Sunday, November 29, 2009

Gone too Soon

this morning
at approximately 6.15am
I was quite awake (dh sedar tp malas nk bgn kind of state),
we received a call
the sound of the house phone ringing,
simultaneously with my dad's handphone,
gave me a chill

unfortunately, my cousin
a very close one
one year younger than me
anak tunggal Mak Teh (adik mama)
has passed on (hopefully peacefully)
over an accident

we did not know how it happened
as we can't really talked to Mak Teh yet
all we know, a police called Mak Teh
and told her that her son met with an accident
I supposed it happened early this morning
on his way back from lepak with friends katenye

Muhammad Syakirin Murajan @ Shark @ Yin
akak menyesal tak bawak yin jln2 mase yin turun jb ari tu
kalau tak, sekurang2nye, kita dpt hev fun sama
mesti ktorg layan yin cari baju
walau pon yin sangat la cerewet


Yin
pemergian yin terlalu cepat
akak macam tak percaya yang yin dh takde
tapi akak tau, akak kene redha

akak ingat lagi mase raya haji 2 thn lepas
masa akak amik yin kt stesen larkin
tak pasal2 akak kemekkan kete crv ayah
yin langsung tak marah akak
ayah pon tak marah
tapi akak rasa serba salah sgt
dh la masa tu nk bufday yin
mama siap belanja makan lagi

yin
terima kasih sbb tumpangkan bilik yin masa akak kat kl
terima kasih sbb selalu pinjamkan kenari
terima kasih sbb selalu jenguk akak kt UM dulu
akak masih ingat masa kita gi genting ngan haq, n kak nora
akak masih ingat masa kita tgk muvie KAMI kt jb
akak masih ingat betapa yin suke mkn chocolate cornflakes
akak masih ingat masa yin masih bam-bam, yin ckp ngan akak,
yin nak kurus....sbb yin susah nk dpt girlfriend
skrg yin dh kurus...dh hensem...dh ade otot kental2
tp Allah lagi syg kan Yin
lebih dr kitorng...or any girl


akak redha pemergian Yin
walaupon susah utk akak percaya
akak tau, ni semua takdir Allah
akak mesti redha

akak tak tau macam mane mama and ayah nk go thru lepas ni tanpa yin
tapi akak janji, akak akan jage diorang
akak tak tau, ade hikmah ke yin bagi kitorg simkad yin ?
yin dh tau ke yg yin takkan pakai lagi nombor tu?
akak akan simpan nombor tu sbb tu tarikh lahir yin

yin....akak rindu yin
yin tenanglah kat sana yeaaa
akak taknak type lagi
mata akak dh bengkak sgt niii

lastly, yin kirim kan salam sayang akak
pade tokmak, ayah ngah, papa and adik akak yeaaaa
semoga Allah cucuri rahmat ke atasmu
Al Fatihah



Tuesday, November 24, 2009

SPM?

hah
dh sminggu dah si-adik-kesayangan-hamba tu bertungkus lumus
baru ni kakak dia nk cite


anyways, dia yg SPM
tapi saya pon effect tauuuu
tak pepasal kene ingat balik
ape itu zaman Renaissance
formula trigonometri, probability and bla bla bla
hukum tinggalkan rukun haji, camne nk bayar dam
and ntah ape lagi...


dia stress, dia kacau i
i pulakkkk yg stress
time i nak tido tu laaaa
dia dok blaja kt my katil
habis sepah katil tu ngan notes dia




tapi,takdela i soh dia bangun kn
i kuis2 sikit, baring kt tepi dia
teman dia.....sambil men PSP....hehehhe
bingit je member

anyway dear adikku, Nur Humairah
All the best for your SPM
jangan stress sgt k
kalau dh stress tu, jgn laaa dok marah2 PSP
hehehhehehe



I love you!



Monday, November 23, 2009

why can't I be GENUINELY happy?

Life is NOT ALWAYS fair

or

Life is ALWAYS NOT fair


reality check, it is the first one
but it seems like the latter one is what we always thought



Almost Here

lama tak dgr lagu ni...
loved the singer(s)
their voice...
Delta Goodrem...hmmmmmm i like....

my fav part is...

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered, now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here


ehem *cough*



Friday, November 20, 2009

Give it a try!

Global Domains International

I was surfing the net
looking for a freelance job (hey. I can make use of the extra moolah ok!)
that's when I came across this GDI

the thing is, I'm not sure its a scam or not
I tried google for it
but none of the review mentioned that its a scam or whatsoever
and takde review yg meragukan pon

I continued my research on this thing
basically its multilevel laaa
the tricky part is, ur downline shouldnt have this "nak dpt duit cepat" thinking
because, its not that u just register and you get paid
no. u r expected to create a website
with .ws instead of .com
.ws stands for website

to me, its a no prob
i did have a look on the interface
dia ala2 blogspot jugak
ade template and all
kire senang laaa nk organize

itu yg i fahamlaaa
but if u guys are interested,
read here
here I quote some of it

More people have actually quit GDI than have stayed in, because most people sign up for the "Get-Rich-Quick" concept that is hyped up about GDI. It is really hard for the average person to make a substancial amount of income very fast with GDI because in order to make money, you have to get people to sign up under you. That is a lot easier said than done if you are marketing GDI as an income opportunity.

On the other hand, if you simply promote GDI as a Website Hosting Service that comes with a Free Domain Name and the possibility of keeping the account free for life, then it's a lot easier to get people to sign up and STAY, because when they sign up for the sole purpose of getting a hosting account, they won't be let down by not getting thousands of sign-ups. They will be concentrating on building their website instead, and once they have it built they are more likely to be staying on for the long haul, especially when they can keep it for free.

And the way they can keep their account free for life is by simply getting 10 people to sign up for an account under them, because GDI pays you $1.00 for every person in your downline. So, if you are paying GDI $10.00 a month for the account and GDI is paying you $10.00 a month for the 10 people in your downline, then in reality your account is free. And you don't have to get 10 people personally. Below is an example of what would happen if you only got 2 people signed up on your first level and then they each got 2 people and so on down to your fifth level.

Level 1 = 2.............$2.00 these are the 2 people you personally signed up
Level 2 = 4.............$4.00
Level 3 = 8.............$8.00
Level 4 = 16...........$16.00
Level 5 = 32...........$32.00

You would have a total downline of 62 people so GDI would be paying you $62.00 per month. Subtract your own $10 monthly fee you have a profit of $52.00 per month and a free domain name and hosting account for life.


hurmmmm
seems interesting (to me laaaa)

did i mention dia ade 7 days trial
kalau kite tarik diri within 7 days, its ok
kire dia tak amik 10 dollars tu
btw, 10 dollars tu takkan diambil pon
if we get 10 users signed up

I belom register
part of me masih ragu2
but part of me say...go for it!

can u all ask around????
btw, click here to watch a video of it

hurmmmmmmm
duit kannnn
kalao betol bende ni....dapat laaa I sambar Coach sebijik!
kalao betol scam, hurmmmmm lupe kan je laaaa
bye bye Coach!

hahahaha..tetibe jeeeeeee

tak salahkan berangannnnnn...free ape....




Thursday, November 19, 2009

so that it does not rain this evening

Hopefully it does not rain this evening
so that I can run

Hopefully I can run
so that I can get 'it' out of my system

Hopefully I can get 'it' out of my system
so that I can be worn out and tired

Hopefully I will get worn out and tired
so that I can sleep tonight

Hopefully I can sleep tonight
because I don't think I can.


Thursday, November 12, 2009

keinginan yang tiada tandingan

jangan gelak yeaaaa
orang puasa mmg mcm ni
tgk my colleague mkn mamee pon i dah teringin
siap kecur2 liur lagi
belom lagi kalo dia tayang ice lemon tea yg ice ketul2 lagi
damn!

anyway
i tak teringin sgt mkn mamee or ice lemon tea tuuu
eh jap. ice lempon tea tu mcm nak!
tapi i teringiiiinn sgt nk makan ni....



chilli crab!!!!!

nak nak nak nak naaaaaaaaakkkk

haih
indahnyaaa kalau dpt makannnn
hurrrmmmmm



New Addiction

referring to previous post,
I did mention something about exercising kan
well, sblm ni rajen gak gi swimming
tp sejak puasa aritu, dh stop
nk dptkan momentum tu balik mcm emmmm...susah gile

I have this, ermmmm impian (tak tau nk pakai perkataan ape)
tp i mmg teringin to have an addiction to run!
yeap...harus addict
mcm character Tony Eusoff dlm muvi Sepi tu
ntah laa..I rase mcm best jeee kalau dpt lari and lari tanpa rase penat
mcm freeeeeeeeeeeeee..as if im flying...

so thats what I did
erm. not run. but jog to start with.
impossible la tetibe nk lari kannnn
ade yg tulang berterabur tgh2 jln
sedangkn jog ni pon dh termengah2, apetah berlari kan

I admit, mase first day jog tu,
mmg tak motivated langsung
baru jog kejap, dh termengah2
jog nye seminit, jalan nye 5 minit
macam mane tu????

but come to second and third time
I jadi makin bersemangat
masih mengah, but dpt la jog 5 minit, jalan 2 minit
ok laa kannnn
sbb jalan pon bukan lenggang kangkung
tapi fast paced

mase first time tu lagi laaaa
I rase dh jog lame gile..
mcm nk putus nyawa pon ade
tp bile tgk jam....
What???baru 10 minit aku jog????

tp lepas2 tu, ok laaa
sbb dh seronok kan
so biasenye I spent 30-45 minutes laaa
depends on timing
yg penting, sblm maghrib, balik!

my aim is, on my tenth session,
I can jog up the hill, instead of walking

here are pics of me
just before I head back to my car
every time after jog
muka mmg pucat lesi
takde mane i nk bermakeup bagai
so yeap. this is me, with nothing on.
except for eyeliner smudges

day 1


day 2


day 3


byk yg I earn and gain dr new hobby ni
some are:
  • I drank more plain water....at least 750ml every day...masih tak cukup...but at least, better than seblm ni yg nk abeskn 1 botol 500ml pon susa
  • dapat guna function Walkmate dlm my phone.kalo tak sblm ni mmg tak pakai pon..so from there, I monitor my progress...not accurate, but still...better than nothing kan
  • jogging is much more fun while listening to the music...lelagi ngan hp baru ni kan..bunyi mmg superb laaaa...i siap dh wat satu playlist utk jogging...
  • I rase my life is much more interesting. at least its no more just home-office-shopping complex-movie jek..from air-cond to air-cond...tak de udara segar langsung! so now I dh ade activity yg best to look forward to plus, it's refreshing!
  • unlike swimming, I tak payah fork out money to jog...sblm ni I swim kt Nusa Mutiara...RM5 per session...so seminggu sekali je laaa..tak mampu nk 3 4 kali...so now its free, its a bonus la kannn..takde alasan tak pegi..unless hujan..or puasa.

for a beginner
yeap, it's tiring
and otot peha and betis adelah sgt sakit especially bila baring
tp I felt sgt motivated to run
I betol2 nk boleh run
not just jog

one fine day, I'll run!
I'll update here, once it happen



p/s: hopefully it will last long...Amin.

p/p/s: I still miss him. a lot. hope he's doing just fine.



Wednesday, November 11, 2009

I know it's bad for me

but I just can't help it

I have to admit
I have sleeping problems/issues
especially when there are a lot of things in my mind (read: stress)
and I did inform my practitioner regarding this
he offered me to do the stress test
or refer me to stress management classes
or else, manage own stress by exercising

I refused
I guess its just hard for me to accept
at a very young age (24 IS young ok!), I have problem with stress
so instead, I opt for the latter one
I'll update on that later on

anyhow, in the meantime,
in fact since I'm in UM
I've been relying on pills to dozed off
not every night
but only on 'those' nights


eversince I started working
these only happens once in a blue moon
and I have my Sampai Syurga to tuck me in at night
at least on some nights

but there are those nights
when Sampai Syurga is not available
I have to gobbled the pills. again.
for 2 consecutive nights (last 2 nights)

I know its bad
I know it may harm my kidney sooner or later

but I just can't help it
I need those to keep me sane
or else, I'll be a walking zombie!

I want to stop
I need to stop

but I just don't know how

ok. now I need my chill pills
Help!



p/s: I miss my Sampai Syurga rockstar... :'(



Tuesday, November 10, 2009

If only

If only I could turn back time
I wont let myself drown
I wont let myself get carried away by my unstable emotions
I wont let myself get caught!

If only.....


I want to R.U.N.


p/s: I am still not understanding and diagnosed with severe multiple craziness. shut up!



Sunday, November 8, 2009

Gedik Time!

yesterday, we watched Pisau Cukur @ CS
I admit, we were being a bit skeptical about the movie at first

lagi2 sbb dia pakai green screen and all kan
I igt mcm sure nampak cam weird gileee
and plus, rase cam tak berbaloi tgk citer melayu
nk fork out 20 hinggit tu cam berkire sikit

however, above it all, I've always loved Fazura!
so adela sikit rase cam nk tgk sbb suke Fazura!

gi CS, kengkonon nk tgk Law Abiding Citizen
sbb myperson's friend kata best citer tu
unfortunately, the timing is not in our favour
so we settled with Pisau Cukur then

and Oh My Prada!
we were so glad that we watched it (yea...dia pon sgt suke)
rase cam nak tgk lagi sekali jeeee (bole tak yang????)
sgt funny...tak boring langsung

the scripts adelah sgt witty
very creative I must say!
pelakon2nye ade lah superb!!!!
maya and fazura adelah sgt gorgeous!
and sgt gedik yg bukan gedik yg smpai macam nak lempang!
gedik yg oh so sweeeeeeeeeeeetttttt

kompem pas ni org dh tak ckp "Oh my God" lagiii
here comes "Oh my Louis Vuitton" or "Oh my Gucci"
and kalao nk bersin, say "Jimmy Choooooooooooooo"
hahahahaha...
k.e.l.a.k.a.r. I tell you!

mesti ramai pikir laki takkan suke
but not for him
mmg la memula dia cam malas jeee
tp dia lak yg terlebih enjoyyyyy
mase I tgk pon, dgr laki je yg byk gelak besar
sakan betol diorg gelak!


pergi laaa tengok!!!!!!!!!!
to me, I enjoyed this, more than Papadom!
two thumbs up!



ok. now.saya.nak.jadi.gedik.




Friday, November 6, 2009

unexpected

I felt like...



running



we'll see how long this can stand

I doubt that




Wednesday, November 4, 2009

my current fav 'bobok' song

a song sang by Afiq Jalil a.k.a. Afiq Tahir
hahahhaa
nama nk glamssss

last night
he sang this song for me to sleep
sort of while 'bobok'ing meeee
pas baca doa tidur, tetibe dia nyanyi
tak expect langsung

humakaihhhhh
syahdu gile raseee bile dgr bait2 lagu tu
lagi2 bile dinyanyi oleh org tersyg kannn
sebijik2 lirik tu dia hafal
tak lari tune langsung
mmg cam sedapppppp je dengarrrrr
rase cam....wah...I'm in cloud 9

yg poyonye, yours truly siap bergenang air mataaaaa
drama gileeee
tu pon nk nangissss
xde laaaaa...terharu sgt2
and of cos, saya tidur dgn nyenyak nye smlmmmm

thank you dear...
You're simply the best!
ilysm

eh eh
lupe nk mention lagu pe

tak cukup ngan tajuk
I bagi lirik sekali
sile hayatiiiiii
mari feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllllllllllllllllll bersama2


Sampai Syurga

Kumembenarkan jiwaku tuk mencintaimu
Kupersembahkan hidupku tuk bersama kamu
Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu
Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Kumembiarkan hatiku tuk merinduimu
Kumenghamparkan sakitku tuk tatapan kamu
Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu

Sampai syurga kumenunggu
Sampai syurga kucintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Kuberikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia tuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Thank You for being You!




p/s: the shirt he's wearing, suda hilang di songlap oleh penyangak yg pecah umah family dia...watch out for anyone who's wearing that black shirt yeah!



Tuesday, November 3, 2009

let it be

sometimes, standing still, is the best action ever
rather than, blurting out words that will hurt others
which eventually, you will regret later on

so, stand. stand still
but that doesn't mean you gave up
just that we let the other party, have some space and think it over

slip of tongue is the last thing you'll ever need
don't.ever.try.
u'll never know how much it hurt others.
especially your loved ones.

p/s: I am not as understanding as others. completely not.



Monday, November 2, 2009

BFF

me and tembel/ketumbit adelah BFF ok!
last 2 weeks baru je kene


ni kene lagi!
tiap kali kene, kene dua2 mata lak tuh
kali ni siap sakit lagi
denyut2 kt mata tuuu
pening jadinye....
my eyesight pon tak bape clear sbb skt tuuu
nk tido pon susa sbb dok nyut nyut kt area mata

tak tau la what cause this
myPerson and girl kate lipas kencing
takkan laa lipas tu bijak sgt shoot kt mata I kn?
ntah laa ehk....
or is it my lense?
tapi baru je ganti...
so what is it?????
korang tau tak??????

so skrg mmg specky mode jek
tak sukeeeeeeee
1) power spec tu cam dah tak cukup
2) my sight terganggu dgn spec tu...tak bes langsung!


but for the sake of my own eyes,
I'm saying NO to contacts!
for now je laaaa...
esok dh baik, pakai le balik...
ngehehehehe



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