the outcome!

   
  • 31st Jan 09 - attend dinner ngan company Cericorn...kt Danga Straits Garden...happening! sbb new year eve kan....so merase laaa jugak tapi tak tunggu sampai countdown...around 10 something dh balik...esok nye keje woooooo
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  • 24 Dec - telah mam Prosperity burger di McD near carrefour...its my second time, but first for myPerson...dia yang beria, last, i yang memperabih coz, as i dah agak, it is too pedas for his liking...tapi nak jugak rase kannnn...eh eh...tapi lately ni, dia makin suke makan ape2 dgn cili padi....ikut sape la ni...hehehhe
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  • 24 Dec 09 - dapat kasut jogging baru!!!yeayyyy..suke...suke.... harap2 makin bersemangat la nk jogging pas ni...thank you sayang!!!!jangan serik tau! farah janji akan jogging ari2...tapi kalau ujan, tak dapek laa nak nolong...farah kuak lentang je k?! ngeh
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  • 19 Dec 09 - majlis tahlil arwah kat umah...adek beradik mama sume ade..dh lame tak kumpul ramai2 macam ni....happy gile dpt jumpe diorang....makcik siap import her ever famous bone steak (kuah merah) from singapore lagi...sedapppppppppp 
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  • 19 - 20 Dec - attend kursus pra-perkahwinan at Hotel Seri Malaysia bersama2...its one tiny step to a huge future.. InsyaAllah...kursus tu adelah best laa...overall sume ok...and please,jangan tanye bile nak kawin ok?! rahsia!!!!!hahahaha
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  • 20 Dec - bersempena genap 3 years and 7 months we were together as an item, kami dapat sijil kahwin!!!dah bole kawin!!!! jangan nak perasan la fana k....saboooooooo...baru sijil.......eh eh..tapi RM22.50 dah ade...so bole la kan? hahahhaa....sabo sabooooo...InsyaAllah....ade rezeki, ade laaa...ade jodoh, ade laaaaaa....
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Friday, January 1, 2010

2010

Will you still love me in the morning New Year ?



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